#scattered.asks

[charmingexe]

What are your thoughts on rain?

I love rain!! I had a dream where i kissed my gf in the rain once bc im useless

Ask me stuff??

[charmingexe]

@ that anon: you're absolutely disgusting, and you have NO RIGHT to go around and ask this to lesbians!!! it's an absolute defilation of privacy, and it's completely wrong to ask this to someone, especially because it can be triggering and simply due to the fact that YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS KNWOING THAT INFORMATION!!!! please kindly f*** off, don't talk to my friend or ask that again because i'll directly fight you.

I would die for this girl ugh..........love her. if u need any of my organs hmu ruby !

[charmingexe]

Jfkfkfkfofk I'm special I have a tag oml- anyway, good butch names... hmm... the first one I thought of was Korra. Help me. Anyway, uhh do u have like an aesthetic specifically? The more vivid the better, or u can always look up baby names lol

im in bed rn kjhgfd im so tired

today was rough

anyway uhhhhhhhhh idk uf i do have an aesthetic for it really???.. i dont even know if i’ll go with a new name honestly im just thinkin........i’ve always liked sam or jay tbh

if i was named sam or alex or more androgynous id be happy but i have a girly name 

[charmingexe]

The "gold star" in "gold star lesbian" has always in my mind been one of those shiny little foil stickers dripping, in sarcasm. Oh, your life experience happens to involve knowing who you are and who you like early enough that you never tried to force relationships with men, and, you've not been the victim of any abuse that forced you into sexual relationships with men? Here, have a gold star sticker, it's completely worthless and your attachment to it is telling and embarrassing. Ugh.

part 2: tl; dr on the last ask: Lucking into a life where compulsory heterosexuality was easy, easier, or possible to avoid is not an accomplishment. Being the victim of compulsory heterosexuality, internalised homophobia and internalised misogyny is not a personal or moral failing. Fuck this “gold star lesbian” absolute horseshit

part 3: And uuh postscript on the last two asks, I’m so sorry you’ve had to experience what you have and even more sorry and completely furious that you have to deal with people acting like there’s some award you aren’t eligible for due to your being the victim of some societal bullshit. You’re amazing and I haven’t been following you long but seriously, you don’t deserve that shit. 🖤 

Thank you anon.  If I’m frank, my relationships with men really messed with me after the fact. I dated men who only wanted my body and at the time, i thought i enjoyed it.  Shortly after i realized how used i was, and it affects me in quite a bit of areas.  I still struggle being open and honest about my sexual needs and what i want generally. My girlfriend has been very patient with me and slowly im becoming more confident in my body and self. 

I feel disgusted with myself that i hastily gave my body away to a man who didnt care about me. I honestly wish i hadn’t. 

But thats behind me. Even if im still recovering from my past, thats not me and im not around those people. I’m with an amazing, cute as a button girl whoi honestly owe a lot to. She’s my everything and i’d do absolutely anything for her. So uhhhhhhhh diana if you read this, i love you. You’ve helped me so much and i hope one day i can help you the same way.

[charmingexe]

me impersonating you is just: i lOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!! MY WIFE!!! MUST PROTECC MY WIFE WITH THESE STRONG BUTCH HANDS!!! SO MUCH LOVE!!! AM BABEY!!!!!

IM CRYING BRO HGFDS YOU’RE RIGHT

[charmingexe]

for the anxiety medication question, i’d suggest talking to a psychologist about it first! they can prescribe you medication and then you’ll be able to get some from the chemist once you get the script filled. i’m not sure if there’s another way aside from an assessment like that though, so good luck! i’m sure if you explain what’s going on and what you want to do about it, the psychologist will understand and start you on meds~

Thank you Ruby! I had a feeling that was the general process, but I wasn’t sure if I should talk to a doctor first or get a assessment from a psychologist regarding my anxiety first. This really helps!

[charmingexe]

25 and 26 for the ask ☺️

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

On some hoodies and shirts, maybe shoes????? I dont get clothes often

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

im taking it to @die-an-ah‘s college so i can kiss her and hug her and be with the person who makes my world a  happier place

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