Today, I was thinking about how happy I get with small gifts. Like the free pufferfish stress ball that my mom picked up for me at her conference. Or something like a sticker or a piece of candy... things like that always make me extremely happy. Like, I don’t think most people get this extremely happy over little trinkets, but for me it’s like... ‘this person was thinking of me’. I don’t know what that says about my brain, but I love the happy feeling I get.
I was thinking about it today, and it reminded me of one of my favorite book quotes when I was in elementary school. Granted, the version I remembered was abridged for a younger audience, but here’s the ACTUAL quote:
“If any being felt emotions of benevolence towards me, should return them an hundred and an hundred fold; for that one creature's sake, I would make peace with the whole kind!”
... That quote always stuck out to me. I didn’t understand the story or the characters of Frankenstein, really (I was given a very sanitized Doctor is Bad, Monster is Good version-- and I still haven’t read the real thing aaahhh) ehhh it makes me wonder if, maybe, I didn’t see a bit of myself in the Monster. I’ve been struggling with bad self-esteem since I can remember, which is a shame because I was an adorable kid and I never saw it.
... On a less awkward subject, I wonder why I was so much more attracted to Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde than I was Frankenstein? I think it was because I loved the idea of an “evil” person also having “good” in them. I loved villain reform stories... I still do, sometimes, if they’re done well.
... This was a long post. What’s the point of it? Uhhh... ah, yes, I love it when people spoil me with small things like stickers and stress balls and also I really need to actually read Frankenstein.
