Ummm kinda maybe? I mean, I consistently have crushes on famous people or fictional characters because it’s easy to build them up as this perfectly flawed human being who’s a great companion and knows exactly what to say and do because it’s not real. So I’m normally always “”in love”” with someone unattainable but I think I have real life crushes that like come and go.
I just really want a relationship but also know that I’m no where near capable of having one right now, so I’ll like get crushes on my friends and think ‘I love them I could totally date them and stuff right?? obvi’ but ????? idk
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
I'm not even gonna go back and edit this I'm so tired rn
5. last time you cried = like 5 minutes ago (i'm still rewatching teen wolf; i love those kids so much, gosh)
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = actually yes??? if you count 6th grade relationships, then yeah
7. been cheated on = nope
8. kissed someone & regretted it = also no (but tbh i haven't had my first kiss sooooo)
9. lost someone special = like by death? yeah, family memebers
10. been depressed = ahahahahaha
11. been drunk and threw up = no
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
red, black, blue
LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend = i think so
16. Fallen out of love = i fell outta love with doctor who
17. Laughed until you cried = yes
18. Met someone who changed you = not last year, no
19. Found out who your true friends are = ??? don't think so
20. Found out someone was talking about you = nope
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list = #neverbeenkissed
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: it used to be like 95% but then i friended like 100 people for an app i was using so now it's like 65%. but i really only talk to less than 1% of my fb friends occasionally
24. Do you have any pets: 1 doge
25. Do you want to change your name: i used too really badly. i still think about it, but i probably wouldn't. i'd like to have nicknames that aren't my name though (like kori <3333)
26. What did you do for your last birthday: my best friend came over and my mom bought 17 balloons and we baked cookies and lounged around (i don't think we went anywhere??? but i could be wrong??)
27. What time did you wake up today = i haven't gone to bed yet (rewatching teen wolf fucked up my schedule bc i couldn't sleep so i stayed up all night to finish season 2 and since then i've been going to bed way past daybreak)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: trying to decide whether to start teen wolf or to go to bed and watch it later in the day when my mom wasn't gonna be home (i was gonna go to bed bc i was tired but then i got distracted and all of a sudden it was 3 and if i didn't get up before my mom left i wasn't gonna get pumpkin pancakes until late afternoon when she got home. sto i stayed up for pumpkin pancakes. they better be fuckin delicious.)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: christmas (gross gross i know, i'm one of those people)
30. Last time you saw your Mother: literally right now
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i wasn’t so shy and that i was a a size 12 (also #same)
32. What are you listening to right now: my fan
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: yes
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: this question (also my lack of sleep)
35. Most visited webpage: library (but tumblr tbh)
37. Nickname: ali
38. Relationship Status: hilarious (:D)
39. Zodiac sign = aquarius
40. He or She?: she
41. Elementary: i went to 7-8 different school
42. High School: online
43. College: haven't graduated high school yet
44. Hair color = strawberry blonde
45. Long or short = long (i rly need to get a haircut)
46. Height = 5’5 1/2"
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: not like on a real person i actually know, but yes to celebrities and fictional characters #gross (oh wait nevermind i think i might have a crush on a girl??? maybe?? ahahahaha)
48. What do you like about yourself?: honestly i sometimes find stuff i like about myself but never when i'm answering these. ummmmm i like how i'm scatterbrained sometimes, except that it can be really hard for people to understand me, because i'll end up talking about 3 things at once and getting off track and the original point is gone. it's hard for me to get to the point, but i kinda like it? like, there are things i don't like about it, but when i'm trying to think creatively, or come up with a plot for a story or something, it helps me jump from here to there and back again usually without losing my idea or fucking up my pace too bad. it keeps my brain going. (i'm also gr8910 at bullshitting my way through stuff)
50. Tattoos: none. i thought i would never ever want a tattoo because i hate needles but i may get some one day?? but i'd have to plan what i want in advance and get plastered before going.
51. Righty or lefty = righty
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: never
53. First piercing: ears (they've now closed up)
54. First best friend: coincidentally, a girl named michaela (current bff named michaela)
55. First sport you joined: basketball
56. First vacation: disneyworld (i went all the time when i lived in florida)
58. First pair of trainers: light up ones?? (probably #same)
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = waiting for my mom to start the pancakes #hungry
60. Drinking = water
61. I’m about to: what the fuck, fuckin pancakes, i just said
62. Listening to: fan still
63. Waiting for: fuck you
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids? = i... um.. kinda yes? i always wanted kids growing up. i wanted to be a mom. but now that i'm getting older i just?? it's still something i want, but i also debate about it. because i'm a pretty selfish person when it comes down to it and you really have to be dependable and selfless and responsible with child care and obviously, at this very point in my life i would not be able to handle it, so it very much scares me, but later down the line, when i'm in my late 20s or 30s or something, i'm hoping i'l be up for it (i really badly want to adopt lots of kids. same with animals. but i also envision another path for my life. i'm really conflicted right now and i have no idea what i'll do with the rest of my life. but i do hope so. i love kids)
65. Get Married? = i always wanted to get married. so badly. i just wanted to find the person i was meant to be with and spend the rest of my life with them, as soon as possible. but now?? i mean, idk. again, i'm not at a place in my life. even though i know at 17 i wouldn't be waltzing down the isle anytime soon. i think it's something i do want, i just don't know how i'll ever be as comfortable around another human being as i am when i'm alone. but i have hope that there is someone out there for everyone. but even then, i want to get married but i think marriage in general is so weird. i didn't used to, but you know the aziz anzari joke and he says marriage is weird because it's saying you want to get the law involved in your relationship so they can never leave (i know divorce is a thing tho). once i heard that i really started thinking about it a lot. i think it's something i would still really want to do if i found that person, but my mom's walking me down the isle and no one is handing me off because i'm not property.
