#s15e18

[lower-the-volume]

15.18 Despair

[rosentryst]

i think its fucking over

[merthurtrenches]

to live on for eons and finally when the death comes, to have touch your beloved’s face one last time. Man what a way to go.

[canadarama]

Castiel's first and last act of free will was saving Dean

[deancrowleycas]

slay 💖

(amazing t-shirt by @soldierboys)

[ampofepi]

really, the most bittersweet part is that carter ends up with the same family dynamic that he absolutely hated and ran away from. essentially, he is married to his mother at the end

kem is so desperately stuck on losing joshua the same way that carter's mother was on losing bobby. i don't see a way forward for them; kem is cold and withdrawn, and carter is stuck on trying to find that connection with her any way he can. making do with scraps. he literally died, and he puts kem in the same category as his parents: no point in bothering them

and carter wants to honour joshua, to build from the pain, dedicating most of his family fund and legacy for his son. kind of similarly like he wanted to honour bobby by becoming a doctor. who he is intermingles with the way he copes with loss, and it affects him tremenduously, but he's not closed off from it like kem is

[m-artsoul]

01/04/23

despair  the complete loss or absence of hope

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NOTE: in one of my classes we had to do a presentation about a story so of course i chose to make it about spn. li had to also make a poster but ofc i couldn’t be chill about it. so for anyone interested, here’s the original version:

also a close up:

[blanchcz]

I love you.

Words that bring happiness, even though they were a curse to Dean and Cas.

Imagine a celestial being who, by nature, cannot shed tears because they have no physical body.

And yet Castiel, in his goodbye, was already so connected to his vessel and could feel emotions enough to cry like a human in his confession.

What a beautiful and sad depth of his feelings it actually is! 😭