#self vent

[emerintal]

I gained an online crush and i remember all the bad things i did to my irl crushes in the past that made them reasonably hate me.

Because having a crush in the past i was obsessive over them and thought thinking about them everyday was normal but turns out that wasnt true.

This might be the first crush i have as an adult at 21,because the times i thought i did have a crush it was something else.

I love how they make me laugh and giggle reading their texts but the thought of getting too obsessive again and going through another limerence stage scares the shit out of me.

[countess-mimikyu]

Through my own actions I ended up throwing 3 years of my life away in the span of 2 weeks. I was interconnected with too much and now it’s all gone. I messed up and… well

Guess a man like me can only expect failure at every opportunity…

[vanibamh]

I get up everyday fighting against a swarm only to fall by the budge of a fly

I eat every meal as if I were enjoying it only to throw it all up

I breathe with the weight of stones

I walk with the body of corpse ready to be buried

I speak like a lone bird in a cage

I am a bird who despairs in her solitude but refuses to leave the comfort of her cage.

[moon-sindex]

I keep wanting to get my shit together, yet keep freezing up or making same mistakes when I just wanna improve. Definitely need a new job that has actual benefits. Need to improve communicating, and moving somewhere else would be great, but not in immediate future sadly. I am seeing a therapist and I have learned some things from them, still have some days feeling down, but could be worse.

[countess-mimikyu]

I sometimes wonder if my friends pity me,,,, if I’m only friends with people because it’s too risky to upset me.

Maybe I’m just a whimp.

[callmegkiddo]

I drank pills.... Like 5 in a row, so that I can finally sleep.

I feel like. asack of tired potatoes now.

-g

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[timelessparallels]

I feel so empty and I dare say dead inside

I'm trying to mask it, but it just isn't working

I just wish I was happy again

[worrywrite]

I want to write... But I can't bring myself to do it because it feels too self indulgent. If it was just for me, fine. I could write that. But I don't want to write a story just for me. I want to write something for someone else, but I can't do it because I don't know what it's about. I don't know what that person needs to hear.