in hindsight, this whole mess really is his fault. if he had known that claire would come back to him in twenty years time, he’d have done it all differently. but he hadn’t known. how could he have? he’d thought her lost forever to time, and so he’d married laoghaire mackimmie... and hated himself for it ever since. he hadn’t known that it was possible to hate himself more... until claire came back. he’d known that she would find out about laoghaire sooner or later, but the circumstances... they had not been ideal.
so now, with a wounded shoulder, he sits on the edge of his bunk. the ship hasn’t started to move yet, not yet for another hour or so, and he knows that once it does his stomach will be in knots. claire is sitting across from him, eyes downcast, and he knows she’s pointedly not looking at him.
“...i canna tell ye enough how sorry i am, sassenach--” he says, his voice quiet.
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