There's nobody I miss more than my best friend, and though I don't see her often or talk to her that much now that I've moved, at least I carry her with me everywhere as she designed my tattoo.
16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?
Not really. Kinda. I get embarrassed, and worried that I annoy her. But we haven’t seen each other for a few months so like, I might if I did.
17.Will you get married?
Depends, WILL I? YOUR MOVE GOVERNMENT. Also female population. Your move too.
18.When was the last time you smiled?
Right now
19.Does anyone like you?
Probably not.
20.Do you secretly like someone?
I mean it isn’t exactly a secret? The only people who don’t know are people who don’t know I’m gay so like most of my graduating class, and my family?
21.Who was the first person you talked to today?
Anne
22.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Person does not exist.
23.What are you NOT looking forward to?
FIRST AWKWARD WEEK OF COLLEGE?
24.What ARE you looking forward to?
AFTER THAT LESS AWKWARD OF COLLEGE.
25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
Not in a romantic way, no.
26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
Does not apply. But for the sake of this question, if I saw my crush kissing someone I would…be filled with a bittersweet happysad.
27.Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
DOES GOING TO COLLEGE COUNT?
28.Are you a forgiving person?
Once. Maybe more if I care about them a lot.
29.How many TRUE friends do you have?
I don’t know, I don’t feel like counting. Enough I suppose.
30.Do you fall for people easily?
I find a lot of people attractive, but falling for them? Not really. But the few I do I usually do like..a lot.
31.Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?
Nope.
32.What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Probably food?
33.Who was the last person you drove with?
Mother.
34.How late did you stay up last night and why?
Like two? Internet?
35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
I don’t know, I kinda wanna live inCanada.
36.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
I DON’T KNOOW Probably my cat
37.Can you live a day without TV?
I go weeks without TV, please.
38.When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
Um sometime over the summer when I realized some shit yeah okay stuff okay.
39.Three names you go by..
Ashley, Cashew, PC.
40.Are you currently in a relationship?
Haaaaaaaaaaa no.
41.What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
DOES THE LION KING/HERCULES COUNT CAUSE I dunno Hercules I guess cause Lion King seems less romancey. If it doesn’t I dunno, I don’t watch many romance movies.
42.Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
Yes.
43.What’s your current problem?
IM LEAVING IN 7-8 DAYS mom kinda wants to leave on Friday I dunno what we’re doing now.
44.Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah. A lot.
45.Your thoughts of long distance relationships?
I imagine they’re very difficult to have and take a lot more work, and maybe they aren’t for everyone, but if you can pull it off I salute you. Also don’t make fun of people who are in them if you do I am judging you.
46.How many kids do you want to have?
Somewhere between negative 5 and 0.
47.Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?
I apologize if you are on a mobile device and the read more doesn’t work for you. I am truly, truly sorry.
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
My cousin- I mean your girlfriend. She let me call you that.
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
Shy as fuck.
But then when you get to know me I’m very outgoing and I’m pretty sure people just think “God shut the fuck up”
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
Um…. The only person that comes to mind is a person I don’t think I’ll see… So I mean… no one?
4. Are you easy to get alone with?
I’m going to assume you mean along.
No. I’m a stubborn ass. I like arguing for the sake of argument. If something is important to you and I can tell or I’m just being lazy I’ll go along with anything though. I work rather well in teams though, I think. Tell me what needs done and I’ll do it. (But if you don’t do your part I will hate you so much.)
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
Well ignoring the fact that I have absolutely no intention of getting drunk, I mean I guess it COULD accidentally happen…(But someone will die the next day) would she?
Huh….
Val is a complete and utter sweetheart really, but I tend to make her uncomfortable, and I have no clue as to what kind of drunk I am. I might end up sobbing about how much I adore her, and that’s the kind of stuff that makes her uncomfortable. If I was passed out, I imagine she would, yes. If I was a blubbering fool, I imagine she’d give me to someone she and I both trust. If I somehow wasn’t a depressed drunk (Unlikely) and didn’t make her uncomfortable in my drunken confusion, she might. She doesn’t exactly hate my company when I don’t actively say Iloveyou things to her. But she also doesn’t seek it out… If she didn’t though, I have no doubt that she would make sure I’m safe.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
Sweet kind hearted people who I like to be around and make me happy/laugh…. People who make me hate myself less. (Or in extreme cases, people who make me actually like myself. Yeah…that’s nice.)
