#s74

[thewertsearch]

AA: what d0 y0u think y0ure d0ing! AA: just st0p AA: st0p st0p st0p st0p st0p st0p AA: maybe if i say st0p en0ugh s0mething else will happen instead 0f the thing that d0es

Aradia has had enough of the Alpha Tmeline.

No matter how stoic she may appear, there's a part of her that can't stand to see her friends suffer - and that part of her is finally gaining ground against the mental conditioning of the Voices.

She doesn't want this, and all her posturing about how it's pointless to fight the inevitable tide of fate is revealed as the coping mechanism it always was. This is wrong, she knows it's wrong, and even if it's pointless, she has to at least try to help.

AA: i kn0w its exciting AA: breaking stuff AA: and n0t w0rrying ab0ut it

You know, I'm starting to understand why this fatalism was so intoxicating to Aradia. The Alpha offers her freedom from consequences, allowing her to act on her impulses without worrying about the fallout.

After all, if something is supposed to break, then it's pretty much already broken.

And who can blame you for breaking something that's already broken?

They'd probably break it too, given half a chance.

TT: You sound frustrated. TT: Like you know you can't change my mind. TT: I presume your future footage of me has already verified this? AA: i d0nt even need t0 watch y0ur future acti0ns t0 kn0w this AA: the kn0wing is the same as this elusive feeling 0f sickness thats been with me f0r years AA: pr0bably since bef0re i died c0me t0 think 0f it AA: it was always a big setup

She's really woken up, hasn't she? Most of the damage is already done, but it's just so gratifying to hear Aradia finally catching on, in real time.

Especially since the first thing she's choosing to do, after climbing out of the hole she's in, is extend a hand down to Rose.

AA: i just wish AA: back when i was behaving recklessly AA: i had s0me0ne t0 tell me t0 st0p listening

Damn it, this is so frustrating.

Rose doesn't understand what it means that Aradia is saying these things. This girl is fighting back literal years of depression, apathy and mental conditioning to try and help Rose see another way, but she's getting treated like just another run-of-the-mill troll. Listen, Rose!

[thewertsearch]

NANNASPRITE: Here, John. Take this. [...] NANNASPRITE: You can use it to summon me wherever you go.

Davesprite did mention this before. It's particularly useful for John, since his sprite can heal him - assuming she's not feeling too capricious.

NANNASPRITE: I will prepare you a healthy home cooked meal while you relax in your ghost bed and rescue your paradox sister. [...] NANNASPRITE: Why, John! Do you hear that sound? [...] NANNASPRITE: It sounds as if your meal is nearly finished! JOHN: really? already? NANNASPRITE: BZZZZZ!

Not that I'm complaining. Nanna is great.

Eridan's here to flirt, and Nepeta's here to roleplay.

Aradia, though...

We already know this probably won't end well for her.

If she really is going to try and talk Rose down, then this may be her first act of rebellion against the Alpha Timeline.

CA: wwho are you tryin to convvince wwith this ludicrous poppycock TT: ? CA: magic is NOT REAL CA: wwhatevver youre doin its not real its somethin else outright entirely

Magic's nebulous definition renders this argument kind of meaningless. If I had to guess, I'd say Eridan is just inventing something to be mad about, so he can do some kismesis fishing.

TT: Thanks for the insinuation that I'm making an effort to project myself as a cartoon villain. What a compliment! CA: wwell fine you dont havve to behavve vvillainous if youre bent up on actin against the grain a your nobility or somesuch

Right, Rose has the highest 'blood color' of all the humans.

It's very telling, I think, that Eridan doesn't treat Rose or Feferi with any particular respect, let alone deference. Blood hierarchy only matters to him when it's justifying his violence.

CA: i just think theres a fate thing here CA: i mean i dont mean to strike you as too forwwardsuch but are you seein wwhere im goin wwith this TT: Oh, right. Alien romance, I forgot. TT: Pass.

caligulasAquarium's [CA'S] computer exploded.

Asked and answered, Eridan.

Next!

[thewertsearch]

Aw, there she is. All tuckered out. You wonder what she is dreaming about?

I've wondered before if Dream Selves might cause neurological issues for the Players. After all, if your brain is operating an entire secondary body while it's sleeping, how much actual rest is it getting?

On the other hand, Sburb Players are created by the game, and the game can make any changes it likes. A Player's brain chemistry might be different enough from a baseline human that the issue simply doesn't arise.

Unfortunately for Jade, her dreams are even less restful than they used to be - and I don't know if the game prepared them for this eventuality.

