#shethebestest

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Vonnie’s @vonderful.co been saying she would start running and Jan 1st, 2020 she did! Almost 1.5 miles and nonstop! That stairclimber been paying off! #couplegoals2020 #couplefitness #couplefitnessgoals #shethebestest #mygirlfriendisbetterthanyours #lavergnetn #kvbuyhouses #kvbuyhousestn @kvbuyhouses #growtogether #coupleworkouts #couplerun #couplesrunning (at La Vergne, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6zTwSUHGF3/?igshid=ln0p0jbmy5rf

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Rant time!

It makes me so mad that anyone would ever abuse such a good person. She has a heart of gold, a smile that lights up the room and a personality that I just can’t get sick of. It is terrible that anyone would ever abuse that. We live in a world where we have enough natural sadness and pain that we don’t need any more artificial pain from stupid things like people who live for themselves at whatever expense to someone else. If someone trusts you or if someone loves you, I don’t care who you are or what has happened, you do not shatter that by being a douchebag!  Sometimes it can be hard and things can be messy but walking away with dignity is an option that may in the moment hurt but will get you respect one day. Whereas breaking down a person and walking all over that person makes you a terrible human being. I have witnessed this myself and it’s horrible, it’s degrading and it’s not ok. Those types of people drive me insane and I hope I never become one of them!

Maybe because of them and maybe because of 50 000 other things but she now lives her life confined by barriers to protect herself. Not many people get to see the softness and beauty that makes her so unique and even more amazing.  She lives her life doubting just about everything good and accepting the bad and that makes me so sad.  She is genuinely one of the nicest, most thoughtful and caring friends I have ever had. And it kills me that she struggles to see how much of an amazing friend she is let alone how amazing she is as a person. No one has ever invested so much time into my life over such a short period of time as she has. She puts aside her stress and pain to make sure I am ok. She stays up late just to talk to me. She accepts what has made me who I am and she believes in me. She doesn’t blame me for my mistakes, failings or imperfections; she just accepts them.  These aren’t things you can just buy from the shop of pretend to be; these things are genuine. She is seriously like the movie best friend that you never thought you could have because it’s Hollywood and that is not achievable. If defying the seemingly unachievable doesn’t make you an amazing friend then I seriously don’t know what does.

No one deserves to go to bed feeling useless, worthless, hopeless or a failure. Nothing in life is worth letting people feel this way. It scares me because it is so easy to have a happy persona on the internet when you are dying on the inside. It is so easy to send a smiley face when you have tears running down your face and horrible thoughts running through your mind. It scares me because you just can just never truly know.  I just hope she spends more nights in bed smiling then she does crying. I just hope she goes to bed each night knowing that if nothing else she made it through another day, she is another day stronger and wiser and she should be proud of that. One day she will see that she has the ability to do anything and that I’m not her floaty but more a swimming buddy. When you are around someone all the time you start to think that they are the reason you are staying afloat and forget the fact that you are actually still swimming yourself.  We do life together but if I ever swam away she could go it alone.  I know she could do it so now she just needs to see that. Our swimming buddies make us stronger swimmers, they force us into unknown waters because we don’t want to say no to them. They make us bigger, better and stronger but we tend to forget that the more we grow to appreciate them the stronger we ourselves become just to keep up with the crazy water that we are treading. I don’t ever want to swim away and if I do I want it to be a holiday or a seasonal thing because she will forever hold a significant part in my life regardless of what happens today, tomorrow or 50 years from now. People like her are unforgettable for all the right reasons. 

I love you more than you will ever know and I want nothing but the best for you.