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[theshitpostcalligrapher]

www dot clownpenis dot fart (except written as an actual web address, I just didn't want the ask to get deleted)

u got it 

Askbox is currently closed as I work my way through these older asks

[thebibliosphere]

Does UPF clothing help with the polymorphous light eruptions? My friend deals with them, and normal clothing doesn't help. I've been wanting to get her a Coolibar sweater or shawl as a gift, but I don't want to spend the money if it's not effective.

It works well for me. I have a couple of UPF shirts and it really helped me a lot last year when I had to go outside and needed to cover up. Eddie Bauer also has some UPF stuff too, and the prices are not too bad compared to other things I’ve seen on the market!

[actuallyadhd]

SS (a day late): I'm having trouble with the emotional toll being so clumsy has on me. I'm constantly dropping things, running into things, knocking things over, etc. It either makes me super angry or makes me meltdown and cry.

Late Support Sunday submission. Please help as best you can, everyone!

-J

[actuallyadhd]

Adhd awareness month

I was diagnosed with adhd-pi in May this year. I was 22, now I’m 23. When I was a kid, I daydreamed constantly. I could stare at a wall for hours and be entertained. I also read for hours a day, made possible by the fact that I was home schooled from 7-14 years old. When I was 13, I started watching educational videos to prepare for high school and constantly had to rewind them because I would space out so much. I was really worried about doing this in a real school setting, but I actually did really well in high school. I even went to the math and science school in my state and graduated as one of the best students in math.

It was at this school, when I was 17, that a psychiatrist suggested I had ADD. I found it hard to believe, because my boyfriend and his mom have it and my symptoms were completely different. I’m very organized, never late for anything, and have a really good memory for numbers and facts, which neither of them did. His mom even told me that I couldn’t have adhd because I’m good at academics and am really good at this card game his family plays that requires being able to focus and multi-task. In hindsight, those are both dumb reasons to say someone can’t have adhd.

In college, I majored in biological engineering. I struggled with classes because of anxiety, depression, and panic disorder, but not really inattention. It wasn’t until my junior and senior years that executive dysfunction started making life difficult. I got 3 C’s those two years because of it. My senior year another psychiatrist suggested adhd when I told him how much I space out. I dismissed his concerns because it wasn’t impacting my life much.

My senior year, I tried to complete a senior thesis, while also doing undergraduate research, doing a senior design project, and being vice president of a gender inclusive honor fraternity. I was constantly exhausted and getting sick from the stress. I took on way too much work and had a breakdown at 4 in the morning the day I was supposed to defend my thesis because I put off too much of the work and couldn’t finish. I had to email everyone on my committee and tell them I failed and couldn’t defend. In spite of this, my research professor offered me a graduate assistantship in biomedical engineering.

In my first year of my MS degree, executive dysfunction once again came to bite me in the butt. The projects in graduate level classes are way more intense than undergrad. I started realizing how difficult such projects are for me to complete. I get so overwhelmed by all the work, figuring out the steps, etc., that I can’t even start them. I get too scared and it feels painful to try to work on them.

My second semester is when I finally decided to get assessed for adhd (and ASD). I got a C in my hardest class, putting me on probation. My university has a developmental disabilities clinic with a sliding scale for payment so I went there. I took a few measures, and had about 4 hours worth of interviewing. I was diagnosed with inattentive subtype (I couldn’t remember enough of my childhood for an ASD diagnosis). I started taking Vyvanse this past summer and now life is so much easier. I still struggle with executive dysfunction, but it doesn’t take me a week to write a paragraph anymore. And my advisor also has adhd so he’s very understanding of the kind of help I need. I’m in my second year of grad school and I actually finished my first paper for publication, and was only three days late for my personal deadline. Focusing on my research doesn’t feel painful anymore. I wish I’d gotten diagnosed sooner to save myself all the suffering, but at least I have now.