a/n: i woke up at 5:30 am to give y’all a self-aware yandere idv au. i’ve seen it for genshin and even twisted wonderland, but not really idv (let alone for milgram)??? anyway have reader being fucking creeped out writing this during morning rank <3 brain rot is strong today. i adore eli, but he ended up being the main perpetrator of being absolutely terrifying im sorry. anyway might do a part 2 if it's well liked enough!!
rating: sfw
reader: gender neutral, no pronouns used
trigger and content warnings: yandere, not beta read, unhealthy + toxic behaviours/relationships, mentions of nausea/food, anxiety, eli is super scary in a self aware au im sorry, self aware characters, implied stalking (sort of?)
you first noticed it during a practice bot match. you hadn’t been lucky enough to pull the “little girl” from her essence, so you ended up grinding for clues and fragments- thanks, poor impulse control- and wanting to test her out. after a couple hours, the character and her b-tier were yours. in the practice match, the server bot lineup was simple- seer, coord, and merc. you didn’t know what the hunter bot was, not yet. you hoped it was a hell ember, if only for the fact that hell ember bots felt easier to kite than others. the map ended up being the asylum, which was… good and bad. at least you were navigating it as a survivor and not a hunter.
you end up teleporting to merc first, in the game, and sync with him. he had the biggest decoding debuff, and any rescuer could use her buffs the little girl gave. while you waited for calibrations to pop up, you were spraying graffiti. there wasn’t much else to do, so you were just messing around at this point. what gave you an unsettled feeling in your stomach was that the merc bot… sprayed back.
surely your eyes- they had to be playing tricks on you, right? you blinked for a second, and then the deduction star merc graffiti was gone. you didn’t even notice you had been holding your breath until you exhaled with relief- and missed a calibration. you winced and mumbled an apology to the bot, decided to just swivel the camera angle and focus on your surroundings.
the rest of the match went pretty smoothly- until detention kicked in, that is. merc ended up knocked down, and you thought you were done for. that is, if it weren’t for the eli bot’s perfectly timed owl. it made you swallow nervously. you’d stopped playing for a while, with your phone out of commission, but it had been less than a week. last you checked, seer bots seldom owled after the first kite- let alone well. it just.. made you feel unwell.
everyone managed to get out fine, though. you sighed in relief, seeing that you had gotten a message after the practice round.
Eli||Clark.: Good morning. How are you?
[username]: uhh
[username]: hi
[username]: im ok ig
[username]: sorry if this is rude, but who are you?
Eli||Clark: I’m hurt, [name].
okay, that made you want to upchuck whatever was in your stomach- water, coffee, and a bagel- and turn off the game.
[username]: not funny, whoever you are. bye.
and with that, you tried to block whoever this.. weird eli main was. no one you knew in real life played idv, let alone maining eli while they were at it. you found it easier said than done, however. since the block button was gone, evidently. that only made your growing unease (and nausea) worse. you were starting to shake a little bit, and you decided it was enough idv for the day.
you couldn’t close it. you couldn’t close it, and at this point whatever little was left of your rationality was lost by the fact that you couldn’t close it, hot tears welling in your eyes as you saw yet another message pop on the screen.
Eli||Clark: Stop avoiding me, please. All I want to do is talk.
outside the complete and utter dread and horror consuming your brain, you managed one small, bitter thought.
bullshit.
HOLY SHIT FINALLY ANOTHER IDV SELF AWARE POST OH LORD IVE BEEN SEARCHING SO HARD SJSHSKAKSGJS THANK YOU
:) !!!! I’ve had the itch to write self aware content for a while regarding idv! so here’s some notes on it
only Eli can directly message you
everyone else has to utilize team/pre+post match chats
sometimes you will log in and eli is just chilling in your lobby and like. he chats with you a little bit. he can hear you from inside the game (idk exactly how it works) so you don’t really need to use the chat to answer
unfortunately, as easygoing as eli is, he is just… absolutely creepy about it
like. the worst.
at least he’s better than Norton, who also likes to just… show up in your lobby. and stare at your avatar.
you seldom get matches with other people from your world on the survivor’s end! the hunters seem… barely aware of your existence. though not totally unaware.
your worst experiences are likely with aesop. i’d elaborate but i don’t want to.
here’s just some things i can come up with on the fly for the idv self aware au!