Anyway, guess it's time to get down to business and save her life! You prepare to initiate an uninterrupted sequence of life-saving events.

This, of course, is Authorspeak for: Shit's about to go so pear-shaped you'll think you're in the Fruity Rumpus Factory.

NANNASPRITE: John, you remind me so much of your father when he was your age. [...] JOHN: but nanna, did you know he is not really my dad? and also, i am not technically your grandson. JOHN: you are actually sort of my mother. NANNASPRITE: Of course I knew this, John! I have known for many years. NANNASPRITE: I have also known that in a sense, you are my father as well. You were the one to push all those buttons, after all!

Wait, that doesn't track at all.

The joke book that came down with John contained some information about Sburb, but it didn't say anything about the ectobiology. Plus, Nanna didn't even get to read the thing, since, well..

...she only coexisted with it for about half a second.

Did Grandpa clue her in, then? He does seem to inexplicably know everything - but I thought he and Nanna were estranged. Maybe they reconciled later on?

...wait, but then why didn't Dad know anything? He's been bemused by Sburb since the very beginning - and he was always destined to be involved, so I don't know why Nanna would hide it from him.

Man, I don't even know anymore. Guardians are so weird.

JOHN: so where have you been, nanna? i have been looking all over for you. NANNASPRITE: I have been looking for you too, dear! [...] NANNASPRITE: [...] It seems you have been rising through the rungs of your echeladder quite swiftly. [...] NANNASPRITE: [...] You have climbed so much faster than I did in my youth. I am so proud of you!

Son of a fuck.

A long time ago, I theorized that the Underling heads in Harley Mansion's foyer were evidence that Grandpa had participated in a Sburb session himself.

In a post-Hivebent world, we can see that theory is riddled with holes. Just for fun, let's poke a few.

If Grandpa was a Sburb Player, where and when did his Reckoning occur?

If he didn't have one - or if he lost the game some other way - how did he avoid dying in a null session?

If he won the game, why was he still around to raise Jade? Where is his universe?

Most obviously of all, how could he exist as a Player, when he was created for John's session as a Guardian?

Based on our current understanding of the lore, and that last point in particular, this theory is a complete non-starter. It makes no sense for a Guardian to have participated in a separate session to the kids.

So, given all of that, I hope you understand the full breadth of my confusion when I ask:

How the fuck did Nanna gain Sburb levels?

[danielq1975]

It takes multiple cops to block traffic and and cause a scene for fair jumpers. I don't like fair jumpers but this is too many cops. #s74 #fairjumper #lmfao #payyourfairbitch (at Arthur Kill Road)

[bloggers-secretfiles]

Story #74: 

Gusto ko lamang mag kwento. Para matapos na ‘tong hinanakit sa dibdib ko. Last na ‘to. Itatapon ko na lahat. Kakalimutan. Pasensha kung mahaba, dedetalyehan ko lang talaga ‘to.

"Hmmm. Tumblr! Masubukan nga" Napagtanto kong mainstream ang landian dito sa di katagalang pag tambay ko sa aking dashboard. Wala nga akong pakielam sa ibang blogger, feeling ko plastik lahat ng tao dito. Follow lang ako ng follow noon. Hanggang sa may nagustuhan akong babae. “Wow, ang ganda nia, snob ‘to, parang inactive sa Tumblr” ganon nasa isip ko. ‘di nagtagal, nalaman kong medyo semi active naman, nag TA ako.

'Hi' ‘Hello’

Pero naka anon ako. Wala eh, nakakahiya kasi. ‘di katagalan stalker na nia ako. Syempre pangit ako kaya ‘stalker’

Kinulit ko siya ng kinulit. Backread sa blog nia, then unti unti kong nalalaman yung ugali nia. Hindi katagalan napapangiti ako sa sense ng blog nia, kinulit ko lang ulit ng kinulit. Syempre, anon parin.

One day nag ask siya kung pwedeng mag off anon ako, then ginawa ko naman. Kinabahan ako nun, pero parang nauumay na siya sa pagkaanon ko kaya nagpakilala na ako.

*poop* awkward //

Naging magkaibigan kami, friendly naman pala talaga. ‘di katagalan medyo close na kami.

Nagpatuloy lang na ganun, nagbabasa rin siya sa blog ko. Sinabi nia nga natutuwa siya sa akin, magaan daw loob nia sa akin. Unti unti akong nahuhulog. Pero pinipigilan ko, walang sasalo. Pero matigas ang ulo ko. Totoo pa gumawa ako ng private blog para pag laanan ng mga paru paro sa dibdib ko sa tuwing kausap ko siya.

