#ronstories

[lookingformyron]

its pretty hard to start your brain up again, after not using it for so long. small steps at a time. its been a while since i’ve written anything... its just so much easier to just have all the thoughts in my head, but the thing bout those thoughts... they dont stay in my head for long.. and before you know it... its gone. goodbye to all the good ideas that never gotten a chance to make ti to real life. 

new year new me...  

[lookingformyron]

little restaurant in town

he was just 10 yo when life handed him a little more than any 10yo could handle. loved and cherished by his parents, he was the treasure in their eyes. being the only child, ron was a quiet and timid boy. He was okay with being alone, but he also get along with the other kids. although he’s only 10, he’s got more kindness and genorisity than any human could possiply posses their whole life. 

His parents owns a successful noodle restaurant, they live a pretty comfortable life. Thanks to his mom’s recipe the restaurant picked up the moment it started after his birth. Ron was always around his mom in the kitchen, helping her mixing the the flour for their noodles. Or at least to him, he was helping out. But to his mom, he was a hazard waiting to happen. She love his company regardless. His father takes care of the business aspect of the restaurant and deals with customers. Ron was more like his mom, preferred to be alone most times. 

His happiness didn’t last too long, after his 10th birthday, was the last that he was able to celebrate with his parents. One busy lunch time at the restaurant a customer was complaining about his food and services. Ron remember hearing arguments and screaming in the back, he was scared so he stayed pretty close to his mom. the fight lasted for about 20mins and then the whole restaurant fell into a complete silence. Next thing he remembered was the cops coming and took his father away. His father has hurt a man out of rage. He was at fault b/c he was the first one to struck the man. The judge ruled in the man’s favor. Ron was told he could no longer see his dad until he turns 18. He knew then, his dad must have really hurt that man. he was mad at his dad. why couldn’t his dad just control himself, then non of this would have happened. it was all his father’s fault that his mom grew frail by the days. They sold the restaurant to help with his father’s legal fees. His mom has to run north and south to take care of everything. His mom would have given up her life to help his dad. Regardless of what happened, one thing that will never change is their love for ea. other. Even at just 10yo, ron could see that every clearly. he was once jealous that his parents might love ea. other more than they love him, but his mom assure him that was not the case. It doesn’t matter anymore, his mom can’t see his dad anymore. and she was sad. 

a year or so after his father was taken away, his mom was re-hired by their restaurant to be their cook. W/o his mom’s recipe the business was not doing well, ppl were their for his mom’s bowl of noodles. It was something she would never sale, she wanted to give it to her future daughter in law. However the new owner was ruthless business ppl that treated their employees more like slaves then anything else. his mom was working 12+ hrs a day, with barely enough pay to keep the rent. She grew weaker and weaker day after day. There wasnt much laughter in the house anymore. just two ppl trying their best to survive. a few days before ron’s 11th birthday, his mom sat him down to have the hardest talk of their life. 

She can see that he’s was on the verge of being malnourish. Her son was not like other healthy kids. Ron was always tired and sleepy w/little to no energy to do anything. And she could not afford to send him to school anymore.... She got on her knees and started crying in front of him. She had to give him up so that he could have a better life. she was not capable of taking care of him anymore. She said once he get to the orphanage, there might be better suited parents that might want to adopt him. And he should go with them for a better life. Ron didn’t say anything. He didn’t cry. He did what he was told. he felt like he was a uneccessary baggage that his mom has to carry. it would be easier for her if he wasn’t around. And so he quietly started his new life at the orphanage. 

he celebrated his 11th birthday with a bunch of kids he didnt know. Ron isolated himself now more than ever. Ron was a small orphanage on the outskirt of town. The place was run by sister Kesson, she was a kind nun but with a stern personality. rules are rules and are not ment to be broken. That didn’t bother Ron all that much, he doesn’t do much anyways. He just did as he was told. 

2 years later, Ron is now the oldest kid at the orphanage. Kids comes and goes through the orphanage, but he stayed. There were a few nice couples that wanted to adopt him, but he didn’t wanna go with them. He wasn’t really waiting for his mom to come back either, he didn’t want to be a baggage to her or anyone else. He thought his parents would just toss him away once things gets hard, b/c he was disposable. Plus the orphanage needed him. Sister Kesson was already in her late 60s and she was running the place by herself. She didn’t complain much, or ask for anyone’s help. In a way, they were pretty similar. He liked that he feels peaceful around her but most importantly he felt needed. Ron helps take care of the younger ones, he became way too mature for his age, and he was okay with that. Ron was the older brother to everyone at the orphanage, he was the handy man when things goes broken, and he was the a shoulder everyone could lean on. 

