#shouldnt be

[orthoscheme]

i should hallucinate more

[scary-terryy]

I have way too much anxiety and I kinda wish someone would put me out of my misery

[the-pineapple-stole-my-husband]

there's something, in a way, about how it feels when you have a parent who denies your identity, demands that you will always be who they see you as

and it's like....yeah, yeah a part of me always will be that person. i can never fully erase who i was raised as, all those years of being the child they still see. that is forever going to be a part of me and I can never hate who I was. It's impossible. I am an amalgamation of everything I have ever been and what I will be.

and yet all that is seen is what is in the past, with no room to be different in parent's eyes and that hurts more than anything

[allartistsgalore]

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[xerospaced]

Sensory overload to this extent - rarely experienced with company

Did not help myself

Tried to silence my incessant chatter

Resulted in involuntary stimming

Tried to suppress that

Mutism

Dark room . Weighted blanket .

Does not reassure me.

After realising out loud that I'm not ashamed of the likely autism - there's just something about people seeing it that feels me with inexplicable fear.

Had to go to Tesco.

Bright . Tight . Loud .

Too much and too cold and too wet and could not stop talking.

"Telling yourself to shut up isn't helping."

Breaks me.

Gotta stop apologising for simply being.

Too concerned with being too much.

I'm different.

Not wrong. Just different.

[ghostchilismoothie]

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[rafestyles]

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[marvel-at-the-stars-darlin]

I spent the weekend with Arr and now I've felt anxious about how we are since then. I know things are fine and got even better than before but I think he's getting to the comfortable stage where he isn't as flirty anymore and I still wanna be. We're talking about it now but I always downplay my feelings so they don't seems too strong and I'm nervous i won't get to say what i need to say because I'll dismiss myself.