Another Day of Positivity
I woke up with a positive vibe this morning, although I had a little problem with the stairs I worked on. I was so scared with Dade as he looks so serious this morning and I don’t know how can I explain it properly but as far as I know that I did checking there. It’s just that there are some that it didn’t work really well. Good thing he managed to pull it off quickly.
My project manager is so kind to the point that I am too shy cause I am really having difficulties on my current job. But he is so calm and patient to me and he is just keep on reminding to work as much as I could. I admire him a lot and I will do my best to finish as much as I can.
Dade and I had a long talk an hour before the end of the shift. It was a good time again and we talked about a lot of things from work to personal to social media issues. I went out early and withdraw and buy some groceries and go to Watsons to buy some personal stuff. I spent nearly 4000 today and I was so out of myself whenever I’m buying things lately. I am so impulsive buyer to be honest. I cannot help myself to buy things and I bought a cutics and matte nail polish. I’m still not good in putting on my nails but I am happy with the output.
Anyway, when I got, I just rest and ate dinner. While I am talking a bath I had a thought that good thing Jehan is no longer talking to me and its good cause it gives me so much positive vibe and I am forgetting him really. I can easily divert my thoughts at work and not thinking of him that much. However, after that thought came across in my head, he suddenly sent me a message and I was like, “God!! Lord, are you really testing me?”. I tried to reply a little cold and I tried not to make a good conversation. I’m just answering his questions and he is trying to stressed out his work stress to me and I was just like, ok you can do it and good thing you managed to pull it off. I don’t know what to say to him really. For the first time, he told me that, maybe I am disturbing you already and I said, “No.” and I just told him just to rest and seems like he wanted to talk more yet he is shy to ask for a time. I tried to control my feelings which work a little but I still cared of course. Before replying to him, I am thinking that he will tell me that he likes me too and he is asking if there’s still chance. But, he didn’t and I know it will not happen anyway..
He even ignored my message since Saturday and I feel annoyed cause I never did that to him. I’m not trying to revenge but I am distancing myself to protect my weak heart. And I think, this is the best option for the both of us.
Lastly, I finally paid the down payment of my Apple Watch. So far, this is the most expensive impulsive purchase I did. I have been rooting for it for almost a year already and I finally made a cut. I am so happy. I hope I will be able to get it this weekend.
