After a long day of work and a series of one-on-one with my manager, was finally able to get a good drink before heading home. All I can recall today is that she said I fly most of the times - like a kid who wanders everywhere and her, being my mom, has to drag me back to the right track. I was asking myself when was these times actually - but to her, it’s during my seasons of working from home yet in my head, I feel like this is because I lost him just recently and no way to reconcile of what really went wrong. Anyway, will I really be able to stand up to her expectations? I know for myself that “exceeds” scoring is impossible in my status now not because of what I can do but what damage the politics people can do. It’s like no matter how much effort I do, there will always be snipers that will aim to shoot you down - so why bother?
