[04.07.2018] Talking about mom...
Around 2:00 p.m., I left the house to stay in the outdoor area for a bit and breathe a lot of fresh air. I hugged my legs and wondered what had happened to Mommy being so far today. When I woke up, I told her that I'd left Noah alone for a few minutes just to go to the convenience store, and she did not react the way I'd expected. She just smiled, hugged me, and entered her room. If I know my mother well, she would not do it if she was wrong. Now here stuck in my thoughts I hear my aunt's low, worried voice.
- Lya? - She looked at me a little worried and I looked back at her, even more worried. What's the bad news? She then sat next to me and began to talk to me about when Mom had come to her house to talk, and ended up sleeping right there.
- What happened? - I asked, hoping that the answer would be good and that my concern was only in my head, but no ... - Your mother is going through a difficult time, Alya, and I need you to take care of her. I'll have to travel to work, and I'll leave one of my dogs with you ... - she said.
- But aunt ... I'm not going to handle it myself, why do not you call someone to help me? My uncle, where are you? - I ask. She immediately lowered her head and avoided looking at me for a few seconds, but then she looked up at me.
- The dog I'll leave is your mother's favorite. I know it makes you a little more excited, so I want you to stay with him. she said, and I was about to interrupt her as she continued. Your uncle is far away. And he can not come running, because I think it's impossible for him to come down from heaven to come. At the same time I swallowed. Dumbass! Like I forget that detail. Oh gosh!
- For God's sake ... I'm sorry, Auntie, I really had forgotten ... It's been so long ... - I said, trying to be strong about that.
She kept staring at me for a long time. And I just avoided looking at her, knowing that I had foolishly recalled that my uncle was no longer here with us. You just shit, Alya!
- I know it's hard for you too, but you have to be strong to take care of your mother, just as I told her that I would have to be strong to take care of you and Noah. The separation together with a divorce thus leaves sorrows, especially for his mother who still love his father ... - I continued to look to the side. - But, Auntie, I can not ... How am I going to take care of her and me at the same time? Have you ever stopped to think about it? - She looked at me and looked a little angry that I had changed my voice.
- Alya. You've always been a strong girl. Stop saying you will not get it! All I need now is for you to suffer too. Seeing your mother suffer does not hurt you? - Of course it hurts, but ... - But nothing. Do your best not to let her down because it will also affect you. I know she cares a lot about her mother to the point of taking her pains, but do not take it.
- But ... - No "but". I'll make dinner, then come and eat. - she got up so depressed and I just had time to think that if this was what she wanted, that I would help, I would start with it. - Aunt! Wait! - I exclaimed, holding his arm.
- What is it, Lya? - he asked, looking at me. I got up off the couch and smiled, trying to disguise, and then we walked together inside. I looked down again, feeling that much would come ...