Jul 24
Step 1: Get sad
Step 2: Slay
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Step 1: Get sad
Step 2: Slay
TALKING ABOUT LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN HIS STRONG SUIT. in fact , its the thing victor likes doing the very least , the reason he numbs life and memory away into a gentle buzz in the back of his head———there's never anything good about it. there was , once , but she died. and jasper is a new good thing , but he's experiencing victor at his worst , and victor still isn't convinced he's going to stay; everyone either dies or leaves him in the end , after all. he's not worth having one good thing.
saying so aloud invokes @bitingstrangers 's quiet response; ❛ that’s actually crushing to hear . ❜
it gives victor pause; he's never thought about it that way. its just his life , the way things are———he gets close to someone , gets comfortable, and in one way or another it all crumbles around him. softened eyes peek up at jasper with a newfound sadness within them , and victor crawls up close to kiss his cheek , sighs and lays upon the other as if he were a mattress. ❛❛ i guess it is. both of our lives are pretty crushing , jas , i've just never really thought about it. i just live it. like , i can feel myself losing amos , the old man'll probably get sick of my bitching , and you ... ❜❜ he pauses , peers at jasper again and feels his heart clench at the thought of losing him. ❛❛ i dunno. you're good , and i'm not used to anything good stickin' around. i'd like you to , though. ❜❜