The Wall || 13 & Dex
the surgeon had kept him updated. reassured. that the antibiotics were beginning to work, that the severity of infection and likelihood of dex... not... pulling through, were diminishing by the day. regaining a little strength, conscious more than not. that recovery was underway.
and it’s odd... the sense of relief that came with the words. because as an engineer of loss, a manufacturer of death, a reaper of his own making, then perhaps, he shouldn’t be so opposed to it happening to another. but he was. he was opposed to it happening to this, specific, other.
though for all of those reassurances, the solo was still an individual of the present, of proof. and although he’d been to the small apartment only once before, ( and then, uninvited, wondering to this day whether the runner, in his state of delirium, would even remember that he’d been there at all ), feet did not falter as he made his way back.
so then, is this what worry is? is this concern? is this what you do for... friends?
preferring to see with his own eyes that dex... dionysis... was truly well ( or as well as could be anticipated, given those discoveries ).
the hallways of the building look as he remembers. not a place he imagined the skilled runner to reside ( something that could possibly be rectified... ) - peeling paint, chipped plaster, a coldness in the walls spotted with damp and black in some places. continuing with no challenge until he reached the door...
...perhaps dex was resting. or sleeping. perhaps he should have just sent a message ( but the potential for there to be no reply wasn’t something he was willing to risk... again ). perhaps - many things. but actions were prominent, and he’s opening the door a crack - if only to gain a glimpse to self-reassure that the surgeon was as good as his word ( and so far, he has no reason to doubt that ) - pushing wider to try to see into the small space... an invasion of that privacy once more, but he’d been there, and the chastisements could mount up. as long as dex was okay...
though the glimpse... is of something --------- else?