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
Not really. I mean, 1) It hasn’t happened in 17 years yet. 2) I’m going off to college and don’t see much point in falling for anyone new when I’m just going to leave soon. And 3) In two months I’ll have just moved recently in to my dorm and I don’t think anything will happen that soon.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
I don’t like guys… But if fictional characters count, I half have Augustus Waters on my brain because I need to finish that book. I haven’t been in the mood to cry so you know. Been putting that off.
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
With who? I was laughing because Makena and I were playing inappropriate scrabble and her brothers and cousin were there, and I played sex and they were like ewww that’s a bad word, and trying to act all grown up saying they knew what it was and I was just laughing. But if I had to talk about it with like…my brother, I’d be uncomfortable. I’d be fine discussing it with most friends, I think. Except I wouldn’t want to be like oh tell me all the details of your sex life, because I mean..some things are personal, you know?
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
I don’t know. What is considered deep, exactly?
I feel like deep is one of those words that are relative. If you’re used to water that only comes up to your ankles, then having it pool at your knees would be a surprise. But when the waters always almost up your nose and you’ve spent your entire life thinking you’d drown any moment, maybe things only seem deep when you completely submerge yourself. And now the answer to this question is probably you, reader. Mindfuck.
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
Well if kiks count, then “Sh”
Otherwise, “Mom wants to know if you wanna watch super man at 3:45 on tuesday the second.” I am now embarrassed that superman has a space. She hasn’t replied either, rude.
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
Ugh… Well I’ve been on a les mis thing recently and then today I read a post and thought about wicked so I’m listening to that right now so let’s say, In no particular order:
One Day More
On My Own
Who Am I
Wonderful
Defying Gravity
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
It’s a weird feeling for me. It bothers me, but I think that has more to do with my trust issues. Sometimes ON RARE OCCASION when I let my guard down I actually enjoy it. Usually I’ll just sit there stiffly.
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
I believe that people can get lucky and that miracles can happen, but I do not believe people have a finite amount of luck or that miracles have to happen.
15. What good thing happened this summer?
I REALIZED SOMETHING AMAZING ABOUT MYSELF AND STOPPED WANTING TO CRY WHENEVER I THOUGHT ABOUT THE GIRL I LIKED. LIKE THIS WAS GREAT NEWS FOR ME. I think I only almost cried once since then! And it was because I had an iffy dream and then I thought about things and it was only loosely related to her really….That was this morning.. Er…yesterday morning? I’m not going to finish these questions anytime soon.
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Not Applicable..
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
My opinion on this is that I don’t see why there can’t be, but I don’t see why the existence of other planets necessitates life on them. It seems likely, but that does not mean there HAS to be.
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
First Crush… Yes? Kind of? I mean I could text him and he’d reply, but since graduation I’ve barely talked to anyone. I hung out with him decently a lot the night of graduation. Yes. Him. Even when I thought I was straight, I had a crush on a gay guy, like really… Sometimes I wonder how it took me this long to realize. (He dresses very nice and is quite goofy. Now that I no longer like him, he irritates me sometimes, but never too much.)
19. Do you like bubble baths?
I don’t overly like baths, but when bubbles are involved they are acceptable, yes.
20. Do you like your neighbors?
Yes. The older ones are nice enough and mostly quiet, and the four I graduated with are all nice people.
21. What are you bad habits?
Your* What are your bad habits?*
Reading things and getting irritated at the problems with what I read.
Dwelling on things I should let go of.
Staying up till 2-4 in the morning.
Getting angry at the last person who used the blender for not cleaning it well enough, then remembering that I was the last person to use the blender.
22. Where would you like to travel?
To see my internet friends, Alaska, Canada (even though that’s covered with internet friends), and France sounds cool too. Japan is a definite maybe.
23. Do you have trust issues?
Yes. Very much so.
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
Sleeping probably.
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
My mind, I think. I mean…it’s very hateful and bitter. It’s probably the source of all the other things I’m uncomfortable with.
26. What do you do when you wake up?
Go back to sleep. Or lay in bed on my phone.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
Neither really…. When I think of physical insecurities, I think mine are…I wish I was a better me, not that I was a different person. “I don’t want to be me, but I don’t want to be anyone else either.”
