Most people do not realize "the taboo thrill" is a significant and ever present part of having a romantic/sexual relationship with your mother. The very first time the taboo thrill crops up is when you find you have sexual feelings for Mom. Although you try to deny them, they get stronger and stronger. The next taboo thrill is when you have to accept that you are truly, helplessly in love with your mother, and you are "ruined" for any other female ever. The next taboo thrill comes from realizing you are tempted to pursue and flirt with your mother. A very big taboo thrill comes when you actually give in to love/lust and you start heavily flirting with and pursuing your mother. A huge taboo thrill came for me when I began dating Mom, and then when rumors/gossip began, trying to keep it all hidden was a taboo thrill. The ultimate taboo thrill of course is when you first "get back inside" your mother. I know for me it was my dream had come true, here I am banging my mom. It was the best of all. From then on that taboo thrill remains, but is joined by another taboo thrill, that of each time I "slide back into my sexy mother" the very real risk I get her pregnant. That is a constant taboo thrill. Especially when you do not want it to happen, yet you do. It arouses you to think of it happening, and everyone knowing (or suspecting) you are the one who got your mother pregnant. Then for me a taboo thrill came (besides the nervous/scared part) whenever people started and kept finding out it is true that Mom is my girlfriend, and again as word spread. (Believe me, the first time we got caught in the act was a huge taboo thrill. Then each time we got caught "doing it", or caught in boyfriend/girlfriend activities, it was a tremendous taboo thrill. The next taboo thrill was knowing everyone would now know, whether I was prepared for that or not. Denying the whole thing was now a long gone thing I could do. And the most recent taboo thrill is when on a dare from people who know me (and know what Mom and I get up to), I made my blog to be about my being in love with Mom, about my mother being my girlfriend. I changed my username to OedipusTed, to point out my Oedipus Complex. As I got into blogging about it, it is a taboo thrill writing about it all. I figured no one would be interested and after several months I would just remove my blog. A significant taboo thrill occurred when I discovered there is some interest in this affair (people who dared me said there would be; they were right), and lots more people would be finding out my "secret". So yes, I have to say for me, my mother being my girlfriend and my lover has provided many instances of "the taboo thrill" so far.