#self.exe

[404vanthe]

I don’t know who needs to hear this but…

Your F/O won’t care if you can’t force yourself out of bed, they’ll stay with you tonight.

Your F/O doesn’t care that you haven’t showered in a few days or haven’t brushed your teeth, they still want to kiss you.

Your F/O doesn’t care that you’re not ‘presentable’, to them you’re still the stars and the moon.

Your F/O doesn’t care that you’re bed rotting, your messy hair/baggy eyes are still the thing they want to see.

Your F/O still thinks you’re hot, perfect and desirable no matter what state you’re in.

↻ honestly this was mainly made for me, I was the one who needed to hear it. But I hope it helps someone else too.

[nikunikunika]

new self ship art with mr goblin king himself sometimes ya just gotta draw out your escapist fantasies :•)

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[apothheosis]

tagged by @thelongestaugust thank u 🥺🥺🥺

Rules: Answer 20 questions and then tag 20 people you want to get to know better.

Nickname: fangs??

Zodiac: leo!!

Height: 165cm, 5’5

Last movie i saw: i think? it was the suicide squad, either that or one of the resident evil movies cuz i’ve been randomly watching them and i have no linear memory lmao what is time

Last thing i googled: ‘vampire the masquerade wiki’ bc i’m planning on running a vtm game :3

Favorite musician: currently it’s absolutely hands down laura jane grace and trent reznor

Song stuck in my head: heaven is a place on earth bc my sister kept singing it in the car to torture me

Other blogs: i’ve got a videogame sideblog i forget to use and a goth aesthetic blog that i never log into lmao

Blogs following: I follow like idk almost 1k blogs??? its like a stupidly high amount

Amount of sleep: now that i’m on meds i tend to sleep 8-10 hours depending on the day, 12 if it’s my day off from work

What am i wearing: sports bra and boxers uwu i need to shower

Dream job: making handmade thingies for fun and pleasure and selling them to cool people (abolish capitalism). realistically tho lmAO I HAVE NO IDEA IVE BEEN PANICKING ABT THIS SO HARD

Dream trip: man i just wanna go back to brasil and see my friends and family

Favorite food: deep fried sushi

Play an instrument: kinda! i’m learning to play guitar, i can play like 3 songs rn

Languages: English, Portuguese and a little Spanish

Favorite song: Rev 22:20 by Puscifer

Random fact: i just got a tattoo of a clown and my sister named her coraline 🥰 also i own a prayer candle of trent reznor

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: too-loud guitar music, amp crackling, scuff marks from boots, stickers everywhere, iced coffee in the winter time…… (did i do this right)

ok idk 20 ppl but i’ll tag @robobee @minitoads @covvboyy @juliaspiegel @ashesredux @chattycanine @forestbeast

[axisii]

THERE’S A TIME FOR A SCALPEL AND A TIME FOR A HAMMER. IT’S HAMMER TIME.

[404vanthe]

Screw cringe culture.

Use those Xenogenders

Love your f/o’s

Dress goth, emo, scene, ect

Read those “cringy” books

Write fanfics

Dress colorful and full of whimsy

Rant about your special interest

Use those labels that people don’t understand

Be you and be proud

↻ I love you platonically <3

[404vanthe]

The phrases “your dad would have been so disappointed in you” and “fatherless behavior” are some I’ve heard quite a bit after coming out, not only online but from old friends and even family. I recently found his old rap CD from 2005 and was really amused to hear him act all tough and mean but that’s not the point, the point is in one of the songs he word for word says “Kissed a guy, watched him die.” And I was so surprised by that and all I could do was laugh, laugh because I remembered who my father was, the supportive, kind, and loving man who I know would have stood by me if he was still around. He was such a good man and I can’t believe I almost let people make me forget that.

I love you dad, you’re the reason I can love myself.

[404vanthe]

This body greatly displeases me. Couldn’t even give me the pleasure of being born male. Now I have to experience human puberty twice and acne is horrendous. I miss my fluid body, I miss my home.

[404vanthe]

Coming to terms with the fact I’m a Godkin was… interesting, it made sense but a part of me never really wanted to admit it. But with help of my friends I was able to love the part of me that’s always been there. So I wanted to formally introduce myself to other Godkin as well as deitykin, Angelkin and likewise.

Hello! I’m Vanthe, or more accurately Vanthe the eternal mourner. I’m a death god! And funnily enough a god who prefers to not be worshiped. It’s nice to meet all of you! I’m hoping to make the most of this system of nerves I’ve been given and have fun while doing it. If you have any questions I’m happy to answer!

I don’t remember anything from my past life as of now, it’s just something I’ve always known, something that has always been there.