[08:35] CG: *Its 6een a while since the accident itself, 6ut Kankri is finally here at the d99r and ready with his list 9f grieviences t9 tally 9ff at Rufi9h. There was as much grumpiness in Kankri's c9mpact 69dy as there was anxi9usness, 6ut he 6ravely and rappidly kn9cked 9n that d99r anyways.*
[09:07] AT: *has been dutifully keeping himself relaxed and resting these past few weeks. Maybe a little too much but hey. It's not like anybody's around to fuss over him too much. At the moment Kankri knocks, Rufioh is reclining in the clutter of his room, feet propped up on the coffee table. This means he's gonna have to get up to answer, which painstakingly he does. The door swings open and there stands Ru
[09:07] AT: f in a loose tshirt and pajama pants.* ...hey, dude. *squints a lil. Well... damn.*
[09:12] CG: *Dont you squint at him sir. Kankri is standing there with his arms cross squarely and his shoulders tight.* Y9u l99k well rested.
[09:12] CG: H9w have y9u 6een?
[09:12] CG: I can't imagine its 6een a great time, given y9ur injuries.
[09:13] CG: And since the t9pic 9f th9se injuries has 6een 6r9ught up, I'd really like t9 g9 int9 great detail a69ut the series 9f redicul9us events that caused y9u t9 get them.
[09:13] CG: If y9u have time 9f c9urse, 6ut I w9uldn't 6e surprised if y9u did.
[09:14] CG: *Is he sounding a little hostile? A little bitter? Yeah.*
[09:19] AT: *hardly has time to respond to the string of questions and rhetorical statements. Rufioh scratches at his chest, idly messing with his bandages under his shirt.* 1 got the t1me.
[09:19] AT: but.
[09:19] AT: 1t also depends.
[09:19] AT: are you... only plann1ng on ragg1ng on me t1l you're blue 1n the face? or can 1 look forward to other po1ntless sh1t we can talk about? *Two can play at this bitter, grump game.*
[09:26] CG: That all depends if y9u are willing t9 hear me talk a69ut said "P9intless shit" and n9t just listen uninterested until I s9meh9w say s9mething that manages t9 send y9u away again until y9u see fit t9 thr9w 69m6ardment items 9f questi9na6le su6stances at me again.
[09:28] CG: *He takes a sharp, deep, breath after that snippy short rant.* I want t9 attempt t9 w9rk 9ut s9me things 6etween us. T9 get an understanding 9f what tensi9n there has 6een weighing heavily 9n 9ur friendship.
[09:28] CG: 6ecause h9nestly I am really starting t9 6ec9me frustrated.
[09:29] AT: *also crosses his arms and leans up against the doorway* to be fa1r. 1 was mess1ng around w1th damara before and 1 thought 1t'd be okay mess1ng w1th you and d1rk.
[09:29] AT: nobody told me 1t was worthy of an ass wallop.
[09:30] AT: but f1ne. whatever. just come 1ns1de. *draags himself back into the block but luckily leaves the door open for Kankri to enter. Careful of the mess.*
[09:33] CG: *He enters and closes the door behind himself at the same time he starts talking.* I never said it was w9rthy 9f that either. The list 9f grieviences I have with Dirk's acti9ns are a mile l9ng and y9u can place high 6ets that when I get t9 him a69ut it he will kn9w my views 9n his 9ver the t9p reacti9n t9 his asult 6y mud and pudding. *Kankri looks around and grimaces at the mess. This place was i
[09:33] CG: n terrible disaray, did it always look like this? This was the first time he had ever been in Rufioh's block.*
[10:09] AT: *Not actually. It's hard keeping up with your room when your rib and emotional health is broke. Rufioh gets himself comfortable back down into the couch, careful as he can.* 1 don't see how 1t's gonna help any.
[10:09] AT: he knows what he d1d was wrong.
[10:09] AT: he's sorry.
[10:10] AT: *slowly rests his elbow onto a pillow*
[10:10] AT: don't need to rem1nd h1m just how.
