#scarredxdreamer

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      Adjusting the shades he was wearing Zell would peek out from behind one of the cars in the Garden’s garage. With the toy in his hand Zell would rest his chest against the side of the car Zell would finally take aim with his toy gun and then fired it at the unsuspecting ex-Knight. Just because Zell doesn’t like firearms didn’t mean he didn’t go through training like every other cadet did.

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@scarredxdreamer from here

Eyes of different colors fluttered open when he heard the door open, and he winced. The beating that the men had recently gave him was not fun, and all he wanted to do was go home. He shook violently, preparing for another beating.

‘Rest, Sol. For fuck’s sake, Seifer and Squall are probably tearing the world apart looking for you.’

His SeeD uniform was torn in different places, and his mother’s wedding ring was visible on a chain around his neck. It glinted in the moonlight, seeming to beckon attention.

Words, jumbled to him from not only the beating but the drugs that they slipped into his system. Someone was speaking to him, but he couldn’t understand what they were saying. 

But he knew that voice. That cocky, arrogant yet suave voice that could only be Seifer.

“S-seifer??? Izzat you?”

His words were slurred, tired even. But Sol prayed with all his might to Hyne that this wasn’t a dream.

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@scarredxdreamer Continued from || X

      “Apparently they also somehow use their tails so they land on their feet too.” Lowering the book there was a curious look in his eye. “Just why do you like cats anyway?”

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      “It’ll be fiiiine, I promise,” Zell proclaimed as he walked down the hall with Seifer within Garden. Most of the morning had come and passed like any other day, but the closer noon came the more Zell seemed acute on hanging around the ex-Knight. When it was finally time for lunch he had made the suggestion of eating outside of the dorm room for once. It had been a while since the last time Zell had attempted to drag the other blond out where a lot of cadets could be lingering about.

      “I promise I made sure they would be in class right now, so we shouldn’t be bothered.” Zell hummed as he entered the cafeteria. The line was short as he expect it to be. But while Zell was planning on dodging the cadets that didn’t mean he had gone out of his way to run into other people.

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      He had been spending a lot of his free time between taking care of the kitten and his handheld game. And now gleefully Zell smiled. He didn’t always share with Seifer what games he played unless asked. But this time he couldn’t help but hold it up to him.

      “Loook,” he plead holding the gizmo up to the ex-Knight. “It’s a Scyther, I named it Seifer. Isn’t it cool looking?”

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An alternate surprise

Usually when someone new showed up in Radiant it wasn’t something quiet, it would be a whisper of new faces and then every one would know. Leon ended up being one of the first to know unless he was working like he’d been working today, having been up on the roof of a new build he wouldn’t get the news until the end of the day when he was packing up for the night.

He would head up to the welcome center that Aerith and the others had set up for strays just starting off, often some were injured and from the sounds of it the trio was rather banged up as well. Leaving his work bag in the front entrance Aerith would send him up to see them in the medical room.

What waited him inside was a shock though...

“Seifer....Fujin...Rai...”he breathed at the sight.

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Late Night Thoughts

      How long had he been laying in bed? It wasn’t uncommon for Seifer to take longer to fall asleep, but for Zell? It was easy to feel the breath from the ex-Knight on his neck as Zell laid there. Tonight he was laying on his side with Seifer holding him as he normally would. It never bothered Zell. In its own way it was comforting to feel someone curled around him, holding him just for the sake of wanting to be close to him.       This evening felt different. Tonight sleep was evading him. Zell wasn’t sure why, and it bothered him. He had to be careful when he slowly sat up. Peeling himself away from Seifer. While he was a heavier sleeper than Zell it wasn’t like he was dead to the world.       Sitting there Zell wasn’t sure what he was feeling. Blah? Unhappy? No, he wasn’t unhappy. Leaning his elbow on his leg Zell rested his head on his hand. It had been weeks since their meltdown and yet Zell couldn’t shake the feeling. All they wanted was to be happy and happy together. He wasn’t sure if they were too stubborn or maybe they both were stupid. It was on his mind even if he didn’t dare to voice it. It felt if he opened his mouth and said it out loud that somehow it would then become real.        Turning his head a little Zell would look down at his boyfriend. What were they doing? What was he doing?        Am I being cruel? He thought bitterly. There wasn’t a doubt in his mind on how he felt for Seifer.       With a hand he gently touched the other’s hair. Running his fingers through it Zell couldn’t help but make a sad smile. “I’m so stupid,” he mumbled. “All I want is for us to be happy. Never to have to worry about people. Just you and me.” His heart ached at the sentiment. In the end Zell knew that was a wayward daydream that they most likely weren’t ever going to get. The world was too angry.       Overcome with emotion his face started to feel wet. “Shit,” he hissed quietly. Pulling his hand away quickly from Seifer, Zell tried to quiet himself while wiping his face. “Shit..” he mumbled as he continued to paw at his face before just putting his head in his hands. When he felt like he was going to start crying the brawler would pitch his nose and hold his breath. His lungs burned as he needed air, needed to exhale. But he refused to wake up Seifer. He already felt stupid for getting upset over nothing. When the urge passed Zell would let out his breath slowly. Lowering his hands Zell would look down at them now feeling at a loss what to do. He felt like a ship lost on the ocean. It didn’t help that the room was quiet.       Seifer wanted him to be free and out roaming about and “breaking the rules”. But Zell wanted to stay by Seifer and not concern himself with the rest of the world if he could held it.       When he felt like he was stable enough Zell would climb out of the bed and grabbed around in the dark for something. Nabbing his phone Zell sat on the floor. He turned it on, and started typing away on it. He started to list all of the reasons he could think of that made him happy being with Seifer. It was easy enough to fill up the screen. Even if some of them seemed like dumb reasons. In spite the cons list was far shorter there was one line that stuck out to him.                     Could be killed to spite Sei.       The line sent a shiver down his spine as his emotions started to wash over him like icy cold water from the bottom of the sea. The quiet in the room didn’t help as his eyes fixated on the tiny screen. He bit his lip as he clenched his eyes shut. For as badly as he wanted to throw his phone Zell sat it aside. Unsure of being able to keep quiet still he curled up on himself to try to at least muffle himself against his legs.

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