It’s been a long time since I post Random stuffs about me.
Anyway, I’ve been very busy. Sa sobrang busy ko madami na kong nakalimutan gawin, mga taong natake for granted.char.
I know it’s 2020 na pero gusto ko lang magthrowback sa mga happenings ko in life.
February 2019
My Father’s First Year Anniversary in Heaven.
Same pa din yung feeling, yung sakit, yung pangungulila. Same pa din.
Walang sasakit yung papanuoring mo yung tatay mo na tumigil sa paghinga.
Masakit
Mabigat sa dibdib
Parang binibiyak yung puso.
Pero wala ganun talaga, Kailangan naming siyang iLET GO dahil nahihirapan na siya at mas mahihirapan siya kapag nilaban pa namin siya.
It’s been a year pero parang kailan lang nangyari, But I know masaya na yung tatay ko kung nasaan man siya ngayon.
March 2019
My last Team building with my old Team.
Less time with them since nasa magkaibang panig na kami nagwowork. Different Roles, Different work, Different People.
September 2019
Changes are inevitable kahit gaano mo pa ito iwasan.
Been working with the same Company for almost 6 years and living in Pampanga for more than 6 years as independent woman (LOL. Akala mo naman). Same account different Line of Business. Kaya nakakalungkot na bigla na siyang mawawala. Anyway it happened, I was transferred to a different account (Dahil na din sa maling decision ko). Late ko na narealize na I didn’t make the right decision.
Anyway, mababait naman yung mga tao. But the Work load is different. Bigger task bigger responsibilities which I didn’t expect. Kaya siguro na overwhelmed ako. Mas lalo akong nabusy.
First month, Petiks at chill since training.
Second month, chill pa din naman pero ramdam mo na yung pressure.
Third month, I’m exhausted, madaming workload yes,but I’m exhausted because maraming bagong Work load na bingay saken at randam ko ang pressure. Self-training, Self-learning. Nakakabobo sa part ko lalo nakapag may hindi ako magets. Ang Advantage lang kasi matututo ka talaga.
I tried, but maybe I’m not ready yet. I’m such a disappointment!
December 2019
I spent my whole Holidays at work and alone in our apartment except on the 1st of Jan.
Been spending Christmas at Work for 6 years. But this year was the saddest.
I felt lonely.
I felt empty.
I felt broken.
Too many realizations for me
That…
I am no longer happy on what I’m doing.
I am no longer happy at work.
I am no longer happy for myself.
I disregarded too many people especially my friends.
I don’t remember when was the last time that I got to bond with them.
The reason is not because I’m just busy (which is really one of the reasons, but partly the main reason is…)
…I chose to.
I chose to exclude myself from them.
Not because I don’t want to be friends with them anymore.
But because I don’t think I deserve to be called a friend.(AWIT)
I didn’t exert too much effort to bond with them. Whenever they planned a get together, I tend to just read their messages.
I don’t know, nahihiya ako sa kanila kasi parang ang kapal naman ng mukha ko na bigla ako makipagbond with them eh ang tagal ko din di nagparamdam sa kanila.
Ang dami ko tuloy namissed
Reunions, Special occasions.
Sana this 2020 magbago na ko. CHAR
I’ll try to cope up, kahit marami akong plans this 2020.
Sana hindi sila nagtatampo sakin. :D
My OTP ♥
And to end up my Throwback
Ang pinagkakaabalahan ko talaga this 2019 ay ang pagstalk. LOL
I’ve been silently shipping SharDon for almost a year (Shar and Donny)
I don’t know. Ramdam ko lang Chemistry nilang dalawa kahit mas bagets sila saken. Masyado akong attach sa kanila lately. Sila madalas yung nagpapasaya at nagpapakilig saken kahit mostly sa mga seryes lang dahil madalang silang magkaganap.
Sana this 2020 mapush na talaga sila.
P.S: Namiss ko magblog , Namiss ko Tumblr ko. May mapaglalabasan na naman ako ng mga frustrations and Drama ko in life. :D