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
Most? Michie probably…Some of my other friends being a good close second though.
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
I have no exes.
30. Do you ever want to get married?
IF IT WERE LEGAL, YES.
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?
Is*
This question is hilarious. Really. I Swear I cut off like four inches last week and it took my cousin a few hours to notice. Nother one of those relative questions. I still have like two feet of hair. (For my non American friends, Four inches is about 10 cm and two feet is like 60.)
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
ALEXIS KNAPP TWICE. Except that’s creepy.
Alexis Knapp and…I honestly don’t know. I’d be nervous enough having sex with Alexis, I can’t imagine anyone else there.
33. Spell your name with your chin.
Fuck. You.
sasdhlreuyhj
If you look, every letter is there. *BOLDS THEM SO YOU CAN SEE I DON’T FAIL*
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Nope!
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
TV by a landslide.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Yep. Well I’d only say I liked 3 people. With a few questionable maaaaaybe I migggght like you, but those went away much too quick, and I don’t count those. (Fun fact all three of them were in my calc class and two were at my table. Except I didn’t romantically like the two anymore, and the one person I still liked was at my table and I really do miss her…. But whatever.) So yeah, (Interestingly) the one I didn’t tell was the one who wasn’t at my table. OH AND SINCE YOU TOTALLY CARE ABOUT MY LIFE, but really you do because this is a shitload of shit and you’ve already gotten this far,
Girl I didn’t tell was in my calc class last year, and I liked her the first half of the year (Girl I currently need to get the fuck over sat next to me all year in the same class and well..I slowly fell unbearably hard for her there.) And some days they would sit next to each other across from me, and I thought both were pretty (Despite the fact that all feelings for first girl were going away by then) and it was quite hellish.
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
“Well this is awkward” Or sometimes “Well as much as I love awkwardness,” and then something sarcastic.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
I had to do that once and it was really long and a lot of this is already long so lets just say someone who I like being around who likes to be around me.
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Um… Old Navy, Target, JC Penny, Disney Store.
40. What do you want to do after high school?
I am out of highschool WHOOOOOOO. Not really.
I don’t really want to do things…
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes. But just one.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
You’re*
It could mean a ton of things. It could mean I don’t feel the need to fill every moment I talk to you with pointless words, It could mean I don’t like you, it could mean I’m lost in thought, it could mean I don’t care for the conversation, or it could mean I’m ridiculously tired and forgot to consciously acknowledge your presence.
43. Do you smile at strangers?
Sometimes, yes. If I’m walking down the street and I encounter someone else walking I smile. I also smile when I apologize for being in the way at stores. But I don’t just walk around with a smile plastered on my face.
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
Outer Space. Tumblr has made me mildly scared of the bottom of the ocean.
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
The fact that I have nothing better to do.
46. What are you paranoid about?
IF IM IN A CLOSET AT NIGHT OR IN THE WOODS OR SOMETHING AND ITS REALLY DARK ILL PROBABLY ACT CALM BUT A CHILL WILL RUN DOWN MY BACK AND I’LL BE UNCOMFORTABLE.
I’m also worried that I’ll never be good enough.
47. Have you ever been high?
No
48. Have you ever been drunk?
No
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
…No?
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Gray? I think Gray.
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
I sometimes wonder what the world looks like from someone else’s eyes, but I don’t really want to permanently be someone else.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
I wish I could be happy.
53. Favourite makeup brand?
Do not have.
54. Favourite store?
I don’t know, probably target cause sometimes they have really nice T shirts, and I usually get my Nerf things from there, (I HAVE A LOVELY NERF COLLECTION), and we usually go to Moe’s when we go there and that’s always nice.
55. Favourite blog?
ACCORDING TO MY TUMBLR FAVORITES, CILIA. And while I do enjoy her blog, I may or may not be skewing that because she was my favorite once and I told her, and I was her favorite so we just do that now. I really enjoy the blogs I follow for pensive quotey things. (Cilia I love your blog though shhh)
56. Favourite colour?
Blue. (Most people I know in person think Orange, on the internet they think Purple and Green is a common guess between both groups..)
57. Favourite food?
I LIKE MEXICAN FOOD AND THAT IS THAT.
