#shirla

[snoopy428]

Dear ex soulmate best friend

So lately really been missing our friendship but I wont tell you any of this because I'm convincing myself that what you did is unacceptable until you apologize for what you did. In honesty I dont care anymore about what you did. I was butt hurt because you always said a guy would never come between us, yet you let one do just that. I was more hurt on how you wanted to come back as if nothing ever happened so you wouldn't have to apologize for it. To this day I want that apology, but just so you know one simple I'm sorry would the job. I really miss our friendship!

[snoopy428]

The weirdest thing is happening this morning. Along with crying my eyes out because I miss my best friend so much. And having to let her go to enjoy heaven is the hardest thing my heart can do! Yet through this pain I have one person who keeps popping up in my mind, and it's kind of making me miss an old friendship I said goodbye to a long time ago. Probably because she was one my few friends that really understood me, or one of my friends that was more like me. I use to say she was my bestfriend soulmate. For a good while she was. So today I miss two friendships, one went to heaven the other I said goodbye too a long time ago.

[snoopy428]

Happy Birthday Bitch

been fighting the urge to say this. But it might still take me some time to get over what we had as a friendship. But anyways Happy Birthday. Its the first year im not trying to do something special for you!

[snoopy428]

What is it about people using people as chew toys. Im not just a toy you can forget and come back to when you remember. Did you have a moment of weekness? Did you have a bad night and think i would be there? Ive been living my life surrounded by those i love and now im actually surrounded by those who love me! So honeslty its better you try not to find me. Dont get me wrong you were my best friend and i will never forget what all youve done for me, or our happy moments. But i know my worth and im not a chew toy!

[snoopy428]

Remember the last time we spoke, back when we were actual friends. Your last words were "my world is fallimg apart!" The thing is mine is too, but i never got to tell you.

[snoopy428]

It's cute how you think that you can just send me a friend request and think I'll accept! That you can just unblock me from everything and it will all be ok! Well why did you block me in the first place? Well just to let you know, no apology no acceptance, and it's not just an apology to me, you one to two other people as well. So until then I don't know you!

[snoopy428]

Funny how life works. Seeing you today gave be a very weird angry feeling in my stomach, I remember the last time I felt that feeling was with the person who was sitting next to me in the car! Best part they were actually in the spot by the same house as you were today! You use to be my best friend who swears would be protecting me from the best friend who was has been with me all day! It's funny how just a year ago I wasn't talking to either of your two friends and now I talk to them and not you! I swear life has such a sense of humor and oh how it life irony!

[snoopy428]

It's official I've lost my best friend, the first person I ever really knew in this horrible state I got stuck in. I've lost the one person who could ever really comfort me when I miss my home. I've lost that one friend who no matter how much time passed by we were still there for each other. I miss my best friend who never toke shit form no one, who always knew her value. I miss my bestie who stay on the phone with me late at night if I needed someone to talk while I sleep. I've lost my best friend, my therapist, my partner in crime, my sister.