#shihiroposts

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im tired and i just want to feel safe

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Some doodles from the past few weeks

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that feel when you wanna go home but youre already at home :/

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all my interesting ocs have been developed on from people ive met or been in in dreams, which is really cool i think, but they never have names that seem to fit them

i feel like i need to find them again and ask their names

but yeah

i had a dream about healthy polyamory, between me (not Me) and dream!me’s best friend, who i was gay for, but she was straight and married to her husband who i was also dating and gay for. but there was also something like, i was more important than them due to like, a species thing? (the setting was like, regency space opera solarpunk) like the species i was was considered more important or influential, and my dating them both was like an arranged marriage (but they were already a couple and married before i met either of them) to help them politically?? as like a guardian almost? and we went to a ball together and i just,, kept getting lowkey frustrated bc i was dancing and flirting with both of them but only the husband was reciprocating and i felt guilty like i was driving a wedge between them bc he liked me more than her, but if she would just also reciprocate then everything would be fine?? i was just a smol alien who did not understand human gender and sexuality, like it just did not connect for me that she could love me but not sleep with me purely bc my form had boobs and a vagina, and i liked her more than her husband anyway and just :c 

but now i have new ocs at least so

the character who i was in the dream is from a shapeshifter species, but they cant change colouring- mine was brown and gold and honey coloured. 

Their species are naturally sort of like bees for the universe? they pollinate star systems, facilitate the growth of new life, and in return they survive off of starlight and the collective ‘lifeforce’ of civilizations they help create- they have a sort of symbiotic relationship with stars, who are sentient but very slow thinkers, and use the species as their fast-thinking messengers, almost. they are a very lively and optimistic race, very joyful and serene, and they helped humans to find clean energy sources and more supportive planets when their population got too big 

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i just need one good day, just one, 

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How i want to feel about relationships; Arctic Monkeys songs

How i end up feeling about relationships; Marina & the Diamonds songs

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Okay so my inbox is still doing the notification but no message thing, uh, whoever is trying to send messages maybe wait a while or fanmail me? sorry about this >:/

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aahh, i had a really fun time last night, i went out with my friends for the first time in ages (and got very drunk) and then this morning we all went to a lil cafe place n got full english breakfasts, it was so nice~

also dear lord my shitty phone doesnt have spellcheck so reading through the drunk texts i sent is hilarious. at least the datefriend was also drunk so i wasnt the only one being embarassing?? i use so many emoticons. so many

but yeah, also met a rly chill russian friend-of-a-friend whose name i couldnt pronounce so drunk Esme decided he was called Krill.... hmm :/ 

he seemed rly nice though, and also cool smoke tricks!!!