58. Last thing you ate?
Kinda Raspberry Moose, but it was just the bit left over in the blender BECAUSE I SHOULD HAVE MADE MORE CHOCOLATE CUPS I MEAN THERE IS SO MUCH CHOCOLATE ON THE BOTTOM OF EACH CUP AND THEN THERE WAS EXTRA CHOCOLATE AND UGH IM VERY IRRITATED I PROBABLY COULD HAVE MADE TWO MORE, I could have AT LEAST made one more. Anyways I say kind of because it wasn’t refrigerated.
59. First thing you ate this morning?
…Toast? Maybe?
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Won..nope. Never first place. UNLESS LIKE IN CLASS COMPETITIONS COUNT. The Psych Olympics were pretty intense, like three days final review AND MY TEAM FUCKING OWNED. We got every single gold medal, and then in jeopardy our teacher was like “Lets just say whoever wins jeopardy wins” (Because Jeopardy is some serious business in Steelman Psych) and we were like what the heck, because we had all golds previously.
So yeah team two was beating us, had slightly under double our score, everything looked like we would loose when suddenly Megan answered a question. (It was a pun about dolphins I kid you not) and Steelman was like, okay Megan, you get the honor of selecting the last question of psych jeopardy. And everyone had forgotten that we only found one of the double jeopardy questions and it was literally the most intense way to end Psych class. In an intense moment where we had to bet all of our points, we correctly answered the question and successfully earned gold on every single challenge.
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
I have not.
62. Been arrested? For what?
Nope.
63. Ever been in love?
I believe so, yes.
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
I cannot. Maybe if I could see into the future.
65. Are you hungry right now?
Well on the one hand I REALLY WANT TO EAT THE MOOSE I MADE, but on the other, its 1 in the morning and I’m not really.
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
…Yes. The only real friends I still talk to are also tumblr friends anyways. I mean…I like my real friends, I guess. But people don’t really like me. And it’s easier to bug my internet friends.
67. Facebook or Twitter?
Don’t have a Facebook, so Twitter.
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
Tumblr by far.
69. Are you watching tv right now?
Right now I’m answering a shitload of questions.
70. Names of your bestfriends?
No. Asking me to list them is like saying “YOU BETTER NOT FORGET —- OR YOU WILL OFFEND —- HORRIBLY” And I don’t want to offend people cause I already have enough issues thinking I’m a disappointment so you know what, no.
71. Craving something? What?
Either a hug or a cuddle or a Val. Or a Val hug. Those are nice. She hates hugs.
72. What colour are your towels?
It’s got a lot of cool colors on it. Blues mostly. I don’t think any purple, but some green.
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
..7? Yeah 7.
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
….One.
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
…A lot.
75. Favourite animal?
Rabbit.
76. What colour is your underwear?
Currently (and usually) Black.
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla. Usually. I mean I live in a chocolate forest *COUGHS CILIA LOUDLY* and I like chocolate, but not in large amounts.
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
Cookies and cream man, cookies and cream.
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
Black. Mostly. It’s got Jack Skellington’s eyes/mouth on it in white.
80. What colour pants?
Red, with candy canes and snowflakes and reindeer. The reindeer either have a scarf of a sweater. I like these pants a lot, they were a good purchase.
81. Favourite tv show?
Depends. IF ANIMES COUNT TRIGUN BLOWS EVERYTHING OUT OF THE WATER. But I also enjoy Victorious, Suits, White Collar, Dollhouse…that’s about it.
82. Favourite movie?
The Lion King I guess. Sometimes Hercules or Beauty and the Beast threaten to take its throne. OH MY GOD THIS IS ALMOST A PUN.
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
I haven’t seen two.
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
I haven’t seen 21 Jump Street.
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
I liked that one girl….I only saw this movie once and it was like a month or two ago…The girl who was like the super awesome and real, she was the best friend of the main character. She has the unfortunate luck of saying “You are a mean girl.” (I’m bad with names, decent with quotes.) I mean I GUESS it was a mildly clever way of throwing the title into the movie. They could have done worse.
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
Like….Marlin maybe,
87. First person you talked to today?
Probably Michie
88. Last person you talked to today?
Currently Michie.
89. Name a person you hate?
Casey. From my 9th grade math class, and 9/10/11th grade French classes.
90. Name a person you love?
Val. Imeanwhat. Yeah.
