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Don't quote me. Don't read anything into my formatting.

Yashiro is gripping Doumeki's shirt like he doesn't want to let go. Doumeki.... don't you dare leave him!!!

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I did my best. The original was so grainy that there was bound to be some minor losses. This is an interesting image though, considering what we just got in chapter 60. It is from the Comi-Comi Love extra.

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Here's a nice bookmark to keep the place where you fainted.

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Please help me understand, what do you think happened to Yashiro?How did he go from a domineering/dominant being to a being who allows himself to be dominated? Did Hirata destroy Yashiro or were barriers torn down by Doumeki? I think he's fragile, without sarcasm, he's not egocentric, he seems like another character. I'm rereading it again and I'm in chapter 23 where he literally rides Doumeki and says barbaric things. Now he can't even run away properly

At the end of chapter 23, you get to see Yashiro spectacularly meltdown in the shower at Doumeki's apartment.

Study that face because you will see it again.

From the very moment we meet Yashiro in chapter 1 (of Saezuru) he tells us that despite the guy we met in Don't Stay Gold, he's actually harbored feelings of love.

But Yashiro has felt for a very long time that he is far too twisted to have something like that for himself, so he hands Kuga to Kageyama as a test to see, just to see, what it would be like to see Kageyama in love and to imagine himself in that part.

Because Yashiro is so afraid of rejection that he can't get up the courage to confess, leaving any feelings Kageyama might have had to turn into pity.

So it's not like any of these "want to be wanted" feelings are new to Yashiro, but he never got the chance to experiment for himself to see how HE falls in love, what does it look like for him?

Enter Doumeki:

Doumeki is kind of a sub for Kageyama from high school, until he starts to say things to Yashiro like "I always thought you were beautiful" and outward signs of concern "aren't you cold" (naked on the floor of the bathroom giving me a blowjob) or "I thought I was going to lose you" (when you got shot and saw me crying.) Doumeki is able to look beyond the defensive Yashiro and express his feelings.

In the beginning of Chapter 2, Yashiro begins to get jealous of anyone who has Doumeki's attention. But he tries to curb his own behavior and cut Doumeki off, until he meets Doumeki's sister, Aoi. Yashiro becomes invested in Doumeki's life and happiness.

This is a regular thing for Yashiro. He is a really good guy to the people he cares about. He can be a total punk ass to people he wants to piss off.

I won't go into the repeated faces of jealousy... they look a lot like the one above when he turns as Doumeki starts to wake up. You can have fun looking those up (I'll give you a hint... he gives the same look to Kageyama's gf, to Aoi, and to Mama-san... haha let's not forget Kuga.)

When things get heated and Yashiro should put a stop to things, he gives Doumeki a pass. (He gave me a blowjob at the hospital... probably nothing...) Because these blatant shows of concern for Yashiro's well-being are a major turn-on for Yashiro.

So by the time we get to Doumeki's apartment, Yashiro is not only primed for love, but ready to accept the curse:

Yashiro realizes that he is out of his league. Doumeki is a heavy tank of love and Yashiro has no idea what to do next. He tells himself that no one can love him, and that Doumeki doesn't really mean it. But the curse has been cast.

Let's skip ahead 4 years, and they meet again. Yashiro is plagued with horrible dreams of being alone, and his body is rejecting everyone but the one he's dreaming about. When they see each other again it all comes back.

Now Yashiro has to deal with the fact that his body is responding to only to Doumeki, and we see him meltdown again.

And he confesses that he never had it together to start with. His feelings are a mess where Doumeki is concerned.

That brings us almost up to speed... however, you mentioned that you thought Yashiro has become fragile...

I think the proper word for Yashiro is vulnerable. And recognize that face? That's the meltdown face... however, Yashiro is hurt and he's showing his vulnerable side to Doumeki. He's beyond jealousy now, he is stamping his feet and throwing the tantrum he's bottled up for years.

Instead of running away, Yashiro is actually confronting Doumeki about his feelings. Doumeki may have not seen it a few chapters ago, but he certainly sees it now. It's all been a revelation that Yashiro needs to know that he's still cared for. He still needs to see Doumeki as that guy who gives a crap about whether or not Yashiro is comfortable.

All we need now is for Yashiro to see that Doumeki needs the reassurance that Yashiro will still accept him even if he leaves his side for a little while. And so that WE can have this kind of stuff every chapter.

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Just cleaned it up.

This too.

The digital version was crappy again. I wish they'd figure out they are just punishing the paying fans.

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We are mere days away from Chapter 52! Spoilers are afoot! And soon they will be flooding our TL's with lovely images from our favorite mangaka!

Thank you to the tireless Team Steve! You have moved houses! You have moved countries! And you still pulled yourself up by your bootstraps, tightened your belts and cranked out a chapter! You are the glitter in my stars, the sunshine in my heart, and the rubber on my soles. Get some rest, if the teaser is any indication, we are going to need it!!!

Thank you as always to the Saezuru Fandom! This is a short chapter, and I almost considered just adding it 52, but...NAHHHHHHH!

Many Chookens died to bring you this chapter...

RIP Fandom, you were one of the good ones!

PRESENTING THE FIRST CHAPTER IN VOLUME 9!!!! WE ARE HERE!!!

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SPOILER Saezuru 55 images

Very poor quality.

Doumeki telling Reiji-kun about Okuyama.

Doumeki contemplating all he’s learned before going to Yashiro.

Yashiro answers the door in his pajamas!!! (Second-hand spoilers can never be trusted!)

Yashiro and Doumeki always have the most uneventful conversations.

I’ll just let you all absorb the next two pages.

Yashiro’s face looked sad. Doumeki may not like it but we sure do!

EDIT: I just noticed a few things wrong with the last page. I’ll reserve my thoughts until I see a better “flatter” version but I wonder if you can spot the discrepancies. 🧐

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Hello SaezuruSteve team, I hope that you're all doing well! ❤

I was wondering if you are planning to release chapter 53 and 54? I always love your high quality scans though I always buy the magazine.

And I also wanna say thank you so much for all of your hard work.

Hello Anon, and thank you!

I want to release chapters 53, 54, and the impending 55, at least I think I do. I'm sure my team would like to do so as well, at least I think they do. However, life is a shit sandwich... and sometimes you just don't have enough bread to not taste the shit.

The Steves have suffered some losses of friends, family, homes and countries. It's been a fucking horrible-ass year, in fact it's been a horrible-ass TWO years! And even though I scanned chapter 53, chapter 54 is still sitting here untouched because I lost my copies of it for about a month. Grief and misery have a way of blinding you to the fact that you put it on the table by the door when you came in, and even though you are looking right at it, it's invisible because for a moment it was the last thing I wanted to think about.

Maybe things happen for a reason, and I'm so grateful that @itwearsadress came along and saved everyone from having to wait for the chapter. It's been a sigh of relief.

As for us... once the rain stops... I will answer with a strong and hopeful "Maybe? Probably? Perhaps?" Because scanning Saezuru sure has been fun and I would hate to not see it through to the end.

I'll keep you posted!

Love Always,

Steve

P.S. Be good kids and do what @itwearsadress asks of you, and don't fuck up a good thing! ;D

P.P.S.

Someone dropped this:

What the frick? Someone dropped this too???? Must be Saezuru Month! ;D