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sans-pants replied to your post “U know ur depressed when ProTools unexpectedly quits and u have to lie...”

i have done sevens cries today. let me do your cry so you don't have to. is ok. ilysm

that is a lot of cries (which i initially spelled 'cired' jsyk) for one beautiful human's day ;_;

why don't we just take four each so you don't have to do any more? ilysm2 <3 <3 <3

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sans-pants replied to your post: kimtheshizz replied to your post: i ca...

i love u also and i miss u and i love you xo

did u know that i miss you and love you and love you too? and love you. oh, and i miss you.

p.s. i love you.

p.p.s. i miss you.

p.p.s. <3

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When you get this, post five things you like about yourself then pass it on to 10 of your favorite followers! :) And HA HA you've probably already done this but you have to do five more now.

ahaha u got me, as did acqua--profonda, so looks like I gotta!

- I like my voice, but most I like the control I have over it. It’s pretty flexible and expressive, so even when my words fail me I have tone and timbre.

- I love how much I get out of art, especially that made by my friends. I’m lucky because so many don’t seem too. Ok and on that I spose I find a lot of people, most that I talk to actually, don’t just get excited by things they like but feel actively virulent toward the things they don’t. Our even feel that those things aren’t worth time, even when other people obviously get a lot out of them. Sorry for being convoluted, but I’m happy I don’t have that.

- My jawline ain’t half bad. And I like my eyes a lot.

- I spent a long while quite stoic, and I’m back to feeling a lot of things in a big way and it feels much more natural and much more me and I like that.

- Whatever in me that keeps me surrounded by such wonderful, beautiful, talented, and supportive people. I love whatever that is.

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When you get this, post five things you like about yourself then pass it on to 10 of your favorite followers! :) And HA HA you've probably already done this but you have to do five more now.

I have not already done this!

I like how independent I am.

I like that I’m hard-working, that I don’t complain about it, and that I have an incredible amount of energy to do it.

I like that I’m not afraid to do things or try things out myself, especially new things. A couple of the guys where I’m doing work experience are planning on going fishing next week and they asked if I wanted to join them. I immediately said yes and so sometime next week at five a.m. I’ll be fishing for the first time in my life.

I like that I prefer to understand things completely and properly and that I never hesitate to ask any questions, no matter how ridiculous.

I like that I no longer fear about how what I say, think, or do might be perceived by others. I used to be so timid and now I’m very confident.

I will forward this on to some of you lovely people when I am not exhausted! Right now, sleep!

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I was tagged by: buticanchange

Rule 1: Always post the rules Rule 2: Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 10 new ones Rule 3: Tag 10 people and link them to the post Rule 4: Tell them you have tagged them I accidentally wrote really long answers, so I'm putting it under a cut!

The Questions I Was Asked:

1. Looking back on the past year, how has it been for you? It has been a HUGE year! I would say it has contained some of my life's highest highs and lowest lows (and not just because mania/depression, but also a little bit because that)... I have been dealing with some heavy shit- some of which occurred over a decade ago and was never processed, and some of which happened in 2012 and catalysed the PTSD which was first instilled by the long-ago shit. UGH. BUT, I have become close with the most incredible groups of people this year- some irl, some online, and some a combination of the two worlds. These people have shown me what it means to have positive and supportive friendships, and have helped me through hard days and helped me rediscover things to love about myself and the world! I have also been involved in the most wonderful relationship I have ever had the privilege of experiencing! Very joy, such honest, WOW so love and funny. <3

2. Do you have any pets?

I sort of do! They live with my parents, but I claim them as my own because I am the hugest brat in the Southern hemisphere... Two French Bulldogs called Boo and Lola. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH that I almost can't stand it. They both do this beautiful thing where if you're lying on the floor (which I always am??), they will come and rest their muzzle gently on your face/head/chest and just sit there being warm and present and calm and loving. Pup Therapy™ has helped me a lot in my time! My parents also have a pond in their back yard which has a naturally cycling mini eco-system! There were tadpoles for a bit, but the frogs all hopped away eventually. A terrapin lives there (there were two, but dad's oldest one died a few years ago, he was so so old), and one time mum and dad bought some feeder fish for her to chase, but she wasn't that into it so they ended up breeding with the goldfish that lived there (which I won from a pet shop colouring competition when I was twelve and survived for about eleven years until it was picked off by a bird), and now there are heaps of beautiful fishies! My favourite is pregnant at the moment; she is all black on top with a golden belly.

3. What do you want to be when you grow up (lol)?

OH GOD I DON'T KNOW! When they asked me in primary school I think I said "a boy", then a marine biologist, then a sharkiologist, I wanted to work in films for ages- continuity or set design, but I never really followed anything up because I have had depression since I was twelve and it kinda killed my ambition/ability to imagine the future. I studied nursing for a semester in hopes of becoming a psych nurse, but swiftly realised I was too broken to help others... then I studied lots of art! I am (hopefully) going back to uni to study more art next year, which I am hoping will open up some avenues for me to find/rekindle a passion. I know I want to be a mum someday.