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
Kind of. Not reaaalllllllly. But I mean, I wouldn’t mind punching Casey.
92. In a fight with someone?
Not really, no.
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
Not that many, don’t feel like counting.
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
A decent amount, but I tend to wear the one a shitload and the rest rarely.
95. Last movie you watched?
Warm Bodies. Last night.
96. Favourite actress?
Alexis Knapp. Have you met me?
97. Favourite actor?
…. Tough. Maybe Robert Downey Jr, maybe Johnny Depp, if voice actors count then Gideon Emery gets thrown in.
98. Do you tan a lot?
I’m naturally tan and am not in the sun much.
99. Have any pets?
I have a son named Snowy, he is a rabbit, and a daughter named Veata, she is a cat. Both are adopted, clearly.
100. How are you feeling?
Decent actually. Not really happy, but not sad at least. Tad bit tired.
101. Do you type fast?
According to some people, yes.
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
Not really, no. Pasts past, and you learn from it.
103. Can you spell well?
HA. HA. No.
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
If you’re this far, you know that’s a yes. Dear god I miss her so much.
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
I HAVE BONFIRES SOMETIMES AND YOU’RE ALL INVITED. But not really. If we haven’t talked before please become my tumblr friend first, and then you’re invited.
Yeah I’ve been to other people’s bonfire parties before.
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
Doubt it, but maybe.
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
I have not. But I did witness a horse giving birth once.
108. What should you be doing?
I don’t know, sleeping? Filling out forms for College? I have like a week for those though.
109. Is something irritating you right now?
Right this second? Nah.
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Yes. So much. The physical manifestation of the pain in my chest is the worse.
111. Do you have trust issues?
I don’t even trust this question. Probably because it’s suspiciously like 23.
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Well my dad walked in and I was crying…I don’t think he noticed and I don’t know if it counts.
113. What was your childhood nickname?
…Ash by my dad.
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Yes. Yes I have.
115. Do you play the Wii?
Not often, Did today.
116. Are you listening to music right now?
Yep.
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
Sometimes.
118. Do you like Chinese food?
I do not, no. I don’t really eat it though and I imagine I could. TOTALLY WOULD HAVE SUGGESTED THAT AS A FIRST DATE WITH VAL. We had this thing with fortune cookies.
119. Favourite book?
Winnie the Pooh.
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
..Yes.
121. Are you mean?
Yeah.
122. Is cheating ever okay?
UM…Well people have different definitions of cheating, and sometimes I cheat in Video Games, but never against others and usually just out of boredom. I enjoy beating things without cheating first, however.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
Kind of. I mean, it takes me weeks to get them dirty. But I get them dirty on purpose.
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No. No I do not.
125. Do you believe in true love?
Yes. Very much so.
126. Are you currently bored?
Nah I have a lot of questions to answer.
127. What makes you happy?
I don’t know really.
128. Would you change your name?
I don’t think so, no.
129. What your zodiac sign?
Sagittarius, I think.
130. Do you like subway?
I haven’t been on the subway ever I think…but I imagine I would not.
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Politely remind them that I am gay.
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
….You when you read queston 10.
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
Tough… I mean I’m mildly influenced by the fact that I’m listening to defying gravity and I love how she sings
“And nobody, in all of oz
No wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring Me Down”
But I’ve also been listening to a lot of les mis, and I loved On My Own’s
“Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers”
As well as
“Without me
His world will go on turning
A world that’s full of happiness
That I have never known”
134. Can you count to one million?
I don’t have the patience, but it’s physically possible I suppose.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
I don’t really like lying, and on the rare occasion that I do I usually admit it shortly after because I get a nasty feeling in my chest.
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Closed.
137. How tall are you?
5’3, which is like 160cm
138. Curly or Straight hair?
139. Brunette or Blonde?
Okay honestly it depends on the person because lots of different people are beautiful but Val had curly brown hair so I’ll say that.
140. Summer or Winter?
WINTER. WHY IS IT SO FUCKING WARM KILL ME. (Its not THAT warm, but I radiate heat. It’s nice in the cold, not really now.)
141. Night or Day?
Day, I think. Nights pretty, but I’m scared of the dark.
142. Favourite month?
December.
143. Are you a vegetarian?
Ha ha, no.
I mean no offense if you are, but I personally like meat way too much.
