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[luntiangbughaw]

Shades of grey . #monochrome #bw #sunkengarden #rrtcc #rockwell #westblock #trees #garden #citygarden #seyerreivajyhlo #hidalgo #rizal #luna #amorsolo (at Rockwell Makati)

[vastderp]

I'm curious to see the original Cronus meta that got you into the first encounter with CAA. Seebs calls it a thoughtful meta, CAA calls it hate, but I've never seen it for myself and I'm curious. Any chance you could link?

i barely even remember, it would have been september 15 to the 19th or so of 2013, over on my old blog. i am pretty sure the last post i made before he showed up was the one where someone asked if i thought it was appropriate to call Cronus a rapist, to which i responded “no, not unless the character actually commits rape in the story”. i don’t really like it when people use grave terms in inappropriate ways, even if the character is a ginormous predatory sleaze. 

so even at the start, CAA was yelling at me for an opinion i didn’t actually have. later i figured out he kind of assigns a certain very uniform wrongthink to his delusional hivemind of Haters so he can lump us all together. looking back, it seems a lot clearer he just plain has trouble seeing anybody he dislikes as individuals rather than a threatening, abusive, persecution-happy “them”

tell you a secret: he’s too scared to fact check anything anyone disputes, because every time he does that, he notices inconsistencies on his end and finds out he made mistakes or remembered things wrong, and that throws him for a gigantic unreality loop. once he settles down, he tells himself i have ‘gaslighted’ him into doubting himself. 

because god forbid he just get something wrong, y’know?

he won’t even look at the source material to cite a specific conversation he swears happened in the story. he panics and lashes out if you even ask. why? because it was an RP log that he read and mistook for canon, and if he accepts that, he has to accept that maybe other things he’s sure of aren’t true. so he doubles down on the “my memory is perfect and if it went differently than i remember it that’s a sign that reality itself is wrong!”

i feel equal parts disgust and pity for the guy, because if all he has to clutch onto is his delusion of of absolute infallibility, he sure fucked up picking “human” on the character select screen. our brains are made of meat, for fuck’s sake D:

[vastderp]

8 pieces of advice

do not drink with your meds until you’ve spoken to your prescribing physician about the possible consequences.

call your doctor’s emergency line if you are having urges to hurt yourself or someone else, whether it’s caused by drinking on your meds (which you should not do) or not

tell the appropriate authorities everything about me and the other cyber-stalkers, especially the one in the middle of the Atlantic ocean. Show them every piece of proof you have. Let me know when you have done so, maybe even including the phone number of the officer you’ve spoken to, so that i can contact them to receive the justice i have coming to me.

do not drink with your meds

stop hanging out with people who think it’s cute when you drink with your meds. the last thing you need right now is more people encouraging you to cut loose.

get more help. the help you’re getting right now doesn’t seem to be sufficient for your needs, as your behavior has been getting more bizarre by the week. i can’t not point this out, seeing as how your symptoms also affect me.

do not drink with your meds while you are getting this additional help

congratulations! you’re a recovery hero!