[10:12] CG: *Kankri huffs and does his best to navigate around trash and other unsavory piles until he is standing near the couch.* H9nestly I think I might need t9. This is n9t the first time he has acted in such a rash and th9ughtless way t9 the p9int where he endangered the well 6eing 9f s9me9ne else. His hands are hardly clean 9f his past incidents.
[10:20] AT: 1t sounds l1ke 1ncr1m1nat1ng someone for the1r act1ons and not acknowledg1ng why they're happen1ng 1n the f1rst place 1s a h1gh fly1ng way to make sure 1t happens aga1n. *mumbles, accidentally knocking an empty tea can from the coffee table with his heel*
[10:24] CG: *He scurries to pick up the fallen can and place it firmly back on the table, a bit farther away from Rufioh's feet, with an agetated sigh.* Are y9u even trying t9 av9id making a larger mess 9f y9ur 6l9ck? It isn't pr9ductive, n9r 6ec9ming, n9r HEALTHY t9 keep it in such a state. I am n9t trying t9 6e 9ver6aring 6ut its fairly redicul9us that y9u have let it get t9 such a state.
[10:30] AT: my r1bs are k1nda broke, dude. *just lies here against the couch, not bothering to move even as Kankri plucks the can up. With his hair deflated and lacking its usual bright red color, he just looks so grumpy.* 1t's hard to keep up w1th my block when 1 can't even touch my toes.
[10:32] CG: And I am supp9sed t9 6elieve there is n9 9ne y9u c9uld have even asked t9 help y9u during this time?
[10:32] CG: 6ecause I am certain there are pe9ple y9u c9uld have asked.
[10:33] CG: Like friends. 9r me. Since I am n9t sure where I fall in terms 9f y9ur regards anym9re.
[10:34] AT: nobody 1 wanted to 1mpose on, no. *fiddles with the drawstring of his PJs*
[10:35] CG: I d9u6t it w9uld 6e imp9sing.
[10:36] AT: 1 st1ll d1dn't wanna. *mutters*
[10:37] AT: a troll's gotta have h1s pr1de, ok. 1t's noth1ng personal.
[10:37] CG: *He wants to STAY mad. But god this entire block was such a mess it was driving him crazy just being in it. So. While still being ANGRY, Kankri plucked the can plus any more trash items on the table and gathered them in his arms before searching around the room.* Where is y9ur trash recepticle.
[10:38] CG: I'm n9t damaging y9ur pride if I'm rudely clearing 9ff y9ur ta6le with9ut y9ur permisi9n s9 y9u sh9uld have n9 pr96lem in directing me t9 it.
[10:38] AT: *stops staring at the ground and stares up at him instead* ...by the tv.
[10:45] CG: *He is pretending not to notice the stare, and instead silently goes to dump everything in his arms into the trash can by the tv. He then sets to picking up anything else that isn't completely vile or is dirty laundry. So mostly cans, and empty but fairly clean containers.*
[10:45] CG: *Kankri is also completely silent during this time, and is impossibly focused on his task.*
[10:46] AT: *something about this display is really irritating and he can't explain what. He just sighs. Very carefully.*
[10:46] AT: 1 d1dn't ask you to help me, dogg. 1 prom1se, 1 got 1t covered.
[10:49] CG: I kn9w y9u didn't ask me. *He goes to dump another small armfull of mess into the trash* 6ut I d9 have my d9u6ts that y9u actually d9 have any 9f this *gestures to the messy block* c9vered.
[10:50] AT: not really for you to dec1de.
[10:50] AT: anyway... 1 th1nk 1'd rather talk about resolv1ng our 1ssues. *says in a curt tone, glancing off*
[10:51] CG: Perhaps n9t, 6ut if y9u have issue with any 9f these empty 6everage cans g9ing in the trash y9u 9nly have t9 say s9- *He pauses when Rufioh glances off, but still remains with his back turned slight to the other.* ......
