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JADE: i cant believe this JADE: how can you say these things, dont you remember anything that the queen told us? JADE: that we would eventually build a new world and make a future together with our friends?

Not that that’s going well.

You might not want to elaborate on the state of the session right now. We're actually in a much worse position than when Jadesprite died, and she's hopeless enough as it is.

JADE: you dont even have the full picture either, because you checked out early! JADE: you didnt have to stand by as bec gave jack his powers when you might have been able to stop that JADE: and you didnt have to watch as jack became so strong he could appear anywhere and kill anyone you loved at any moment! JADE: you didnt have to see a dave lying in his own blood :(

Jade's finally falling apart - and frankly, this is long overdue. She might not have a pair of Stiller Shades, but her cheery personality is just as good a façade, and it needed to break before she did.

She probably needed another Jade to drag this out of her. After all, she's used to having nobody to talk to but herself.

JADESPRITE: WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH JADE: I SAID PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER YOU BLUBBERING GODDAMN PANSY

Uncalled for, but understandable. We’ve just learned she’s furious with herself for letting Bec get prototyped - and now she’s faced with the result of that disaster, which also happens to be wearing her fucking face.

Sorry, Jadesprite. You really don't deserve this, but you're sort of the perfect target right now. It's time for some Jade Violence.

Not the Calsprite treatment!

Yeah, it's clear that Jade really, really needed this chance to vent. Yelling at Karkat through Pesterchum just didn't cut it.

Speak of the devil.

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JADE: […] you remember the guy who destroyed prospit? JADESPRITE: you want me to fight him??? JADESPRITE: are you crazy? do i look like i am ready to fight anybody???????

I don't know what Jade thought was going to happen when she self-prototyped, but I doubt she was expecting an argument.

Maybe she wanted to possess Jadesprite's body in her sleep, and take the fight to Jack herself - or perhaps she assumed that Jadesprite would share her exact mental state, memories included, and thus automatically agree with her plan.

JADE: there is a lot at stake here! JADESPRITE: woof

JADE: i mean, dont you remember what this was all about? JADE: what you were working for… what WE were working for all those years before you died? JADE: remember what we saw in the clouds, or what the queen told us?

We knew Jade was a frequent visitor to Prospit, but it seems she was particularity close with the White Queen, who was probably the closest thing she had to a parental figure after Grandpa died.

Given her uniquely lonely upbringing, Jade might have spent more time on Prospit than any Player. No wonder she was over-reliant on Skaia's prophecies - she's probably seen thousands come true before her eyes.

JADE: how could you not remember john survived? JADE: we both saw him in a cloud! he was in his dream suit and awake, reading our letter! [...] JADESPRITE: it was all a lie jade. what we saw in the clouds and all that. none of it meant anything

“None of it means anything” is not a particularly encouraging thing to hear from a Sburb Sprite.

I’m starting to wonder if Jadesprite’s mental state is due to more than just trauma and godhood. Has she learned some uncomfortable truths about her existence, out there in the afterlife?

JADE: i just dont know what to think JADE: i guess you are part of me, and you are who i was when i slept JADE: but it makes me sad to think i would act like this

However much Jade might want to deny it, Jadesprite represents a real part of her personality, and she’s not exactly enjoying this look in the mirror. Karkat can relate.