#satanicdokidoki

[sacrificialroses]

i am so sad like i wish I could find tumblr users satanicdokidoki and super-rabbit like they probably remade or moved tumblrs but idk where to find em

[itsbetterthantakingpills-jk]

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rosiepiesc4 said: You are beautiful and amazingg

I decided to thank you privately and publicly. Thank you so much sweetness<33333

[purplethebunny]

Dramatic Nightmares

When I finally got to sleep last night, I had a number of nightmares. This is it's own kind of terrible, but one stood out. Associations are easy - workplace violence training I missed which had the image of a person pointing a gun at another person, watching Sneakers, hip/leg pain because the sick or I don't know what, bioshock, ideation.

So, my subconcious decides that I have to say goodbye to specific people. Eggroll, Propoleno, J, Satanicdokidoki, H, T. And... they were so specific, those messages. Fever dreams /never/ make this much sense. I guess I want to save 'em. I might not get the wording right, of course. Sorry and love in every thing. It was very dramatic.

Eggroll: I'm so sorry. I love you. You have to be strong because you are. The world needs you. Don't give up.

Propoleno: Come to California anyway. Humboldt is bigger than one person. I'm sorry I won't be there to be part of it. I love you.

J: I'm sorry, and I love you. Thank you for making it better.  Stay better.

Satanicdokidoki: I'm sorry. I love you, and you've got what it takes to make it each day. Stay good bby.

H: I'm sorry. I love you. Don't forget about me.

T: YOU WILL BE OK. Every part, you will be ok. Don't fall apart. I'm sorry. I love you.

And it just fades into whatever nightmare is next.

In part, I feel guilty that there aren't more names on that list.  :(