#shotin-the-dark

[shotin-the-dark]

fallen trees

grey skyes

i thought i would make it

but it was all lies

broken windows

shapeless creatures

i thought i would make it

when i didn’t have the features

i thought i would make it

but i was just faking it

[shotin-the-dark]

i get myself flowers

and write a letter

i put some perfume

and a pretty dress

i get downstairs

and pretend to be yours

just so i can be alive one more day

while being dead inside

- faking it so i can make it someday

[shotin-the-dark]

she smells like night time

like the encounter of the sea and the moon,

salty and shiny

like hidden raisins in food even when is not december,

always blowing my mind

she smells like pouring rain and wet grass,

putting a smile on my lips

she smells like a new book on an old shelf,

adventurous and familiar

she smells home far away from home,

like more like home than my own

she smells like something i don’t have a name for

but i’m dying to discover

describe a smell // day 15 escapril

[shotin-the-dark]

i’ve been craving for something greater

for that summer vibes and movie night

for heart eyes and jellybeans sky

i’ve been craving for some romance

or just some kissing

or just our hands holding

for some smiles and heart pounding

i want some leg shaking and pretty notes

moonlight dancing and sun flowers.

i just want more

more daydreaming

but something real

but dreaming.

[shotin-the-dark]

as marcas no meu corpo contam as histórias das minhas vidas passadas. elas são como cordilheiras pontiagudas e pálidas, confusas e solitárias. são como lembranças de quem um dia já fui e jamais serei de novo. as marcas no meu corpo contam sobre as guerras eu já enfrentei e as batalhas que eu perdi. elas tecem a minha pele com agulhas afiadas e tricotam momentos na sua superfície. as marcas no meu corpo escondem espaços entre si -- pequenas depressões intocadas -- reservadas para as próximas vidas que viverei e as histórias que carregarei no meu próprio corpo.

a fresh start // day 01 escapril

[shotin-the-dark]

the moon

the stars

the planets

the sun

the galaxies

they don’t seem as far away

as we do

celestial bodies // day 13 escapril

[shotin-the-dark]

i’ve never met more of a lovely creature than yourself when i’m dreaming

- when i close my eyes all i see is you

[shotin-the-dark]

the rain outside

washes my gender away

they navegate throught the sidewalk

and play with the leaves on the ground

they swirl around with the little girl

i once were

they go asleep at the alley

where the other people’s genders

no one cares about

waiting to blossom

with the may flowers

april showers // escapril day 02