After ron turned 16 he is now old enough to get a part time job. He wanted to go into town, he wanted to see how his mom is doing. But only from afar. What if she doesn’t want to see him, but would she recognize him? maybe he can just be in the background watching her. That would be enough for him. But he also need money to help sister Kesson, the orphanage relies heavily on donation but for the past couple of years it wasn’t sustainable. More ppl are donating to the bigger orphanage so that they could be reconized by the media as humanitarium. The media doens’t really go into the outskirt of town to cover any stories. Sister Kesson agrees to let him get a part time job, as long as his grades doesn’t suffer. 

Ron took the bus and went straight to his parents restaurant. He sat down for a bowl of noodles. His mom still works here... holding back his tears, Ron finished his bowl of noodles, he wanted so badly to see her. But what justification does he have to visit her? Ron doesn’t want to make his mom cry like she did years ago. he decided to start his job hunting... As he was walking out the doors, a flyer caught his eyes. they’re hiring. he applied. 

Ron started working the next day. The pay is minimum wage, there’s regulation now, the owner can’t risk being looked into by the IRS. It only took but 5mins at his new job, to see his mom again. She’s aged, but still as beautiful as ever. he debated if he should walk up to her or not. NO. he already decided to keep his distance. She was focus on her task, not once did she took her eyes off what she was doing. That works out. 

Its been two months, and she didn’t hasn’t notice her son, who comes in and out of the kitchen to bring food out.. It was around 10pm one night, and she was on her way out heading home when the owner asked if she can take the trash out with her before she leaves and lock up. Ron was in the restroom, when he headed out the whole place was dark. They must have thought everyone was gone. He headed to the back door to leave, and saw that his mom as struggling to pull the big bag of trash that was almost her size. Without hesitation, ron reached for the bag to help her. their eyes meet. Instantly her eyes were filled with tears. Hot burning tears. 

He’s failed. Once again, he mad his mom cry. 

‘im sorry’ -he said. 

His mom was confused. What does he have to be sorry for? she was the one abandoning him! 

‘im not here to be a burden. Its just a part time job. But if you dont want to see me, i can quit’ 

A burden?! has he been thinking this all these years? thats whys he left him at the orphanage? more tears roll down her cheeks. and she fell to the ground. her body numbed. her poor son. her ron. all these years he quietly stayed at the orphanage b/c he didn’t want to be her burden. 

‘my son, you are not a burden to him. you never were. i dont think i could have go on w/o knowing that one day we will be reunited. I wasn’t financially capable of taking care of you. And rather than having the states take you away from me, i wanted to put you with Sister Kesson, at least then when i come back for you, even if you are adopted she could tell me which nice couple became your parents. At least then i could find you. you are NOT my burden. you’re the best thing that happened to me and your father.’ 

Hot tears starts to roll down his cheeks now. 

‘then why didn’t you ask me to wait for you to come back. you wanted me to go with other ppl and be their kids. you didn’t want to be my mother anymore. and didn’t want anything to do with me!’ 

as those words come out his mouth, all the years of resentment and sadness could be heard behind those words. no mater now mature and understanding ron is. He was scarred, and its going to take a long time for him forgive his mom. he was mad. and he needed someone to take the anger out on. His mom could see that. she nodded. 

‘yes, be mad at me. as long as you’re healthy. Im okay with it. will you catch me up with your life? we haven’t seen each other for six years.’ 

‘no. do you still want me to quit? if i make you uncomforable 

-work with mom. she’ll get sick. and dies. 

-becomes sucessful, fund the orphanage, buy the resturant, run both places. 

-real interests in writing, and it looks like to can leave the business to his friend (childhood friend at the orphange) to travel and write

-reunite with father. who comes by the resturant to see how its doing. did some reaseach on his son. and understand the story

-business and everything was looking good. but the orphanage was being threaten to be demolish. sister kessson is stressing out and dont know what to do. turns out the land belongs to the gov. which  was sold under the table for some politician personal gain. 

-to save the orphanage ron has to give up his parents restaurant. and join corporate

[lookingformyron]

BOARDS

boards is in about 6 days from today! i’ve gotten this far and im almost there! i need to persist and keep going! i have it in me, i need to put in the work and everything will pay off. anything is achievable as long as you put in the effort! i’ve proven that to be true since the begining of time. and its not going to be any different this time either! i can do it! 

half the battle is work. and i’ve put in! 