[10:52] AT: so where'd you wanna start. *He trusts that Kankri was the man with the plan.*
[10:53] CG: I just want t9 kn9w... what s9rt 9f issue y9u seem t9 have with me. *He slowly returns to gather trash and organzing as he talks. Its getting dangerously close to talk about his own feelings, and his confidence is wavering a little because of that.*
[10:53] CG: It was my understanding that we were fairly alright as far as friends g9 f9r s9me time.
[10:54] CG: 6ut... N9w I am starting t9 w9nder if y9u happen t9 h9ld distate f9r my presence.
[10:54] CG: *He makes another garbage toss run* I just want a straight f9ward answer 9f where we stand with each 9ther.
[10:58] AT: yeah, 1 guess. *tracing patterns on his arm pillow. As Kankri speaks further, his fingers tense into the fabric, the frown increasing on his face.* ...what do you mean "where we stand", yo.
[10:58] AT: 1t's not me who dec1ded on how to treat be1ng fr1ends w1th me.
[11:06] CG: *Hes quickly running out of mild trash to collect, and he isn't so desprate to drop to picking up dirty socks or stale food just because he wants to avoid a topic, so without any clear garbage in sight, Kankri has no choice but to turn to face Rufioh again and make uncomfortable eye contact.* What I mean is d9 y9u even want t9 6e my friend anym9re. 6ecause I feel like any attempt I have made t9 en
[11:06] CG: c9urage a gr9wth in 9ur aquaintence has 6een met with either indifference, 9r even disintrest. I have made great attempts t9 try and rectify 9ur relati9nship after 9ur last disagreement, even g9ing s9 far as t9 watch all th9se sh9ws which y9u menti9ned liking, 6ut I still cant help 6ut get the hint that y9u have n9 interest in interacting with me.
[11:07] CG: S9 6asically I just want t9 kn9w if that is true 9r n9t. And if it is then s9 6e and I'll leave y9u al9ne and y9u d9n't have t9 thr9w mud 9r c9nfecti9nary deserts at me anym9re.
[11:22] AT: *He listens to this with increasing incredulity, the disbelief growing more and more apparent on his face. It's a lot harder to contain his anger then and so he replies with a harsh tone of voice.* you th1nk 1t's ME who doesn't wanna be fr1ends, dude??
[11:22] AT: 1t was never me who started th1s! you know what started th1s?
[11:22] AT: 1t was you kanks. 1t was you say1ng pla1n as the fuck1ng p1nk moon that you had no respect for me. that you were just HUMOR1NG me try1ng to talk th1ngs out w1th you. how the fuck do you th1nk that made me feel???
[11:23] AT: when all 1 wanted was a homeboy 1 could rely on. someone who would treat me l1ke hey. maybe th1s person matters.
[11:23] AT: 1 WANTED to be there for you back then. but what the hell d1d you say?
[11:24] AT: 1 m1ght as well be nobody to you. *finishes with a hiss and a hand clutched tightly into his pillow*
[11:45] CG: *He was rather taken aback by Rufioh's harsh outburst. Alright, he had been expecting some sort of reaction but an aloof one. Not ... not whatever this was. For a few good moments Kankri was left fishing for words as he tried to put back together his original defense.* I... I never said y9u were n969dy t9 me! Where w9uld y9u even get such a n9ti9n!! And at what p9int did I st9p 6eing relya6le?? 6ecause in all h9nesty it was me wh9 st9pped acting friendly 9r started 6rushing 9ff any attempt at friendliness with a seemingly cal9us aditude!
