#shigeo angst

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Shigeo Kageyama x Reader

Genre: angst

Type: Drabble/imagine

Warnings!: violence, toxic/abusive relationship, unrequited love, love triangle, Ritsu is portrayed as a bad person!, unfinished!

Summary: What if Ritsu was so upset about his brother’s abilities that he took it out on his best friend?

3rd POV

"What do you mean by that?" Ritsu asked, his voice lost and full of confusion. What did you mean he would never be as good as his brother? Of course he would. He was better than Shigeo in every way. How could this be any different? His expression in an instant changed from confused to furious. It worried you for a moment, knowing of his abilities and how much they had developed so quickly. He wouldn't get seriously mad at you... right? After all, it started off with something so petty. It was after school and you two walked home from school in the same direction so you would often end up going together. You weren't best friends or anything but close enough to hold a decent conversation. You were a year older than him, and a close friend of Shigeo before you met Ritsu. Since Shigeo had his after school activities, you often wouldn't walk home together, you ended up walking with his little brother. Today was one of those days without Shigeo. Who, by the way, you had the most enormously embarrassingly hugely cringey crush on. However, you and your crush's brother, Ritsu, often got into small disagreements and arguments. This was the worst one so far.

<<< "Haha you're so annoying." You chuckled at a joke the boy made. He didn't laugh.

"You're a fucking idiot." He said, probably not meaning much.

"Hey, don't be an asshole."

"Get off my ass, you're being just as obnoxious."

"Jeez, who stubbed your toe?" You asked, his words getting to you a little. An insult or two was normal but after one too many, it began to hurt your feelings a bit. Especially when it was the Kageyama brothers who were insulting you. Not that Shigeo would ever. Last time this happened, Shigeo scolded his brother and took you out for ice cream to cheer you up.

"Don't tell me that, I don't need it right now."

"We'll just because you're having a bad day, doesn't mean no one else is." You began raising your voice, anger rising from what seemed nothing.

"I don't want to be here with you any more."

"I never wanted to be with you at all."

"Fucking pig." You were silent for a long moment, deciding to use this time to stare at his furrowed eyebrows.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now? What is wrong with you?" You were calm now, meaning his words were on your mind. This he knew. "What has you in such a shitty mood? Jesus, Ritsu." It was his turn to remain silent for a minute. He didn't look at you, eyes remaining attached to the floor. Was that a way to disregard your frustration? Maybe, knowing him.

"I've just been thinking. I need to work hard to be better than Shigeo. I will surpass him. You'll help me, won't you?" He turned to you hopefully, that same expression faltering at the sight of your furrowed eyebrows and positively offended face. "Why are you looking at me like that, pig? Stop." That was about it. You went from annoyed to angry. Despite that, you remained silent. "I'm serious, stop it. I don't want to get angry."

"I cannot believe you right now."

"Jesus, y/n, what is with your attitude today? Why are taking all your bullshit out on me?" Your jaw dropped, eyes wide with disbelief.

"You're being serious right now. You're completely serious." You exhaled deeply. "You don't want to get angry, huh? What the fuck are you going to do, hit me?"

"That's what it looks like you're trying to make me do." He was getting annoyed and you both could tell. "All I wanted was your help with surpassing my brother, why is that so hard for you!?" He clicked his tongue, impatient. "You're making everything so complicated."

"I'm making everything so complicated?? Me!?" You were stopped in the middle of the sidewalk. He paused and looked back at you, expression growing angrier by the minute. "What the fuck are you going to do then?" You yelled at him.

"Okay jesus, I'm sorry for whatever the fuck you think I did. Please help me." His tone? Sarcastic. You gritted your teeth and pushed passed him, spitting out a curse with no intent to make it quiet.

"Fuck you, Ritsu, you will never be on the same level as your brother. You have nothing on Shigeo." Putting emphasis on the curse. You nearly squealed when Ritsu gorilla gripped your arm and yanked you back to your position. You groaned in frustration and attempted to pull your arm away from him. The attempt was quickly refuted. The thick of his fingers dug into a vein and you thrashed, effectively making the discomfort worse.

___ "What do you mean?" You guessed that hit a nerve. He didn't bother to let go. But again, he wouldn't hurt you. You two got into fights but you were still friends. Right?