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
Milk usually, but I like all of them, really. In small bits, as we’ve discovered earlier.
145. Tea or Coffee?
Tea, usually. Coffee is okay sometimes.
146. Was today a good day?
It was an uneventfully decent day.
147. Mars or Snickers?
Is there..I mean Snickers is part of mars, is there like a mars candy bar that I don’t know of in foreign countries? I like Snickers? I don’t know?
148. What’s your favourite quote?
Favorite is a horrible horrible question. So I refuse to answer it cause I’m tired. If you haven’t noticed my answers slowly got shorter.
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
Same as my opinion on Aliens.
150. Get the closet book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
“They get discounted flights, so this is a great way to see the world at a bargain price.”
Oh gosh. I love like the entire song…. So you’re getting multiple things.
“And if I prayed for one more thing it would be time. Just a second I could pause, just one more minute at exhaust. Cause on the list of everything I need, there’s air but first, there’s you and me. There’s love, and love your everything.”
“If I had to walk the earth a thousand times, I’d do it cause I love you. Because if you said I had to I would know it to be true. And I would spend every night, under the stars, to memorize the patternsboth our heartbeats would make. It might stop me from shaking”
Last song you listened to* Gosh tumblr ask things, gosh.
….Fuck um… It was something on Regina Spektor’s What We Saw from the Cheap Seats album…..but I just had the whole album opened up on youtube, so I don’t remember which song.
✖ - Your perfect girl/boy?
Oh gosh.
You know, you’re just going to make me think of all of the things I liked and disliked about Val now Panda. I’ve been trying very hard to not think about her, but you know.
SO I guess to me….ugh how do I word this……I mean, I would just want them to be their own goofy self, and like me for my goofy self…but I really liked how Val was blunt and honest and how everything she did was adorable and made me smile. My perfect girl would be anyone who makes me like myself. Val did that and I have no clue how, really… But she did, and I really rather miss the feeling.
I’d like for them to be okay with the fact that sometimes I don’t know what to say, and that I like laying on the ground and staring at the ceiling, and just thinking. Sometimes I make weird noises for no reason, and I’ll often meow at my cat. I will also roll around and be a giant child. So really they need to be okay with my awkward.
They’d have to be willing to put up with me, because honestly I am one of the most obnoxious and hardest to deal with little shits imaginable. And really all I can offer in return for anyone putting up with me is an absurdly loyal and loving person, and I can’t even always do that right.
Also I’m getting her flowers. It’s happening. AND I LIKE FLOWERS TOO So I hope she knows this, and sometimes gets me flowers cause flowers are nice. And she should like baking, cause I love baking, and we could bake together. And I hope she has a music taste that coincides with, but is also different from mine, because I’d like to share music with her..and when that happens, I’d like to be surprised, but pleasantly surprised, you know? Also that with television and movies and maybe books. I don’t read much because ITS ALL I WANT TO DO WHEN I DO, BUT THEN I WANT TO DO OTHER THINGS TOO AND IM JUST VERY BAD AT PLANNING THINGS OUT.
And while I’d love for her to be jovial and fun-loving, I sometimes get really deep and would like for her to be able to hold deep conversations with me. Or nerdy conversations. Nerds are cute man.
Also since I love hugs, and as you know, they tend to be bear hugs, (Although my hugs were not always bear hugs on the rare times Val let me hug her, so maybe with people I have romantic feelings I’m just okay with them in my arms and don’t need to squeeze them? But then, when I get hyper happy instead of content happy my hugs hurt like hell.) SO SINCE I LOVE HUGS AND GIVE VERY PAINFUL ONES, she should like hugs and cuddling.
And since you said perfect and I get to be picky here, some physical things I’d like (But really everything else is more important and someone could be the opposite of all of these and I’d still date them) Would be green eyes, not being too much taller than me (I rather liked hugging Val with her 5’5ness. They can also be shorter, that’s fine.), and probably darker hair. BUT THEN LIGHT HAIR IS NICE ON CERTAIN PEOPLE TOO SO I DON’T EVEN KNOW, Tall people I don’t know well make me nervous and I like green eyes. Okay? Okay.
Also Val didn’t have a lot of these things, and I still kinda viewed her as perfect. But that’s more of a talk about my definition of perfect and really I’ve already bored whoever took the time to read all of this enough already.
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