When I said I was 9nly hum9ring y9u, yes I meant that, 6ut in the way 6y which I meant that y9u kept trying t9 drive the c9nversati9n d9wn a path we had already traversed and explained c9untless times, which always lead t9 the c9nclusi9n that y9u assume I have n9 aparent 96vi9us em9ti9ns! I was fairly certain I made it quite clear I had n9 need 9r desire t9 c9ntinue t9 listen t9 y9u make j9kes a69ut y9ur decline in well 6eing in previ9us c9nversati9ns 6ut in that m9ment y9u kept g9ing with it s9 yes I "Hum9red" y9u 6ecause I didn't want y9ur meth9d 9f c9ping t9 6e disc9uraged after such a traumatic experience as 6eing IMPRIS9NED in DEPL9RA6LE c9nditi9ns f9r seemingly endless weeks t9 the p9int where y9u were H9SPITALIZED. 6ut y9u kn9w what? I guess that is my err9r f9r trying t9 take away y9ur c9ping mechanism t9 try and make myself m9re c9mf9rta6le.
[11:45] CG: *Alright, now it would seem Kankri was heading down a tangent. His tone started lacking his usual straight forward demenor and took on an almost frantic attitude, complete with sudden hand gestures in the air as he continued.* Wh9 am I t9 tell y9u t9 st9p making j9kes a69ut y9ur 9wn m9rtality, 9r h9w it c9uld get w9rse, and h9w terri6le 9f me t9 take actual issue with y9u making all s9rt 9f unc9mf9rta6le false flirtati9ns when I have made it undenia6ly clear that I d9n't want anything t9 d9 with that s9rt 9f thing????? I mean f9r crying 9ut l9ud y9u equated me t9 y9ur vanishing ex-m9irail 9n the first day I MET y9u, and then pr9ceeded t9 make hum9r 9f piling and 9ther r9mantic gestures!
6ut I went al9ng with it 6ecause deep d9wn f9r s9me reas9n I did respect y9u f9r what y9u did 9n 6ef9rus, and what y9u've 6een thr9ugh since. And I felt 6ad f9r y9u after y9ur lusus passed 6ecause I can't imagine what it must have 6een t9 experience that 6ecause I'VE never had a n9rmal up6ringing myself the way any tr9ll sh9uld have, 6ut n9w y9u've g9ne d9wn such a vastly different path that either y9uve bec9me an entirely different tr9ll 9r I just had the wr9ng view 9f y9u this wh9le time. Which is it?? I'm n9t quite sure 6ecause talking t9 y9u m9re 9nly seems t9 make things w9rse, and then when I d9n't talk t9 y9u in attempts t9 give time t9 neutralize the situati9n y9u message me in the redicul9us h9urs 9f G9D kn9ws when t9 tell me h9w much y9u hate y9urself, just s9 that I can make s9me sem6alence 9f trying t9 help 6ef9re pr9mptly 6eing t9ld t9 6asically "fuck 9ff!" And excuse my language 6ut that is exactly what it was and h9w was I supp9sed t9 d9 anything with the inf9rmati9n in the time y9u gave me 6ef9re vanishing again??
What was y9ur purp9se 9r m9tive in d9ing that???!? What has any 9f y9ur m9tive 6een in all the teasing and the digging and the angsting and the dumping t9 the p9int where I'm left sitting at my c9mputer screen 9r staring as y9u st9rm 9ff w9ndering what actually just happened!?!?!? *By the end of all of this, Kankri looks very winded. In fact he was actually breathing more heavily then he had been earlier, and his face was tinging red.*
[11:58] AT: maybe that's just 1t!!! *Kankri's tone can only be matched as Rufioh's temper rises too. Except he doesn't have the advantage of standing for this.* you don't KNOW me and you don't PRESUME to fuck1ng know me and hell????
[11:58] AT: why's 1t when 1 show my REAL colors, how 1 FEEL when people tell me what 1 can and can't do, 1'm suddenly the bad guy???? maybe 1've ALWAYS been an asshole and nobody's SEEN 1T CUZ THEY ONLY SEE WHAT THEY WANNA SEE ABOUT ME.
[11:58] AT: 1 DON'T GOTTA EXPLA1N MYSELF TO YOU JUST L1KE YOU DON'T GOTTA EXPLA1N JACK SH1T TO ME.
[11:58] AT: that's how th1s th1ng fuck1ng WORKS. bro.