4. What are some of your favorite ways to relax? SLEEP, lying in the sun and stretching, going in the ocean (I say "going" because I don't always swim- I like to just bob around and float/let the waves and current move me around), taking a bath or shower, watching The Fall, mindlessly scrolling through tumblr... ^_^

5. Do you like where you live? Why or why not? I do- I love it!! The house I live in is like a beach holiday house- lots of natural light with a big sunroom out the back, floorboards, a shitty bathroom... and my housemates are wonderful friends I have known for years, and I have never felt more at home with anybody. The suburb we live in is great! We're close to a fresh produce market, a supermarket, train and tram, good/cheap restaurants with vegan options, a great local bar... I cannot fault it! It's a 30 min train/50 min tram ride from the CBD which can be annoying, but I'm moving a few suburbs closer early in the new year, so YAY! <3 6. If you could drop everything that you’re doing right now and travel anywhere, where would you go? Who would you go with? UM, shit. Japan with Atticus (which is happening next year!), Uki (northern NSW) with my family, Iceland with Atti, aaaaaand somewhere beachy with all my fronds. Also I want to go back to Spain, maybe by myself. 7. What is a good piece of advice you’ve learned that you wouldn’t mind sharing with others? It may seem obvious or trite, but do not be afraid to reach out for help if you need it.  So many times when I have been having a rough time with mental health issues or emotional stuff, I've been too embarrassed to ask for help- or thought "this isn't serious enough to warrant professional help"... and I've worried a lot about upsetting my parents, or that asking for help is admitting defeat or looking weak, or that it means I am incapable, or that I have relapsed... but if nobody else knows what's going on in my head, then it's all up to me. I recently let things get pretty bad because I was in denial about how sick I was, and it was very scary.  LIstening to Allie Brosh's radio interview on npr was actually the catalyst for me admitting to myself that I needed to seek help immediately (thanks Allie!), and I am so fucking glad that I did. So yeah, I guess the advice that SO many people have been giving me since I was a kid-- to ASK FOR HELP if you need it, finally sank in at age 28... and it's good advice.  8. Did you enjoy high school? Why or why not? I... did not overall enjoy high school. Mostly because of my mental health (fuck, that really is all I seem to talk about), I guess. I really loved learning, and was smart enough to not have to study much, so that was fun and satisfying when I could feel things. I went to a small girls' school, and it was very cliquey and had terrible rules and some teachers who really should have been reported for various things (sexual harassment, breaching counsellor confidentiality, bullying etc), but the principal was hugely unstable and out of touch with everything (every single speech made post-9/11 would compare student littering/uniform breaches to terrorism... for real), so there was no point. I made some great friends that I still occasionally see, but I never felt that really strong, sisterly bond with anyone [because derpression]. I felt alone a lot, and was dealing with psychosis and self harm, and just wanted to gtfo. Kudos to my mum for literally dragging me out of bed some days and making me go, and other days letting me stay home to watch Buffy and making me tea, because she is the best and tried her hardest to understand depression. <3 9. What’s your favorite food? AVOCADOS. Avocados on their own, or in/on/around anything else. As a spread; in smoothies; dips; dressings; for breakfast/lunch/dinner/second dinner/dessert/always/put them on me/yun. I love Mexican food and Japanese food (although it can be hard to find vegan Japanese cuisine at many Melbourne restaurants). Yong Green Food is my favourite place to eat out! 10. What is your astrological sign?  ~~aquarius~~ <3 11. Do you think I’m pretty? (◡‿◡✿) Yes! You have super-cute fashun-styles and are a babe and I am jealous of your eyelashes <3 12. Will you send me money? (◡‿◡✿) Oh, would that I had such any money to give! </3 13. Will you send me nudes? ʘ‿ʘ Butt of course!!!!!!1! (ok the last 3 are jokes lol hahaha im so funni) >:D

New questions: 1. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? 2. What is your favourite supernatural creature, and why? 3. If you were any animal other than human, what would you be? 4. Who/what is your favourite national icon, and why? 5. What is the thing that makes you most competitive? 6. What is your proudest achievement/what are you hoping to achieve that will make you proud? 7. DO YOU HAVE YOUR PEN LICENCE? 8. What is your favourite story of a naughty thing you once did? 9. What is your favourite kind of tree? 10. Do you belieeeeeve in life after love [after love, after love]? I tag sans-pants, rupony, zess, joshcroggon, thenextstation, hesterswell, andwhenithappens, caravaning, tingletang, epileptic-whorehouse (if y'all wanna do it- no pressure. Also pls do it anyway if I didn't tag you because these things are great if ur bored/wanna talk about stuff and ily <3)

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sans-pants replied to your post: me crying at u because i love u haha

OH MY BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS! I am preparing my bosoms for that hug, that bosomy hug is going to be so bosomy we may get lost in our own bosoms! I LOVE YOU!

I CAN'T WAIT TO GET LOST IN OUR OWN BOSOMS TOGETHER! I love you too, Bec. A great deal. <3

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thenextstation replied to your post: aw, look at this nice photo @analoguej...

OMG you’re so perfect I love you!

sans-pants replied to your post: aw, look at this nice photo @analoguej...

Sometimes I have trouble dealing with how much I love you.

I love you both too, so so so so so so so so soso so sosos os os osso so soso soso so soso so so sos oso sos o soo much. ;_; <3

[justallroutine]

17, 32, and 53.

Thank you!

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?

I think this was about the time I finally got out of bed. I walked across to the petrol station, bought milk, then came back and ate All-Bran Honey Almond and drank coffee while listening to Don’t Leave Me (Ne Me Quitte Pas).

32: Are you wearing socks?

I am not! Too hot for socks.

53: Ever been on a golf cart?

I haven’t. I feel like I’m missing out on something great here.