This is both vent art and a significant point in Samantha's journey in the story. I'm not particularly happy with where I am, my creativity is drained and I've realized I'm not that good of an artist or storyteller. College drained most of my enjoyment of hobbies to the point where sometimes I hate having free time. I've changed, and sometimes I can't tell if for the better or worse. I used to be brimming with enthusiasm, eager to share my excitement with friends about anything, I used to be such a happy and silly girl. But I am so dissapointed, I feel like sometimes even when I speak my voice isn't loud enough to be heard, and when it is heard, I feel like I come across as annoying. I'm in need of a hug but I'm afraid of kindness, it all feels like a paradox. I'm so so tired.
I've recently started rewatching Little Witch Academia for the fourth time and as much as it brings me some joy, it also made me realise that the reason my story had been going in circles for years is because it was low key a Little witch academia ripoff, even if that was not my intention, as much as I adore Samantha and Gail, I also feel like they're holding me back, both in my art and in my day to day life in a way. A part of me wants to completely destroy "Roundtable Rivals", move on and start fresh, but a part of me is afraid, because these characters have been with me for so long and just letting go is hard. "The light behind your eyes" is my go to song when things are to much and the tears start falling, it's my comfort song and what inspired this piece.
