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[angeligion]

stop comparing your successes to that of others. it’s your journey, take your time and relax. breath and let go.

[angeligion]

you are not going to TRY to shift, YOU ARE GOING TO SHIFT

REPEAT IT WITH ME

“I WILL NOT TRY TO SHIFT. I AM SHIFTING.”

[angeligion]

ꮽ   .  𝗁𝗈𝗐   𝗋𝗌𝗅𝗂𝟥𝟥   𝗌𝗁𝗂𝖿𝗍𝖾𝖽

     ⠀𝟭.    𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽 𝖺 𝖿𝖾𝗐 𝗉𝗈𝗌𝗍 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝖿𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗎𝗆𝖻𝗅𝗋 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖽𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖽𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗆𝗒 𝗍𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝖽𝗋 𝗌𝖾𝗅𝖿, 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝖺𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗇𝖽 𝟣𝟤:𝟢𝟣, 𝗂 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝗋𝗈𝗌𝗒𝗅𝗇 𝖻𝗒 𝖻𝗈𝗇 𝗂𝗏𝖾𝗋, 𝗂 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗉𝗅𝖺𝗒 𝗌𝗈𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗋𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽 𝗆𝖾 𝗈𝖿 𝗆𝗒 𝖽𝗋'𝗌, 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝗌𝗈𝗇𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝗂𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗉𝗌 𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗆𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝖼𝗈𝗇𝗇𝖾𝖼𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗆𝗒 𝖽𝗋'𝗌

     ⠀𝟮.    𝗂 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝖼𝖾𝗋𝗍𝖺𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌, 𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗋𝖾𝗌 𝖨 𝗇𝖾𝖾𝖽𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝖽𝗈𝗇𝖾, 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝖾𝗑𝖺𝗆𝗉𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗆𝗒 𝖼𝗅𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗌, 𝖼𝗈𝗈𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗄𝖿𝖺𝗌𝗍, 𝗌𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗈𝗅 𝗌𝗎𝗉𝗉𝗅𝗂𝖾𝗌, 𝖼𝗅𝖾𝖺𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗎𝗉 𝗆𝗒 𝗋𝗈𝗈𝗆 𝖾𝗍𝖼. 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝖨 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄 𝗈𝖿 𝗆𝗒 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗌 𝖨 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝗂𝗉𝗍𝖾𝖽, 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗐𝖾 𝗐𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝖽𝗈 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗐𝖾 𝗁𝗎𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗂𝖿 𝗐𝖾 𝗐𝖾𝗇𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝗉𝗈𝗋𝗍 𝖺𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗋𝖾𝗌 𝗐𝖾 𝗐𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝗀𝗈. 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍.

     ⠀𝟯.   𝗂 𝗄𝖾𝗉𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗍𝖾𝗇 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗎𝗍𝖾𝗌 (𝖨 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗇𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂𝗇 𝗆𝗒 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽) 𝗆𝗒 𝖻𝗈𝖽𝗒 𝖿𝖾𝗅𝗍 𝗐𝖾𝗂𝗋𝖽, 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝗉𝗈𝗌𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 𝖺𝗌 𝗂𝗇 𝗆𝗒 𝖼𝗋 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝖿𝖾𝗅𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝖨 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝗍𝗐𝗈, 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝖿𝗅𝗈𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗈𝗉 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝖼𝗁 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗏𝗂𝖾𝗋. 𝗌𝗍𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝗆𝗒 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽𝗉𝗁𝗈𝗇𝖾𝗌 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗆𝗒 𝗌𝗈𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗇, 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝖼𝗁 𝖨 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝗂𝗉𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝖾𝗑𝗂𝗌𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗂𝗇 𝟤𝟢𝟢𝟧, (𝖨 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗌𝗈𝗇𝗀, 𝗒𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗇𝗈 𝗂𝖽𝖾𝖺)

     ⠀𝟰.   𝗅𝗂𝗍𝖾𝗋𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝖿𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗄𝖾𝖽 𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝖿𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝖼 𝗆𝗂𝖽 𝗐𝖺𝗒 𝖨 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 "𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗁 𝗇𝗈 𝗐𝖺𝗒 𝖨'𝗆 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝖿𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗐𝖺𝗒 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗐𝗍𝗏" 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖨 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝖿𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄, 𝗈𝗉𝖾𝗇𝖾𝖽 𝗆𝗒 𝖾𝗒𝖾𝗌 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗅𝗂𝗓𝖾𝖽 𝗂𝗇 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝟣𝟤:𝟢𝟥. . . 𝗈𝗇𝗅𝗒 𝗍𝗐𝗈 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗎𝗍𝖾𝗌 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝗉𝖺𝗌𝗌𝖾𝖽 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝖺𝖿𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝖨 𝗅𝖾𝗀𝗂𝗍 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝟣𝟢 𝗂𝗇 𝗆𝗒 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽.

𝖽𝗂𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗇𝖾𝗑𝗍 𝗇𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍, 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗍𝗋𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝗆𝖺𝗄𝖾 𝗂𝗍 𝖺 𝗁𝖺𝖻𝗂𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾 𝖺𝖻𝗅𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝖿𝗍 𝗆𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝗈𝖿𝗍𝖾𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗉𝖾𝗇𝖾𝖽, 𝖨 𝖿𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗄𝖾𝖽 𝗈𝗎𝗍.

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[angeligion]

i don’t believe in failed attempts anymore, i’m just making a habit out of it. didn’t shift? nah wasn’t trying to, i was just making it habit for my brain

[angeligion]

i’m a stubborn piece of shit, i don’t care how many times ppl or my own brain tell me that shifting isn’t real, im fucking doing it until i shifted to every single one of my drs, fuck the universe and fuck my brain.

[angeligion]

i am so terrified of any form of intimacy that scripting s/o’s scare me so much and yet i do it because i crave to be loved and understood in ways beyond my body but at the same time i’m scared of letting ppl get to close because i’m scared of being rejected.

so yes, i do script some one sided love tropes, not bc i want angst, but because i’m scared of intimacy that comes in any shape way or form.

i wish to be understood and yet i am scared of what i crave.