#says blake

[neonstahli]

May I ask for some help with food tonight since I get the house to myself and I've been kinda sick so I don't really want to cook? Maybe 20 or something if its ok?

Paypal.me/zwhack, neonstahli for cashapp and venmo, I'd appreciate it so much

[neonstahli]

Help me yet again with heath?

Listen I am not happy to have to post. I don't want to. But I passed out 4 times this week and this last one destroyed my only pair of glasses.

Isn't it awesome. Ugh. I need a new prescription anyway, it's only like 100 from when I was told to redo the appointment and get cheap frames again. I wish I could get ones that won't break but like. Idk. I can't see. Legally I can't work without them so oof.

As for the passing out thing, I have a 250 dollar sleep test set up for it, that's on the 5th. Doc thinks I developed narcolepsy from all of this since my brain isn't too happy with me still. I can't pay it when I go but they're willing to bill me. If anyone can help to pay that beforehand I'd probably cry. I'm so dang tired lol. So so tired.

If anyone can help, paypal.me/zwhack, @neonstahli for venmo and $neonstahli for cashapp. Let me know if it asks for any verification info, it isn't supposed to anymore but, eh. Thanks guys. I hate this still but I know this is all I really have left to do, admit I can't do this alone anymore.

[neonstahli]

This sucks again.

I woke up so wheezy and tight this morning I fainted after trying to sit there and focus on deep breathing, landed onto my dog for a second and woke back up gasping with her licking my face. Got to my inhaler finally, I can breathe better. But after that I have to go to the docs, again. And I'm in the negative again. This is a lot but I'm really trying to just not die. If anyone can spare a few bucks I'd be super grateful, my paypal is paypal.me/zwhack and cashap/venmo is $neonstahli and @neonstahli , respectively. I really need I think 60 or something, for ride/copay. I'm tired of this guys it's scary. It's been months of this weird shit and this is the first time since the first hospital trip that I've struggled so much I faded out. I want to be ok I'm scared.

[neonstahli]

Rent/Medical Help. Unfortunately. (6/25)

I didn't want to make a post like this again. But due to an unforseen thing yet again (lost a damn tire, other car issues that needed rectified), we're 400 short on rent, and I have about 100 in medical I need to pay to get my new meds for my breathing, legit. If anyone can help I'd probably cry. I could really use the help again.

Paypal.me/zwhack - $neonstahli (cashapp) - @neonstahli (venmo) if anyone can help any

[neonstahli]

An Updated Help Post,

I am sorry, first off. I hate asking for help but now things are very bad. I'm Blake H, a trans man living with my two best friends and our dogs during this fun quarantine 2020. As people may know from my prior post, I'm working through a fresh diagnosis of Ménière's disease. For people who do not understand or don't know of this disease, I deal with these symptoms literally every waking moment of my life:

Dizziness and Vertigo

Tinnitus, fullness, and clogging in my ear

Hearing loss (half-permanent in my right ear)

Imbalance, motion sickness, nausea

Rapid involuntary eye movement

Random spots of blindness, temp loss of vision

Fainting spells

Weakness and fatigue

It sucks.

But, I am trying to make the best of it. I have appointments made in the future to work on this. This is one expense, but this is months on now. I am functioning okay right now, thanks to help to this point. I am the only one working currently so I have to make the best of it.

But this is where things get tough now, we need rent.

What I did put aside to help with rent after the fact of things, is gone. It's been a long month here. We need a total of 715 for rent by the 1st. If anyone can help with that, I'd be beyond words.

But that's not all!

Our car is dead. We need to get a battery. Yay.

Idk prices on that, I don't speak car, but my roommate says it isn't that much, like 50 or something. We do also need 300 there for a car payment though. Yaaay. We can't drive it regardless so even if we were to get the battery we can't drive until the payment is made. Yaaaaay.

And, last but not least. The biggest and most sudden issue:

One of our dogs needs to go to the vet. Badly.

He is not doing so well. He has a bad ear problem and they are now leaking pus and brown goop/old blood, and for him, he is old himself and I can tell it causes him a lot of discomfort and pain. But the boy wags his damn tail all day regardless. He NEEDS to desperately see a vet to get medication for his ears, we have to figure out why they're draining so badly now. I was told my roommate found a place that will take him walk-in for a couple hundred (200) so I'm going to say that's my goal for my boy Charlie here, he deserves to feel better.

