#savrambles

[cowboybrunch]

i love when characters get angry when they're frightened. shelter dog characters. i love when they bite, not able to tell the difference between a hand that feeds and a hand that strikes. there is no difference. a hand is a hand is a fist. i love characters that are deemed unadoptable. unlovable.

and i love when someone loves them. i love when someone sits with them, patient. they don't flinch at the snarling and snapping. they're not trying to fix it—there's nothing to be fixed. this is you, all of you, and ill wait. because one day, one day you'll take the treat. go on, draw my blood. spit and curse and rage. you're safe with me. one day, you'll feel safe with me.

[boneappletits]

your ed is valid even when you binge.

your ed is valid even when you eat like a normal healthy human being.

[cowboybrunch]

this detail isn't important to the plot but it's important to me so i'm keeping it

[cowboybrunch]

big fan of “person i love is missing and i can’t find them”

bigger fan of “i know exactly where they are, i know they’re hurt, i know they’re in danger, but i can’t reach them”

[cowboybrunch]

yea i'm working on a new project. it'll be done in either two months or five years

[cowboybrunch]

i keep seeing this post about how there's no such thing as bad writing and i understand that it's meant to be encouraging but like. there is. there just is!

sometimes an ending doesn't land. sometimes a plot line is too convoluted. sometimes dialogue is stilted. writing can be cliche or redundant or unclear or just not flow well

and unless you're a writing prodigy who has been curating perfectly crafted prose since birth, you're gonna write something bad. god knows i've written plenty of bad (and still do). it's part of the process!

knowing why something doesn't work is more beneficial than just saying, "well it's art, it can't be bad"

all of this to say, there's no such thing as unimportant writing. only way to get better is to practice, and when you practice, you're inevitably gonna fail. and that's fine! that's normal! don't limit yourself by refusing to acknowledge and analyze those failures

[cowboybrunch]

me to a character i created and control: WHY would you do THAT

[cowboybrunch]

when i was 13 yrs old i didnt think i’d live to be 16 and when i was 16 i didnt think i’d live to be 18 and when i was 18 i didnt think i’d live to be 21 and so on. so yea, my birthday is a big deal to me! i didnt think i’d make it this far!