A Personal Manfers Post.
You don’t have to read it. I just have shit I need to say to the endless expanse of the internet.
I’m quitting school.
Maybe not for good. But at least for a year. College has been extremely difficult for me and it’s taken a big toll on my mental health. I enjoy school. I love the college atmosphere. But I’m not learning anything. I don’t have the drive to keep going. This is not the education I feel I should be pumping thousands of dollars into. It’s not worth it. I’m too tired to keep doing this.
So I’m taking at least a year off to devote to my art. I want to work, develop my portfolio, become a better artist. I want to attend some conventions and meet new people. I want to really go out into the world, or at least what little bit of the world my ‘92 Mazda can take me to.
I want to really learn. Really, truly learn. And I just don’t think I can do it in the classrooms at this school. It’s a great school. Really it is. But it’s not the school for me.
If I return to school, it will hopefully be to a dedicated art school rather than to a general education university with a lackluster art program.
This summer I will be getting my own apartment. I will be completely by myself for the first time in my life. I’m scared, I am scared shitless. I will be half an hour away from most of my friends. My family will be closer, but I don’t get along very well with them.
But while I am scared, I am also extremely excited. As this is finally my opportunity to devote myself 100% to ME. Something I have never in my life done.
I will be moving out of my dorm next Friday and into an apartment around a month later.
Here’s to what will hopefully be the most productive and enriching year of my life.
Cheers.