If anyone at all out there can help my dysfunctional household, and help us stay afloat, I'd give you the damn world if I could. If anyone requires proof of anything here, just message me. I will answer everything anyone asks of me, especially right now. I want to live, I want my kids here to survive, I want my dogs to be okay. We need this roof.

Thank you for reading and spreading if you do, I love you all and be safe.

PayPal - Venmo (@neonstahli)

Cashapp $neonstahli

(PayPal and Venmo are not labeled Blake but my birthname, which begins with an A, for anyone nervous about helping.)

[neonstahli]

A lil June 10th update (one of the last)

Things are finally evening out for us all. I'm doing slowly better, we have most things caught up on, and we may look into getting me my license soon if I'm healthy enough to. It's been good. It's nice to be able to breathe again, in all senses of the word.

We do have some minor things to still cover if anyone can help us; my paycheck is already gone to the gas bill and groceries. We have to get more dog and cat food soon again. We also have internet and storage to pay, altogether it's legit only 255 and change. That's it. It feels nice to say.

So altogether if I may ask for some assistance, hopefully for the last time, could anyone help us scrounge up that amount? I hope to pay this all forward once this climb is over. I owe it all to you all. Thank you for any help or spreading the word. Be safe and well.

Paypal.me/zwhack, venmo and cashapp are neonstahli. They are linked and highlighted in red above.

[neonstahli]

A whole new story;

Hey, I'm Blake. You guys have seen me struggle for months during 2020, unfortunately. I may have some answers as to why, and it also unfortunately begs me to ask for a lot of help, again.

During all of this money troubles, trying to get my job back, and just trying to live, I've been going to the doctors insuranceless. I've been told I "very likely" have something called Ménière’s disease, which is not only a rare disease to have but a degenerative one. I am losing my hearing completely, and it has been accompanied by immense dizzy spells and the inability to eat. I've lost OVER 40 pounds since November because I haven't been able to eat well because of my dizzy spells, and now I see it's possibly been because of a potential disease I never knew I had. 2020 has been a hell of a year, huh.

If I may ask, I'd like to try to get 134 for my storage bill, and 600 for my meds and future copays for my ENT and Ophthalmologist appointments, which are soon. I know it's a lot to ask, but I want to get a grip on this before it can get worse. Anything helps, and everything will help me now. I never ask for help for myself, and now I know I need it most. If anyone, ANYONE can spare even a penny, I'd be beyond words.

I didn't want to come forward and mention this. It doesn't sound like much of a disease in retrospect, but it has plagued me for 8 years. I never had solid answers, and now that I do, it's possibly too late. All I can do is go see doctors, get tests, take medication to help the spinning and constant nausea so I can make it through the day. And the potential of surgery is high on their list, which makes me really scared. But I have a chance at a better life, and I just need some help to get there until I can get health insurance through Ohio approved, which I am waiting on currently.

I want to make myself better, and I truly need your help more than ever. Thank you all to bits, I love you all to death for what you've done for me, for us. Now it is my turn to try to make myself right. Please.

If anyone would like any extra info, has any questions, anything at all, please feel free to ask. I'm still gathering up info and proof and whatnot myself; this is app a very new diagnosis and it's humbling. Sobering, even. I've pushed this too long and now it's irreversible. But at least I have a chance to try.

Edit: I'm dumb and forgot to put this - paypal.me/zwhack, @neonstahli on venmo and $neonstahli on cashapp

[neonstahli]

May 21st Update and a lil help?

Could anyone possibly help me with my gas bill again? We aren't gonna be using it as much but they do want 100 for it. Technically 94 something but y'know.

I also know our rental for furniture wants I believe 60, if anyone can help as well? They are willing to wait a bit but I don't get paid in time regardless. Woo.

But man that's all I'm behind on finally. I got a raise, I got mostly seals of approvals on my suffocation episode, I'm healing. It's good. I appreciate you all helping me, helping all of us here. We're getting the car fixed soon too! And I can get free rides to work starting Sunday! Like guys. It's gonna be good from here.

My paypal is paypal.me/zwhack, my cashapp and venmo are neonstahli, links included. I thank you to bits for any help or reblogs. Please be safe and well today, I love you guys even if you don't know me.

Almost dying puts a lot of perspective on life and all I want to do now is live.