Jan 8
i have a confession to make.
ruan mei is very beautiful and scares me in ways i would perhaps like her to keep scaring me and maybe i would even enjoy it if she kissed me a little but just a little! as an experiment you could say. an experiment on how. on how beautiful scary woman effect my vascular system yes. thats all, i would just like to do a little science experiment with her and maybe scissor with her a little i mean what who said that
#lovestruck#she is very beautiful...#she makes me feel so shy hfnncnsmc#kafka doesnt make me feel shy like this but perhaps that is bc kafka would only let me be shy if it amused her#and she enjoys when im open about my feelings with her much more so shed train me out of any shyness very quickly#ruan mei i feel wouldn't notice my shyness/would be indifferent/would be pleased only she gets to see me like that#idk if i want to selfship with her bc of how shy she makes me but. she is very beautiful and interesting#and i could see myself falling very easily if i let myself try ndnamckksk