"Ritsu let go of me!!" You growled, eyes filling with tears. This is the worst it has ever gotten (physically); and trust, it had gotten bad before. Another moment was all it took for your palm to collide with his cheek. Earning a loud slapping sound, his head whipped to the side. This moment of silence was short, however, as he immediately turned his head and raised his fist above his head. It felt surreal after he swung. The pain didn't hurt nearly as much as the shock did. Ritsu? Punched you? You slapped him, so maybe a shove or slap was fair. But he punched you? It took a moment for the pain to settle before he dropped you to the ground. You remained jaw dropped and bleeding on the concrete, holding your cheek with your hand shaking vigorously. Your head spun upon collision with the floor. Your vision blurred. Not even your father's belt hit that hard. But he was a psychic so it made sense. Ritsu clicked his tongue and promptly walked away, slinging his school bag over his shoulder. You collapsed backwards, landing on your back. After what you assumed was about 2-5 minutes, and felt like 30, you continued lying on the floor. The only difference was the dried tear that had ridden down your temple and the light footsteps sounding from the direction you and Ritsu had come from. Consciousness was slipping from your grasp, sleep tugging at your eyelids.

I have to get up. You told yourself, recognizing the pattern of footsteps as Shigeo's. Why was he out of Body Improvement already anyways? Why was he walking this way and not to his part time job? Why now of all times and today of all days? This time, despite all your mental efforts, your body wouldn't will itself to stand or even feign some kind of accident.

"Excuse me, do you-..." Shigeo paused once he got close enough to see that it was you lying on the ground. "Y... y/n? Is that you?" You squinted painfully hard and found a another tear slipping down the side of your face.

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"What are you doing on the floor? Did you fall?" You still didn't answer. No matter how much you wanted to sleep right here and right now, it wasn't the time. Please. Don't fall asleep now. Shigeo bent down to your level and his eyes immediately widened. "Hey, y/n, wake up!"

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He shouted, grabbing your shoulder and gently shaking you. It only took you being a second too late to open your eyes for you to feel the anger beginning to radiate off of him. You could hear it in his voice as you opened your eyes to reassure him. His were lost and only getting worse. "Answer me, y/n!" He yelled. Yet his expression of anger didn't falter for a second after seeing you conscious.

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"Who did this to you?" His voice was calm yet broiling with anger, grip tightening by the second until it hurt.

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You didn't answer, you just wanted to sleep. However for Mob, the only thing on his mind was finding the person who had made you bleed. Finding the person who put you on the ground crying.

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"Mob, please... calm down, I'm okay."

"You don't look okay to me." His hair lifted like a crown around his head. You placed a hand against his cheek, one: as an attempt to calm him down so that he wouldn't end up killing his own brother, two: as an excuse to feel his skin against yours in this rare situation. You couldn't deny it. Having Mob all worked up over you really couldn't get much better. However, much to your dismay, the only thing this subtle gesture did was anger him even more.

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Bloodlust oozed from the boy above you. Effectively forcing your hand to drop in its place. Shigeo looked away from you, placing you on the floor gently as he stood and slowly made his way down the street. Each step he took left a dent in the concrete, seeming as though he had weights on his feet; maybe that's why he was walking so slow. "Ritsu." Your eyes widened despite their craving for rest.

"Please, Mob." He ignored you deliberately and you closed your eyes once more. "Come back." He paused for a moment in his place and he debated looking back. But he knew it would only anger him more. He knew. So when he did end up looking back at your tired face, he wondered why he did anyways.

"Ritsu." He repeated as soon as your eyes met. This time, his tone more deadly. It didn't seem to change much but for Shigeo, his head was spinning with hate. How could his own brother do this? How long had this been happening for? Why was he doing this when he was never the type? Always so kind and gentle. When he knew how he felt and what you meant to him? Why? He asked himself again through gritted teeth. Anger. Anger. Anger. He turned to you again, this time quickly and not bothering to try to mask his rage. His eyebrows were furrowed, teeth bared, eyes burning. "WHY!?" He yelled. You sat up to face him properly and shook your head. "Y/n I don't understand." His voice was shaking, he wasn't lying and you knew all too well that he was confused. It was in his eyes that he didn't know what to do. His hair settled against his head and he nearly crawled over to you, sitting next to you on the ground. He cradled your body against him and rubbed his hand comfortingly across your hair. You clutched his hard arm in return and leaned into him. "What happened?" He whispered, trying to su his explosion as much as possible in front of you. It didn't work as he recalled the recent events, his explosion was pulsing through the air once again, lifting his hair right back to where it was floating in the air. "Y/n say something." His voice went lower again as he watched you fall unconscious in his arms. She's just asleep. He tried to convince himself as hard as he could.

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His arms holding you fell to his lap and he stood on his knees. He looked to the sky; the sky was blue as it ever was. It always was. So why wasn't it? Why the moment he felt himself lose control, everything just... died? The meowing of the neighborhood cat silenced. As did the squawking of the birds in their nests. The sky was a deep shade of red, covered in gray clouds. His hair fluttered ecstatically in the wind around him, his eyes flaming white. He looked down at you and gripped your body. Did I do this to you?

Was it me?

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The boy brought his hand to level with his eyes and his mouth was left agape. For the first time, he was seething with hate for himself.

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_________________________________ This is just a drabble because I don't know how to finish it and I just wanted to write it out adiós pendejas