Ayun, nagpatuloy kaming magkaibigan. Nag uusap, at lalo akong naiinlove sa kanya.

Feeling ko close na talaga kami sa isa’t isa. Kasi halos oras oras kami nagcha chat. Pina add nia nga pala kasi yung Facebook nia sa akin. Ayun, kaya natutuwa na ako lalo.

"nahuhulog na ako" “sasaluhin kaya ako?”

(Ang effort kong tayo, napaka ma effort ko pagdating sa gusto ko.) (Hinding hindi mo rin mababasa ang nasa isip ko, magaling akong magtago ng nararamdaman.) Hindi nia alam na gusto ko siya, sobrang galing ko kasi magtago.lol Kaya siguro ang sweet niang kaibigan. sobra.

Tanga nga pala ako, may ka MU siya. Pero pinagpatuloy ko parin. Kaibigan parin. Hindi nia alam mahal ko na siya.

That time yung private blog ko, nasa public blog ko, pero di maoopen kasi need ng pass.

Isang araw tinanong nia na lang sa akin kung anong pass nun.

Tinaggi ko pang ibigay, pero ‘di katagalan binigay ko rin. Wala eh, kumbaga do or die, umiwas o hindi ayos lang, pero sana wag umiwas. Yung feelings kong ang tagal kong tinago nalaman na nia.

*Hmmm.

"I don’t know what to say."

Awkward na ang lahat, pero alam mo, hindi nia ako iniwasan. ‘We can stay friends.’

*Right’

Lumilipas ang araw, bumabalik kami sa dati na ‘friends’ magkaibigan parin kami kahit alam na niang may gusto ako sa kanya.

Then and then.

Ang sweet nia. Sobra. Walang halong pag aassume pero mas naging sweet siya. Hindi tulad ng dati. —-

Isang araw, sa tinagal tagal ng pagtingala ko sa langit kasama ng mga bituin. Napag isip isip kong mag move on, mas pinipili ko na kung saan kami mas magtatagal. *Friends.

Nagpatuloy kaming nag uusap, sa mga araw na ‘yon nagmu move on nako, masaya ako, masaya siya.

Pero, parang may mali, ang sweet nia eh. Hindi normal…

Ako naman ‘tong naguguluhan pero pinupush ko parin talaga nag mag move on na lang kasi alam kong walang patutunguhan. ‘Bakit? Bakit?’

"1:43 Goodnight :) " ‘1:43. Goodnight :)’

'Bakit? Bakit?'

Lalo akong nahuhulog, pero please, tama na.

Oh waht? Why ? Bakit biglang ganun? Masaya raw siya pag nakakausap ako.

Lalaki ako, may pakiramdam, at alam niang may gusto ako sa kanya.

'Why? Why? '

Pero hindi, may ka MU siya. NO. NO. NO. NO way.

Nagpatuloy kami, friends.

But having that ‘i don’t know’ thing.

Dumarating sa punto na nag aassume na ako ng sobra. Pero binabalewala ko na lang, kasi alam kong masasaktan ako banda sa dulo.

Feeling ko narin naman malapit ng mawala yung feelings ko. Para maipush yung friendship namin.

One day, iniwasan na lang nia ako, no chat, ta, fm, SEEN.

I admit, mahal na mahal ko parin talaga siya. Mas masakit, iniwasan ako kung kelang mahal ko talaga.

Parang tanga ako, chat ng chat, hindi nia nioopen.

Nag umpisang lumungkot yung buhay ko, sobra. Halos araw araw sa skul umiiyak ako, oras oras pa ata, sa rooftop kung saan walng makakakita. Wala akong magawa. Bakit naging ganon. Bakit?

Dumating yung oras na sumuko na lang ako. —-

Napakaraming bagay ang nabago sa akin nung mga panahon masaya ako kausap siya. at napakaraming bagay rin ang nasira sa pagkatao ko nung iniwasan nia ako.

Feeling ko ginago ako ng tadhana.

I felt cheated.

Daming kulang dito, gusto ko lang talagang i share kasi hanggang ngayon dinadala ko parin. Sorry lang, wala akong nakita o narinig man lang. Kaya ganon, ambigat parin.

Last na ‘to. Gusto ko ng matahimik.

Please. Pare.

[anbuhime]

USS

Spent a lovely day today with 1/4 of 74. Really had awesome fun. Thanks guys and girls. Esp the one who reads this and sends me encouraging messages hahaha.