An update. Sort of.
So first of all, I’m just going to throw it out here without further hesitation.
I have kidney stones.
And I am going to go for surgery to remove them this Friday.
So I’ve vaguely noticed some people were wondering where have I disappeared to, how long I’ve been inactive and yadda.
Frankly, around the end of the year just hasn’t been going well with me.
I had a lot of break downs, conflicts with decisions I regretted making, friends I’ve pretty much lost (again. But who gives a fuck anymore). And many more drama.
Which is why I honestly have been avoiding tumblr because of all this emotional turmoil and shits going on. I just don’t want to mix my drama and self-pity too much here. Cause then I’ll worry about what people think, about what I think, this that this that and yes, I’m becoming an unfortunately passive person, perhaps a bit more passive-aggressive.
So…I guess…try to bear with me a little if you wish to still stick around. I am not giving up on tumblr but I really do want a break. Theres a lot in tumblr I feel I need to make plenty amends, plenty of changes, and make plenty of peace with; which are all a little difficult for me right now. Dramatic, I know. But I won’t pretend I didn’t feel shitty lately, and I won’t lie about my feelings.
I’ve met plenty of wonderful people, and some I’ve befriended, some are great people I met through tumblr that sometimes given me rays of hope to still be sociably comfortable in tumblr. I feel heavy-hearted to just come and go like this so much but I’m glad some understand and are perceptive. I wish whole hearted plenty of thanks to them.
I hope again there are some who will understand the feelings put in this post and I’m sorry to sound depressing. Although I am but I’ll…pull through somehow.
Again also, regarding followers *bows deeply* Thank you to those who remain, I’m sorry to those who left.
I have plans for this blog and other subblogs but that’ll really have to wait.
Anddd..I still play otome. Lol.
I hope the updated navigations will be easier for people to check around the blog and its features. I won’t be taking any requests as of now.
Other than that, if any wish to message me, I’m still reachable on tumblr. Outside of tumblr? Just message me on tumblr first if you wish to talk to me outside of tumblr too.
Alright, hope that’s all settled. My kidney is in pain BLEHHHH so I’m gonna do what I have been usually doing….sleep XD
See ya guys!
Much love.