[12:02] CG: 6ecause may6e is it t99 hard t9 6elieve that y9u aren't 9nly JUST a terri6le pers9n!?!? 6ut perhaps 9nce again I'm just s9 far 9ff 6ase and y9u really are this h9rri6le tw9 dimensi9nal tr9ll wh9 has n9 c9ncern f9r h9w they make 9thers feel fr9m what they say s9 l9ng as they can say it and have the freed9m t9!! Perhaps may6e thats REALLY why y9ur m9irail just left at the dr9p 9f a hat, 6ecause they
[12:02] CG: came t9 the stunning realizati9n that y9u seem t9 pr9ject at every9ne y9u get near, which is that y9u aren't exactly a nice pers9n at all, Rufi9h Nitram!!!! *Oh. Oh okay. Maybe... shouting that was going a bit too far.*
[12:08] AT: *It was too far. He can feel the words tearing at his insides but what's more harm to a bloodpusher when it was already broken? Just add it to the pile. He has to be the one to break the eye contact.* ...you don't even know what you're talk1ng about.
[12:09] CG: *Part of Kankri really wants to apologize, being able to tell that he had crossed the line when Rufioh looks away. But that would prove to be too difficult for his ego.*
[12:10] CG: *He instead reigns in his arms and crosses them tightly over his chest.* All I am talking a69ut is what I have happened t9 96serve fr9m 9ur interacti9ns.
[12:11] AT: 1 know. *answers him all too quickly, eyes stlll dropped*
[12:12] CG: *He lets it get uncomfortably quiet. Waiting it out to see if Rufioh might say anything else during that expanse of time. Something to keep the fight going. Something to distract him. Something to just make him feel any less shitty then he is quickly spiraling into.*
[12:13] CG: ....
[12:14] AT: *Waiting for him to talk isn't gonna help anything. Promise.* ...1 don't see.
[12:15] AT: the po1nt to any of th1s.
[12:15] CG: T9 us talking.
[12:15] CG: *?))
[12:15] AT: why you even care.
[12:16] AT: 1 don't anymore.
[12:16] CG: 6ecause it is my j96 as a ship c9uncel9r t9 care a69ut y9ur em9ti9nal and mental well 6eing.
[12:16] CG: And it was als9 my j96 as y9ur friend.
[12:17] CG: 6ut.
[12:17] CG: I think.
[12:17] CG: I think I'm starting t9 c9me t9 my whits end a69ut all 9f this Rufi9h.
[12:18] CG: If y9u d9n't care, and c9ntinue 9n emphasizing that p9int t9 all extremes, then I am struggling t9 find reas9n t9 c9ntinue 9n trying t9 f9rce y9u t9 see 9therwise.
[12:18] AT: so forget about 1t. you can drop 1t easy.
[12:19] AT: 1t's not hard.
[12:19] AT: *tone and his expression is flat*
[12:20] CG: *Meanwhile Kankri's is the exact oposite, his voice is hinging on uneven, and his expression is twisted to suit his range of upset emotions.* If y9u are a6s9lutely feeling that way. Then fine.
[12:21] CG: *He fishes through his sylladex for a moment, and when he is done he steps over to deposite a stack of books on the mostly cleared off table in front of Rufioh.*
[12:22] CG: Here is the series that I 69rr9wed fr9m y9u 6ack. I didn't quite finish, 6ut I d9n't find myself minding that much.
[12:23] CG: Y9ur 6l9ck is still miles away fr9m what it sh9uld 6e, 6ut at least n9w even if y9u d9n't get s9me9ne t9 help y9u clean it then I d9u6t y9u will 6e la6led as a health hazard t9 y9urself any time s99n.
[12:23] CG: *Kankri then proceeds to turn on his heel and head towards the door.*
[12:26] AT: *stares at the books as if he can't really process them being there. Everything about him felt closed off, inside and out. If he couldn't feel it then it wasn't there. It was the only thing he could tell himself when everything underneath felt fucked up and torn to pieces.*
[12:26] AT: *in the end, all he was... was alone.*
