#savedsolo

[vjesticka]

@savedsolo​ sent :  "Hey good lookin, you come here often?"

SHE KNEW WHAT KIND OF GAME HE WAS PLAYING AT BUT SHE WASN’T IN THE MOOD . ❝ yes ben , i live here . now stop being a dork , sit down , and relax . ❞ she said with an eye roll before resuming her reading and enjoying her glass of wine . she really wanted to relax after a long day .

[sunsabered]

★ BEN SOLO.​

𝐈𝐂𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐆𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑 held her in a seemingly never ending grip; always fighting for strength without ever daring to release her. That day on Exegol was so fresh on her mind as though it had been mere minutes --- treasured repeats of seconds --- and not the days or weeks that truly had passed. So much had been lost; countless lives shattered in one way or another. The words of Maz Kanata played on her mind like a haunting nightmare, like a shiver that went down her spine and relentlessly reminded her of the horrors that had come afterwards and mixed in with the good days. The belonging you seek is not behind you... it is ahead. Oh, she had been right. Maz had spoken with the wisdom of the ages. It had all made sense; with each step of her journey the young Jedi had become more herself, found a family in people that she could say she truly cared about and somehow... she had found Ben.

And just when she thought it was finally over, thought that they had finally won he’d slipped away from her. The pure joy that she had felt when he sat in front of her with that smile, the happiness of just being there and the knowledge that they were both fine; it had been the happiest moment. And then it had all ended, in the blink of an eye he’d fallen back. Before her hands could move and reach out for the man that had saved her, his body had vanished entirely. There’d been a weird feeling, as though this had a deeper meaning. Somewhere in the distance --- such a dark distance --- in the depths of time and space Rey could still feel him and yet a part of her felt as though he was gone. Was he dead? No, she refused to believe that. Perhaps that was the reason - the one thing that had given her the strength to go on as though he was just a step away.

Somehow Rey had made it back to the ship, had made her way to rejoin the resistance in the sky. Oh, there had been moments of joy then and there and there was no denying that seeing her new family most alive and well was something she was going to be forever grateful for. This was her chosen family; a group of people she’d have died for if she had to. In truth, wasn’t that what she had done? Her life had been lost, for that tiny moment her own eyes had seen it and then there’d been Ben. It is another second she allows herself before her mind wanders back to the resistance; to Poe and Finn, Chewie and all the other wonderful and brave people. They had won and no one could ever take that from them again. 

Now, days and weeks had passed. It was not the first time and certainly not the last that she’d woken from a dream with tears coating her already sore cheeks. Rey couldn’t quite understand what was going on. Every night her eyes would fall upon Ben Solo in a place she’d never seen before; like a world between worlds --- so, so far away from her. Everytime she’d wake up, crying or screaming out for the man to come back to her. Over the weeks a feeling of sadness had sad in. The belief that Ben Solo truly had died and gone over the force had solidified in her mind almost against her will. However much she hoped that he was still there, the chances were close to non existent and perhaps he’d finally found peace; a peace that Rey herself hadn’t felt ever since the dreams began.

The young Jedi allowed herself to fall back, her back falling against a pillow that no longer seemed soft. Exhaustion was pulling on her, drowning out the darkness around her to fill it with light. There it was; the place she’d never seen before. There he was; Ben Solo, looking exactly like the day she’d last seen him. ❝ --- Why can’t you just be real? ❝ It was the desperate plea of a semi dreaming mind; one last plea before she fully drifted off.

[scndraised]

