just a quick rant:
So lately, I’ve unfollowed lots of people from instagram; not that I don’t think they’re talented cosplayers but I can’t deal with the overwhelming number of whiteness? Let me explain further. As an amateur cosplayer, I’m obviously looking at lots of amazing cosplayers for makeup inspiration and what not. I was pretty secure about myself when I started, as I had been working on self-confidence and positive self-improvement rather than being self-deprecating. All of a sudden, however, I’ve been feeling extremely frustrated and critical of everything. I’ve become accustomed to blocking out the “white beauty and advertising” on tv and ads, but instagram completely blindsided me. I’m sitting here thinking, ‘my skin isn’t pale and doesn’t look as “pretty and white” as others, I’m short and have short legs, I have small eyes not big bright doe eyes’, and so on. It’s already bad enough to have western beauty standards shoved down my throat, but in addition, western, “white” beauty is still superior in Asia. There's just no winning. And it’s hard and it’s frustrating not being able to do makeup and take photos like those amazing cosplayers because I’m poc. I want to follow more poc accounts ;; I used to be proud of my dark skin. I want to feel that way again. End of the not so quick rant IM SORRY