School Flashbacks
I recently came across my old classmates xanga, and I realised how miserable I was during my secondary school years in Hong Kong. As I was reading the blog, my heart sank. I can’t understand how it was still affecting me after all these years.
I even started texting my friends asking what they thought about me and if they actually thought I was funny. I went into a spiral, having doubts about myself all over again. And honestly, being in this city is not helping. People don’t try to bring you up, they “try” to be honest and basically just tell you what you lack instead of focusing on what you have.
I think I understand why those girls were so mean to me during the time. I guess they were also trying to beat their insecurities and they try doing this by dragging others down with them. I guess I found solace in knowing I turned out alright and that I am doing better than most of my peers. At Least I am happy about what I achieved.
I guess after all, I did have a “mean girl” high school experience, just that it wasnt actually high school, it was the time I was in Hong Kong.