66. Career? = writer, librarian, something to do with film, like acting (pipe dream).
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes = eyes
68. Hugs or kisses= hugs, i’ve never kissed anybody to compare (#same)
69. Shorter or taller = taller :) i've liked people shorter than me/my height before, so it's not a deal breaker, but damn if it doesn't take my breath away just a bit when a dudes a lot taller than me. i'm so attracted to that. (idk about the ladies, probably either or, ladies are amazing)
70. Older or Younger = older, preferably. i used to be pretty big on the age gap thing (mostly because of celebrities), but now i'm finding myself less so? at least, compared to how much i used to really want that. mostly i like mature people. very mature people. i can still be immature and make jokes and whatnot, but immaturity is such a turn off, i can't even. i feel like i'm surrounded by immature people constantly and it drives me crazy.
71. Romantic or spontaneous = romantic. there are situations where spontaneity would be admired and appreciated, but i am not a spontaneous person. i need a plan. i need warning. i don't like doing things at the drop of a hat. i'm getting better, much better, but i can handle it in spades, and half the time it still grates my nerves.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = uuuuummmmmm arms ;)
73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship (tho...tbh...sometimes i feel like i could totally hook up until i find "that special someone")
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = fuck, idk. ummm i'm too hesitant so i'd like someone who's more forward and willing to make the first mood. i'm also very appealed by the 'bad boy'. but sometimes trouble makers wanna make you commit trouble too and that's just, no thanks stop please. it sounds kinda gross
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger = no
77. Drank hard liquor = don't think so
78. Lost glasses/contacts = none to lose (day 1145: i still need glasses)
79. Sex on first date = never been on a date
80. Broke someone’s heart = maybe, the good person in me hopes i haven't. the self conscious, insecure, holds-onto-anything-that-can-boost-my-confidence person hopes i have.
81. Had your own heartbroken = depends
82. Been arrested = no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died = yes
85. Fallen for a friend = yep
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = sometimes. mostly no, but even just planning on having a future and living a life in that future makes it seem like i'm putting a lot of faith in myself to pull it all off
87. Miracles = i'm still really cynical but i'll say yes because it's how i was raised
88. Love at first sight = am i gross if i say yes?? (like, tbh no, but what the fuck ever. yes.)
89. Heaven = yes. i think a different version than what most people believe though. there's also another thing i might believe in that is contradictory to that (its kinda reincarnation but not really). i believe in a bunch of pieces of different things
90. Santa Claus = nope
91. Kiss on the first date = yeah
92. Angels = yes (again, because how i was raised. also maybe the hopeful side of my cynical heart)
I'm tagging the ppl at the beginning and anyone else who wants to do this. Esp if we've talked before
(I'm so tired right now. Idk if you can notice but halfway through this I totally 'overshared' more because I'm so fucking tired I don't know how i'm keep my eyes open [pancakes. pumpkin fucking pancakes])
Rule One: Always post the rules.
Rule Two: Answer the questions asked by your tagger and ask eleven more.
Rule Three: Tag eleven people and link them to this post.
Rule Four: Actually tell them you tagged them.
1: What was the last book you read and what did you think of it?
Lola and the Boy Next Door. I loved it, it was very cute and fluffy.
2: What was the last tv show you binge watched?
Buffy! Doing that pretty much right now. It's a binge rewatch. :)
3: What was the pairing for the last fic you read?
I don't read a lot of fics, but I think it was Emily/Allison from PLL
4: Got any piercings? Do you want any (more)?
Nope and nope. I have a kind of phobia of rust so I'd constantly be thinking of the piercing rusting inside my body. I know that wouldn't actually happen, but holy shit that idea freaks me out so much.
5: What’s the best trip you’ve ever been on?
Holiday to England last year. I saw Matilda the Musical in London; it was amazing!
8: Got any skills/talents? (even unusual ones)
I'm good enough at maths to study it in uni... Does that count?
9: What do you have hanging/stuck up on your wall?
Doctor Who post-it notes. A drawing of me with my (I'm sad to admit) former best friend. A mathematics-themed calendar. Lots of shelves with shitloads of memories on them (and books, of course, all the books).
10: Preferred footwear?
Nothing. And when that's not possible, my cute red heels.
11: Top 5 things to do where you live
1. Stay in bed and read
2. Lie on the couch and read
3. Sit in the garden and read
4. Tumblr.
5. Did I mention reading?
My questions:
1: What's your favourite TV intro?
2: If you could be anyone in the world for one day, who would you be? How about for a year? Would that change your answer?
3: What's your least favourite colour?
4: If you could only read one book (or book series) for the rest of your life, which would you choose?
5: What's your favourite quote?
6: What's you worse fear?
7: Which fictional world would you most want to live in?
