@seamstrxssed (because we discussed this a couple times and i finally can put words together for Shiloh)
“On one hand, this whole collab thing is exciting. An opportunity I wanted and wished for, not quite thinking it was prayer worthy, but still really wanted.”
“But on the other this isn’t what I wanted when I started out. I wanted to share how I modified my own things to accommodate and a single mom reached out saying she didn’t know how to sew but her little boy needed shirts. I couldn’t just abandon a child. So I told her to send the shirts to me she needed fixed, and pictures of how to measure and she was so precise I didn’t have a problem at all. Then she sent me photos saying he loved them, that he’d never had a shirt that fit him and good Lord did I know how that felt to finally have something fit your body the way you really needed it to.”
Shiloh was pacing as she talked, a careful path around her mannequin that she’d drawn on the back of to replicate the placement and measure of her own wings. There was some fabric pinned to it, but nothing really note-worthy about the material.
"So I agreed to take a couple commissions, and there’s just so many.” There were definitely a lot, though most of them were almost done just in need of finishing touches or last checks on stitchwork before being packed up and sent off. “It feels like it’d be wrong to close the commissions for a while, but I’m starting to feel like I’m drowning in work. The videos, the sewing, and I haven’t even gotten the time to do my own shirts lately but that’s fine. I’d rather focus on my commissions cause some of them are time-sensitive and I am just so tired.”
Did Hli ask for this venting? No, was Shiloh doing it anyway? Yeah. She wasn’t expecting anything but an open ear, and she knew Hli knew Shiloh wasn’t looking for a solution at the moment. “I should close commissions a while, catch up on my own stuff, but where else are they going to go? Why is it so hard to prioritize myself when I know there’s people that need this?” That was the real question.