FIGHTING! 

[lookingformyron]

first day of spring 2016

today i woke up and decided it was going to be a good day. and its was. so i thought is it really that easy? and i think it is.  i believe positive energy is overlooked most of the time. to be sad, or unhappen, your’e still going to have to make it through the next day, so why not chose the happier route. is what people often said. and occasionally i forget.  i hope that once in a while we all stop to smell the roses. that we’ll wake up and decided nothing  could ruin our good day. if you set your mind to it, you can do it.  occasionally throughout the day i thought about some unhappy things. like a friendship that’s seem to be nonexistence. it makes me a little sad, and I'm not even sure why our relationship is heading down this path. but i decided that its i’ll have a good day. and i did. spend my afternoon at a coffee shop, reading a good book. did some studying with a friend. had fun. then i went to dinner with another good friend. today was fking fantastic.  if you put yourself around good company. the people that brings joy to your life. nothing could go wrong from there. 

[lookingformyron]

great time to be alive

although i hate the idea of cramming and studying and the anxiety of the exams. for some reasons, i really enjoy the student life. worry free, just studying at coffee shops and trying our best to conquer the next test. 

being able to just lounge around, studying, sipping that cold coffee on a hot summer day is just a great feeling. i’m just glad to be alive and be able to work hard towards the things i want in life. not a lot of people have the choice to choose their career, or a chance at education. and i’m grateful for what i have. just putting it out there. 

[lookingformyron]

screaming for help

i was going for a walk during the night. the fact that its dark and i’m in a pretty bad neighborhood did not register...not yet. then a black car drove passed me followed by a cop. then i heard machines guns going off. i got on the ground hoping they don’t see, hoping that the blanket i have on my back would make me invisible. but the guy from the black car saw me, and next thing i know he was shooting at me. then everything started to become really slow, slow enough for me to duck from the bullets. they were on to me. then he got out of his car and now standing in front of the police office. 

he pointed his guy at the officer. there was a gun by the officer’s feet so i kicked it and it went off on the criminal, straight on the chest. he feel down. i thought i was in the clear but then out of the blue there’s another guy and he was limping towards us. at this time i’m the only one that’s not injured~ 

i grabbed the gun and pointed at the guy that was coming towards us. i told him to stay where he is or ill shoot. but he keep moving towards me. we are not on the street anymore, we’re now inside a building. 5 story and vacant. i see a phone on the wall. and i reached for it. trying to call the cops. but i was so nervous, so instead of 911, i dialed 922. failed. it seems like the cops is not in any danger, i decided to move to the other floors to find a phone. next thing you know, i’m on the 5th floor, thinking i’m safe. i looked for a phone. nothing. i hear foot steeps and now he is in the room with me. i pointed the gun at him. he knew i wouldn't have the guts to shoot him. and he was right. but i if i don’t, we’re all going to be in trouble. so i shot him. 

i didn’t see any blood coming out of his body. ITS  A BEBE GUN!! i’m so fked!! but it doesn’t seem like he noticed that it was a fake gun! he just felt the pain and assumed that he was shot. i looked out the windown and i see a pair of siblings playing in their drive way. i screamed for help, the window was open. i scream as loud as i can but only whispers came out. the window was open, but they can't hear me! finally i was able to let out my voice, “HELPPP” 

and i woke up yelling! 

[lookingformyron]

Dream 1

It was survival of the fittest or the fastest. We were all trapped inside a 10+ story building filled with zombies. I have to get my family and friends out, the only way for that to happen was to complete their quest. We have to make our way to the top story and obtain a piece of stripper shower curtain and make out way down.

Each story is a different setting a different event. It could be Someone’s house. A restaurant. A school. Etc. Zombies are filling the the place. People who you used to know could be one of them. They’re no longer your friends. They're a zombie that will stop at no means trying to make you into one of them. it was all men for themselves. 

this is why i should finish my thoughts instead of saving a damn draft.. bc now i can't remember the rest of this dream. 

here's to in-completion! 

[lookingformyron]

This nap... Lasted to the wee of the night. I shall do what i set to do tomorrow. I've came to a realization that I always invest all my love onto a person. ALL. And expect the same in return. It doesn't work like that. I don't get a fraction of what I give. I try to not let that bothers me, but it does. It so does. But then what? I still whole hearted love them. Setting my heart up.