#sam speakeths

[somuchanemoia]

Do y’all know what a mind fuck it is to watch the dub version of Free! after having watched 50% off.

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Started watching Banana Fish for the first time tonight

Holy shit what have I gotten myself into?

This is so good and I’m only four episodes in

Seriously though, did mappa legit give us an openly gay kissing scene by ep3? I’m still in shock because it’s beautiful.

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I had a conversation with an old friend from high school today. He asked how I was and what I’d been up too for the past fourish years and I had to say “I’m good. Just been doing normal adult stuff.” because tbh there's no way to say “I’ve literally just sat and binged all the seasons of supernatural, occasionally wrote some gay fanfiction and just, in general, have done ‘nothing’ for the past year.” to a guy you dated for three months your junior year.

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bless the peeps who wrote the 9 wholesome fics in the ‘What if its Us’ fandom. ya’ll are the real mvps right now. 

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Hi! I just found your Delix fics and omg I love them so much. I was wondering if you are planning on posting any more

Oh my gods, anon, thank you so much!!! I’m glad you liked them. 

Tbh, I’ve had so many ideas for Delix fics and I do love writing the boys. They actually helped me get back into writing for a while because they were new dynamic characters and I am really invested in their story. :3 They gave me a new way to write--a more grown-up way to write-- and they still hold a very near and dear place in my heart. So, thank you Delta!

I still do write for them quite a bit personally at this time as well as for practice. I’ve been in a weird writing funk in the past so many months and I feel very lost in this right now, so being able to even mess around with delix in personal drafts has been a bit freeing. 

As for posting, I’m not sure yet. Lowkey though now that you asked, I feel very tempted to clean up and finish something of theirs to share with you because I do appreciate the love. 

I would love to post more and share my ideas and many of the half-written fics/ficlets I have been working on. When I was posting more often for them, I just kinda figured nobody enjoyed them and I was also dealing with a lot of burnout so I just kinda stopped...but I am open to doing stuff in the future with them as long as @delta-roseblr is okay with and supportive of that. I know they are her precious bois and I don’t want to step on her toes because I know how hard she works with them and I want to respect that, especially now that she has had a lot more time to be working with them and now that she can finally write those scenes that the small army of fans, that she has accumulated over the time of N.L., has been waiting for. 

Long story short: Currently, I have nothing to post that is ready, BUT maybe someday that will change. And I still love the boys very much, they are two of my favorite people. I am excited to see where they go, and I am excited to write more for them, eventually. 

I’m sorry I can’t give you a better answer, anon. I really wish I could say that I will be posting a delix fic in a hot minute, but I can’t. I know thats not really what you want to hear either. Hell, I don’t want to have to hear that either. So, I apologize for that. I know how it feels to be in love with a pairing and only have so much content. It’s rough. 

I’m sending thoughts of domestic and comfy delix to you in apology and condolences. 

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you know whats great about tumblr friends? they’re just generally nice people who also don’t want to leave their house in the name of being social. props to you tumblr friends for allowing me the comfort of social life from my bed at whenever it is am/pm

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Here’s the the New Year

Y’all we made it.

It’s actually been one hell of a year and it’s been awesome and also not so much. I see a lot of people recapping their fic and art works this year but because I was literally a lazy lasagna this year...I don’t have much to show. However, I hit quite a few mile stones this year (that peeps probs don’t care about but I’m impressed with myself not gonna lie)

I made some awesome friends this year. I wrote more in the beginning of the year. I took a much needed (even if it was involuntary) hiatus from writing the other half of the year. I got rid of some toxic people from my life. I watch 13 seasons of supernatural in 15 weeks around school and tumblr and other non important stuff. I got better mentally this year a lot! I CAME OUT mostly TO MY FAMILY THIS YEAR!!!

Twenty Gay Teen has been awesome and I’m excited to rings in the new year because I know Twenty Bi Teen is gonna be even better.

First off this year, I’m going to be releasing another fic I’ve been working on!!! Holy shit! I’ve been writing finally and I’m excited to release it in a few days. Banana Fosh fandom here I come to soothe the pain of the finale with 4K of cock sucking smut. Please enjoy it.

In other writing news, I’m planning on working on getting back into the writing zone this year by releasing more shots, if not possibly a multi chartered fic, this year across many fandoms from yoi to Banana Fish to pjo and many more.

I get to apply for OTA school this year (actually in a few months!) so it’s very exciting to see if I get in! Woohoo! Cross your fingers and toes for me y’all.

I’m really gonna work on being a more open and positive person this year. Find myself this year and push away from a lot of sterotypes and outside expectations that I’m not ready to meet yet. It’s a year for continuing to beat depression and anxiety and to manage my ADHD and sensory processing symptoms that have been giving me hell this last year.

I wanna read more literature this year; from classics to YA to manga. I have a lot of novels to look forward to this year.

ALSO! Lots of anime to look forward too! Ice Adolescence, Royal Tutor’s movie, Fruits Basket reboot! Plus I’m still catching up with the classics because I was a late anime bloomer.

I’m gonna try and be healthier this year. Get more sun so my family stops calling me “the live in vampire”.

I gotta work on my jokes. This years goal? Make @joeys-piano snort milk out of their nose from my puns.

Just be happy. This is a year for being content and at peace with myself.

So thank you all for holding on with me this year! I’m excited to see how this coming year turns out.

[somuchanemoia]

things I should be doing: 

reading that chem chapter on god knows what (its only an intro class and i’m already lost)

what i’m acutually doing:

sitting down to work on that smut fic i was gonna post like two weeks ago (because i’m stressed and anal sex seems to calm me down??)