I've been on a Kellic reread binge since December when I bought my tickets to the I Can't Hear You tour.
Today I finished my last reuploaded Sarah fic—Glitter. And it's not even completed, so I don't get the closure.
It's been a bittersweet ride. I spent so much time reflecting on how much these fics meant to me 10 years ago. It's truly crazy to see what's become of the fandom and what's become of myself.
I'll never get to read Lavender, or Insatiable, or The Boyfriend Experience, or Under the Covers ever again. So many have been recovered, but so many have also been lost.
I deeply appreciate those who have worked so hard to revive the community, and who have put so much effort into tracking these fics down. You guys are awesome.
But I'm also deeply sorry to Sarah. We didn't respect your wishes and recirculated your fics without your permission. We shouldn't have done that.
Anyway, I'm tempted to read the reuploads all again, but I'm not sure I can emotionally handle it. Nostalgia really is a bitch.
Sarah, wherever you are, just know that we love you and we miss you, and we hope that you're doing well and still writing, even if it's not Kellic.