I’m literally so late to the party because work hates me and wants to take all the good things from my life, but thankfully I only have two more shifts and I’m free. Anywaysssss I’m sure none of you care about my work struggles so let’s start with the intro shall we? I’m Sav, just your average drag, rick and morty, and conspiracy theory obsessed 20 year old. I live in the EST timezone but my insomnia keeps me woke so do timezones even exist for me anymore ??? Alright enough about my messy ass let’s move onto Arden, my little mess doing her best to keep it together
{ tw: OCD, trichotillomania, calorie counting and disordered body image, idk other body things having to do with her compulsions, toxic relationship}
ok so let’s start at the beginning shall we? Her mother is from Brighton but moved to Norway when she was in her early twenties and fell in love, you know how it goes, and had two beautiful babies. First was arden and two years later alexander, her little brother was born.
They lived in Bergen, Norway until she was 13 and her parents got divorced. It wasn’t like super messy, but her mom doesn’t even talk to her dad except for a few exceptions so if that’s any hint to how things ended. Honestly they would fight all the time and life got a lot quieter and more pleasant once they left.
Arden and her brother moved with their mom to Brighton to live with her sister till they figured things out and they all loved Brighton so much they stayed. Honestly Arden sees herself staying here forever.
Her mom was very consistent with teaching her kids both english and Norwegian so she’s super bilingual and if she’s intoxicated or super emotional she’ll probably switch between the two and the Norwegian tones in her accent become more noticeable.
Despite being a very outgoing and effervescent child, the older she got the light inside her started to dim. It was slow and unnoticeable for a while and then everything went down hill at once.
It started being noticeable when she developed trichotillomania, that was a side effect of her long term anxiety that was hard to hide. She was 13 when that started and despite going to a phycologist they didn’t leave with a diagnosis more than just generalized anxiety, not wanting to just jump to something more serious.
After a health class during year ten things got a . Girls in class would talk about skin care and acne and the oil build up on your skin and dirt filling her pores and suddenly all she could feel was the oil and clogged pores. and cue the extreme skin care, often leading to excessive exfoliation daily, even multiple times on bad days, often leaving her face red and raw and it was quite painful. It even left her with some scaring.
The second thing to come from this class was a lesson on calorie intake and how much you should have daily to be healthy for your body type. She became consumed with the need to hit that exact number everyday, afraid if she didn’t she’d suddenly change body types and would have to deal with all the supposed health issues they discussed in class. She would spend hours calculating and memorizing calories and planning out everything she’d eat to not be over or under that number.
The combination of these two new changes she went back to the doctor and was diagnosed with OCD and thus began a long journey of therapy and meds to try and get things under control. Over that time she still developed more obsessions and compulsions but tbh I haven’t decided on what those are yet. And it wasn’t till she was 19 that things got so bad it lead her to spending a couple months in an inpatient program and it honestly saved her life.
When she got home that old light became noticeable again. It was like welcoming back a friend you hadn’t seen in years because she was so far from who she really is for years. Things were noticeably better when she got back but still most days there were struggles and although the bad days are less frequent still nothing is completely easy.
She still has a strict skin care routine but it’s no longer harming her and although she is still conscious of what she eats she doesn’t keep track of numbers and most days she doesn’t feel guilty for giving her body what she needs even when it’s more than a calculation said she did.
Ok moving on from that heaviness, Arden works at page turners books and honestly she just loves literature and just words in general. like she will geek out over the beauty of words. She’d love to be an english teacher one day and is currently saving up for school now that she feels like she’s in a solid place emotionally to go back to school.
She can read five languages so that’s hella cool and honestly she just has a wealth of random knowlege
She’s also an aesthetic hoe like she does it for the gram, she’ll go out of her way to do things that make her feel like she’s in a movie and she’ll spend pointless money on things just because she has built up her own personal aesthetic and needs to stick to it because it makes her feel good you feel.
She’s lowkey jealous of the workers at neon night club because she thinks their job looks so fun and somedays she wants to be the type of person that works at cool night clubs, but honestly she can’t even be there for more than an hour or two because it’s just so over stimulating, that damn anxiety.
Oh and to make her time in highschool even worse she was in a two year toxic and manipulative relationship like it was real fucked up and honestly despite it all she’s still lowkey in love with him because that’s just how things are with those types of relationships.
Since then she hasn’t dated or really even wanted to. I mean she’s had crushes but never really pursued them, afraid history would repeat itself. Also being physically intimate with other people is really hard for her.
She has this super independent complex, a mix of not wanting to burden people and also not wanting to ever feel like can’t handle things on her own. She’s super stubborn guys, but she’s really trying to work on letting people in, but it’s hard you feel.
Over all she’s an a strong independent aesthetic hoe that is just doing her best to be her best everyday.
tbh I’m probably missing so much but hey it’s 2:15 in the am and like I’m just impressed I was able to write a real intro so go me. Anyways let’s plot please !!!