THERE   IS   PANIC   IN   HER   EYES  ,   FACE   PALE  .  heart   beats   as  fast   as   a   ship   in   the   hyper   drive  ,   dirty   hands   still   shaking  .    they   had   escaped   dangerous   claws   reaching   out  ,   but   at   what   cost   ?  ?   a   planet   left   behind  ,   a   life   sold   for   a   stupid   act   of   bravery  .   COULDN  ‘  T   SHE   SIMPLY   DEAL   WITH   THINGS   LIKE   SHE   WAS   USED   TO   ?  ?   always   keeping   her   distance  ,   no   one   allowed   to   come   as   close   as   the   next   best   stranger  ,   mind   focused   on   the   only   thing   that   counted  .   SURVIVAL  .   rey   wasn  ‘  t   a   warrior  .   she   wasn  ‘  t   someone   to   take   care   of   others  ,   neither   to   show   great   interest   in   any   political   belongings  .   getting   involved   too   deep   made   you   an   easy   target  .   stepping   on   the   wrong   toes   got   you   killed  .   WHAT   WAS   SHE   THINKING   ?  ?   slender   body   falls   onto   cheap   looking   bar   stool  ,   fingers   raised   to   order   something   to   moisten   dry   throat  .   an   easy   job  .   easy   made   credits   to   buy   food   for   tomorrow  ,   to   feel   the   sun   rising   above   the   wreckage   she   called   home     (    never   to   be   seen   again    )     .   despair   growing   while   companion   probably   tried   his   best   to   let   their   vehicle   disappear   before   they   were   found  .   no  .   there   was   no   point   in   hiding  .   SHE   WAS   AS   GOOD   AS    DEAD  .  

◟ 𝚙𝚕𝚘𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕 @savedsolo​ ◝

[vjesticka]

@savedsolo​ asked : ❛❛ Please stay with me tonight. I don’t want to be alone. ❜❜

❝ OF COURSE , you don’t need to ask . ❞ she said with a hushed tone . she returned back to his side and laid her hand upon his own . he was in the hospital receiving treatment . she’d let her parents know that the kids will be with them overnight . ❝ everything is going to be okay , i know it will be . ❞ it was a motorcycle accident , but thank god , ben got out with just a couple broken bones and a concussion and not anything worse .

[liftingxrocks]

It was always strange for Rey when she found herself standing beside Ren in front of Snoke. It reminded her of when they were younger, constantly being scolded for not being good enough. The fear of failure was so deeply engraved in her bones, that she had to hold her hands tightly behind her back to hide the slight tremble that appeared in them. Especially when she knew progress hadn’t been made and they had no information that could be deemed useful.  The encounter with the Supreme Leader had been less than pleasant. Rey knew that his patience was wearing thin, but it wasn’t as if her or Ren were able to work miracles, not even with the bond they had. Tracking down the resistance would take time, wiping them out completely could take even longer.  “We need a different strategy.” She looked over at Ren as they walked, brute force wasn’t getting them anywhere, the increased violence wasn’t getting them any answers. “The rebels are being warned every time we come to a planet. Snoke’s plan isn’t working. We need to move forward with more stealth, make sure no one sees us coming.” Doubt was starting to creep into Rey’s mind. Was Snoke even right about any of it? Were they really doing the right thing?

@savedsolo​ | Plotted starter

[demonslayvr]

i havent been able to look my cat in the eye after seeing cats and i legit watched 20 minutes of it before having to leave.

questions   ??   you send em   !!   |   accepting

JACKPOT.    no one actually left which is honestly a surprise to me,  though i could hear people quietly groaning throughout    (   same y’all.  )   and  , ,  i’m so sorry.  i don’t own a cat and i don’t see them often so i am   safe   for the moment.  god speed to you and your cat.  

[sunsabered]

a very fresh reminder that you are just so fucking incredible. your rey is incredible, your sharing of ideas and your imagination is incredible. i just love you a whole bunch and its always a pleasure to see you on the dash. ty.

𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐀𝐁𝐒𝐎𝐋𝐔𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐘, 𝟏𝟎𝟎% 𝐓𝐇𝐄 best, you know that? I have no idea how long this has been sitting in my inbox but know that is such a nice thing and those words are so appreciated!! I love talking plots with you, honestly and also just randomly talking because we do that too. Like a lot. And of course we are also beyond professional; as in forgetful. Cause that’s why we’re here. Thanks for being you

[scavengeir]

@savedsolo​‘s starter;

       she breathes in and out  ,  over and over  .  like master luke showed her  .  reaching out to the force  ,  asking for guidance  .  there’s a moment  ,  where she thinks she feels it  ,  where she’s about to tip over into the void  ,  when she realizes it isn’t the force catching her  .  it’s kylo ren  .  rey flies back  ,  startled eyes wide and mouth twisting into a snarl  .  “  get out of my head  ,  get out  !  ”  she hates this  ,  the connection between them  ,  the access he has to her mind  .