Night Tremors
Fear
I never experienced night tremors until I was diagnosed with cancer. I am analytic by nature so I have a tendency to think too much. When I try to sleep, which is very important for the process of healing, my mind doesn’t shut down. Because once diagnosed with cancer all you can think about is your own death. Nightmares are justified. Cancer has the ability to make you very weak. I remember after my third treatment, I spent nearly three days in bed. I had horrible leg pain, so it was difficult to lay comfortably. My dreams were filled with strange dark visions. Some I could remember, others left me depressed and quiet. I am still amazed how the brain processes trauma, but even more amazed how the subconscious interrupts your experiences and enhances them into nightmares. I remember many nights waking up terrified. I was falling deeper and deeper into a darker place.
