The fact that he cares about me so much is just insane - like I don't understand what I did to deserve his love, and all the care he gives me.
And yet he's got the idea that he's too much for me? That he overwhelms me?
There are times that I feel like if he's not around me I'm absolutely losing it. I feel like if I don't know he's still there, that he'll disappear, and I'll never get him back.
Sometimes I need him to overwhelm my senses just so that everything goes quiet, and my head is just filled with thoughts about him. I don't care what method he picks, it's perfect in any form because it's coming from him.
If ANYTHING, I feel like I overwhelm him with my bullshit. The space-out episodes, the nightmares, flashbacks, all of that shit. I feel like I overwhelm him.
Just one of these days, I need him to see himself in the same light that I see him in. I need him to see how I feel about him, how happy he makes me, how he finally makes it all quiet, makes me feel safe.