#sammykin

[spikystringsnuffle]

[lawrence-songs]

After the post I ranted in the tags of, I decided attempting to illustrate my kin experience on tumblr may be a good one.

Please enjoy this input.

Also, a gentle statement:

If you've DMed me, and I haven't answered, feel free to DM me again. I've been quite busy recently, but, I've been enjoying myself.

I am horrific at keeping up with conversations.

[citizenoftmrrwlnd]

stimboard for : sammy lawrence (batim) with stringed instruments and music, as well as ink, in a pallet of yellow and black

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[kastle-thrones]

Being sammykin and angelkin is so fucking funny because it's just this weird fucked up loop of EEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE FLAPFLAPFLAPFLAPFLAPFLAP (sound of me flapping my dumb little wings because AAA! SPARKLE SPARKLE I AM A DIVINE LIGHT) and then BLLEEEAAUUUGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (sound of me wrenching up the ink in my soul because I am just a depressed music man and earlier I hit a note off key so now I want to kill myself because how dare I not perform perfectly the first time)

Cuddling my ink demon plush until I recover from being human and imperfect.

It literally feels like going from a manic pixie dream girl of divine light and perfection to puking up poetic depths of blackness that are fairly unpleasant and obsessive and the words feel like thick black syrup in my throat until I force them out onto a page. Angel posting feels like fire and flame and being on display. Sammyposting is like being in a sepiationed secluded hole tearing your heart out with your fingers but all the blood that comes out is black and you lay it on the page and think that maybe it is beautiful and then you remember you are a small speck in the cycle and that the being you worship that is crucial to your rebirth hardly knows you.

And then you remember you're on planet earth and none of that matters here.

That it's all a part of you that no one sees. And that maybe, very few can understand.

But here on tumblr dot com, I can in fact go back and forth. And that is almost validating. HAHAHA

[fictionkinfessions]

william afton stinks and i love seeing him fail lol -sammy from blueycapsules

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

anyone ever: h || i, a filthy sammy kinnie: care to learn abt our lord and saviour bendy the dancing demon-

[kinhelping]

Sammy Lawrence : Bendy and the Ink Machine - anonymous

[lawrence-songs]

Meeting someone who is so dead set on being incorrect about source is the most frustrating thing in the world.

I have to sit here and know you're being wrong on purpose when I have more compelling and supported evidence in what happened, and you're just. Pulling this out of your ass, apparently.

And I can't tell you anything other than what's specifcally indicated in text as to why you're incorrect.

And you still don't listen.

Lord, help me.