Peter looked about the waiting room. His fists were bound tightly in a ball as he tapped his feet. The room was completely empty – he insisted it to be that way, otherwise he wouldn’t show up. He being ashamed was the understatement of the century. He’d always had a somewhat short fuse, but he was usually able to brush it under the rug and get over it within an hour or so unless someone had really annoyed him for usually good reasons. Ever since his mother went in the hospital, and particularly a month or so Joseph entered his life, the ability to control it had flew out the window, and he would often lose it without being able to control what he was doing or saying. Another thing that he was constantly aware of was the fact that he was no longer a boy – even recently his muscle mass had increased, and he was afraid he would hurt someone. It was because of these reasons that he picked up smoking – the even slight high that he got from the very first drag tended to cause the feeling to drift – even if he lied to everyone regarding it by saying it was because he was ‘curious’ or ‘bored’. Peter’s fists clenched even tighter, and he watched his knuckles turn white.
God, he’d kill to have a cigarette right now.
“Mr DeFranco?” his head whipped around to see the receptionist at her desk as she calmly talked to him, having felt the tension radiating from his body, “Would you like a cup of tea?”
“No…thank you,” Peter said slowly, releasing his clasp on his fingers.
“Ok,” she said softly, “Dr Ryan will be out in a minute for you.” He nodded in response, turning his attention back to the window he was facing.
The main turning point was his mom. He could feel his relationship with her was deteriorating, and he hated the feeling. He remembered the times where just he and his mom would go out for ice cream – he would always get chocolate, she would always get strawberry cheesecake. He even remembered the times where she would have to get him out of trouble that he often found himself in. The times where they were situated across from the principal, who would repeatedly stress how he would not behave in class. Of course, Peter knew why he didn’t behave in class – his way of dealing with not being able to keep up with the rest of the class was to mess about and not pay attention – but he knew now that it wasn’t the best reason in the world. There were a couple of times even outside of school he’d done something that he shouldn’t have done, for example, being on someone else’s property without their permission, or back-talking a small businessman (which he was somewhat renowned of doing). In Peter’s eyes, he was trying to show off in front of his friends, but he knew that his mom didn’t care about his friends or what they thought. Nevertheless he was grateful for his mother – she got him out of any trouble he dug himself into. The last thing he wanted her to think was that he was taking her for granted, which she had stated that she felt he was doing.
“Peter?” he heard a male voice call. He turned, slightly startled from his daydream being interrupted, “I’m Dr Zackary Ryan. Want to follow me?” Peter nodded and stood up, following him into his office.
Dr Ryan’s office was a grey-walled room adorned with children’s drawings and abstract art. It was populated with a desk with a desktop computer with a chair. There was also a separate area of the room with one corner sofa with a coffee table and a TV, which seemingly had an Xbox accompanying it. The furniture popped from the room’s dull, colourless walls; the couch was teal as was the TV stand. The desk had a glossy black finish and the chair was sleek white.
“They wouldn’t let me change the wall colour, so I changed the furniture myself,” the man smirked, seeing Peter observing his surroundings. Dr Ryan gave off the appearance that he was young when he really wasn’t – his straight hair that grew like his father’s was short on the sides and longer on top. His youthful blue eyes were soft, lines surrounding the end of them from excessive smiling. He stood at only around five feet seven or eight, and the clothes he wore were the epitome of smart casual – he had obviously came to work in a suit, but the blazer hung loosely over the back of his chair and his button was undone. His light blue shirt had its sleeves rolled up, revealing his arms, which had its veins poking through. Now, Peter wasn’t attracted to guys, but he wasn’t opposed to admitting when a man was attractive – Zackary Ryan was. His presence oozed easiness and calm, which was exactly what he needed; someone to outshine his overly easy going nature. “Take a seat and get comfortable. And call me Zack.” Peter nodded, sitting at one side of the couches, and the therapist went to get himself a cup of coffee from the coffee machine on his desk. He offered Peter one, but he declined, not being fond of hot drinks other than soups.
“Why won’t they let you change the wall colour?” Peter mustered up while Dr Ryan got himself a coffee, deciding that small talk would be useful.
“Eh, probably something to do with it would increase waiting times because I’d have to share a room for a few days with another doctor while it got painted,” he shrugged simply, lifting up the cup and sipping on it before sitting down and setting it on the coffee table. “Now look, I’m supposed to be formal with you for a bit. I don’t know how you found our centre, but it’s pretty relaxed and is a little different to most – particularly with me. There are times you will get angry. It’s all part of the process. I’ll try to figure out how you’re feeling and why you’re feeling that way, but you need to warn me if you feel like you’re gonna turn violent, ok?” Peter nodded. “And it’s ok to tell me that. It’s ok to feel that way. It’s ok to curse.” Dr Ryan paused for a second. “So, tell me about yourself.”
“What do you mean?” Peter asked, not expecting the question.
“Tell me anything. It doesn’t have to be relevant over why you’re here, just tell me what you feel like telling me.”
“Uh,” he thought, completely caught off guard by the question, “I’m Peter, I live in LA…”
“Want me to give you some ideas to talk about?” Zack suggested, seeing his discomfort. He nodded. “What age are you?”
“19. I turn 20 in October,” he replied.
“Mom, dad, a sister, three brothers and a son,” he shrugged, “Oh, and four dogs. Six if you want to include my mom and dad’s.”
“Full house?” he raised his eyebrow at him, a lopsided smirk appearing on his features, making Peter chuckled slightly.
“Kind of,” he laughed, “My sister and one of my brothers moved out, and I’ve just recently moved out as well.”
“How’d your mom and dad allow you four dogs?” he smiled, noticing him ease up when he used a light hearted approach.
“Barely,” Peter laughed again, “I got one dog from a shelter, and then I found the other three.”
“Wow, you didn’t buy any from a breeder then?” he questioned, getting a head shake in response, “Good man.”
“Yeah,” he nodded, always having a soft spot for rescue animals. Which his mom also needed to put up with, now that he thought about it. The countless animals – particularly dogs – that he had brought home over the years.
“What about your son? What’s he called?”
“Joe…Joseph, even,” he nodded, “He’s 16 months old.”
“You could’ve brought him if you wanted,” he smiled, “We have a bunch of toys.”
“He’s with my mom,” he shrugged, “I’ll remember for next time, though.”
Zackary Ryan nodded and grinned, before sighing, “Well, let’s get over the important stuff shall we? Then we can give Call of Duty a go.”